The Neo Organization

"They would only kill you. You see, people don't like us nobodies. The whole world that they live in drills into us that we're powerless that we're weak that our society is evil, so on and so forth. It's all a big fat lie, we are powerful, beautiful and extraordinary. There is no reason why we cannot understand who we truly are, where we are going, there is no reason why the average nobody cannot be fully empowered, we are incredibly powerful beings." Nebx said looking at Xokim.

 

Xokim looked at Nebx, "Why....Why dont they understand us...?Just think if they were in our shoes..."

 

"You see, now in their culture they have been trained for individual differences to stand out, so they look at each person and immediate hit is brighter, dumber, older, younger, richer, poorer and they make all of these dimensional distinctions, put them in categories and treat them that way. And they get so that they only see others as separate from themselves, in the ways in which they're separate and one of the dramatic characteristics of experience is being with another person and suddenly seeing the ways in which they are like you, not different from you, and experiencing the fact that which is essence in you, and which is essence in me, is indeed ONE, the understanding that there is no other, it is all one." Nebx said crossing his arms.

 

Xokim looked at her shoes, she bit her lip, "Man....Boy do I just want to die right now..."

 

"You shouldn't. I think I spent afew years of my life, trying to become something, I wanted to become good at things, I wanted to become good at tennis, I wanted to become good at school and grades and everything I kind of viewed in that perspective. I'm not okay the way I am, but if I got good at things. I realized I had the game wrong, because the game was to find out what I already was." Nebx said.

 

Xokim closed her eyes, "You sound so smart, but.....- Nevermind...I'll see you later..." She said quietly and stood up then started to walk up another stair case

 

"The old appeals to racial, and religious chauvinism, to rabid nationalist fervor are beginning not to work, a new consciousness is developing which sees the world as a single organism and recognizes that an organism at war with itself is doomed." Nebx said was Xokim began to leave. Nebx got up and walked away to his room.

 

Xokim sighed, she looked over her should and found no one there. She looked to ahead of her and continued to walk

 

Exel sat in the library alone reading a book.

 

I finished my drawing. I looked over it, tears filling my eyes. It was a picture of Dave, Luc, Adam, Lisa, James, Sara, and myself. Dave was standing on the left, arms crossed. Beside him, was Luc, and he had his training staff in his right hand. Next to Luc, was Lisa, and she was looking down. Beside her, was Adam, and he had his head turned slightly to the right. Beside him, was James, and he had his hand on his long sword's handle. Beside him was myself, and I had a very sad look in my eyes. And beside myself, was Sara, and she was smiling as she always did. Even when she died...

I sat back in my chair, and sighed. I let a couple of tears slip down my cheecks. I then stood up, formed a knife in my hand, and tacked the picture to the wall with that knife. I tacked one more knife to it, and stared at the picture. I sighed, looking down. I wished that I hadn't of done what I did....

 

Exel heard several taps from the knife far away and tried to ignore it while reading.

 

Nebx walked around the halls wondering what to do.

 

I sighed, sniffling a little. "....I'm sorry you guys....I'll have to find your graves....and lay flowers down....I still don't remember where I buried you guys, though...." I said sadly. I kept trying to think of where it was...but the memory wouldn't come to me....

 

Exel once again is at the roof's edge to do his 26th attempt.

 

I looked sadly at the picture, sniffling. "...I will..." I said. I then slowly, quietly walked out of my room, closing the door sloftly behind myself. I started to head down the hall. I planned to go to one of the balconys up above, to stare at the sky from. I wanted to.

 

20 minutes later.....

Exel walked down the hall haolding his arm and saw Saxilesm. Hey. WHat's wrong? He asked.

 

I looked up at Exel, and wiped my eye quickly. "Nothing." I said. "Hey...what's wrong with your arm?" I asked him, noticing that he was holding his arm.

 

Oh that? Well, I did my 26th attempt and another utter failure. Now all I ever get is pain and agony.He said.

 

I stared at him. "...You....tried to kill yourself again? Twenty sixth?? Why?" I asked him sadly.

 

Like I said, I don't want to hurt anyone else with my anger and rage. He said.