The Neo Organization

"Yeah, thats really helpful." Nebx said.

 

"I know" she said and smiled at him.
"But seriously, just ask her" she said. "All she can say is no. And your the "superior", you can get over it" she said.

 

I was still lying on my bed, pouting and angry. I sat up, and sighed. 'I cannot feel.' I said sternly in my mind, one last time. I then got up off of the bed. I grabbed my hoody, and slipped it on, zipping it up. I walked over to the desk, and sat down in the chair. I grabbed my pencil, and a blank sheet of paper, and I started drawing quickly on it...

 

Nebx sat in sileance.

 

Xaeon walked out of the kitchen.
I feel kind of sorry for him she thought

 

I finished my drawing, and looked over the sloppy design. It was of a pack of wolves. The wolves looked angry, they were in attacking positions, and they viciously beared their fangs. There were 7 wolves. I sat back in the chair, and sighed, dropping my pencil on the desk. 'Maybe...if I just keep myself busy, and away from Ne...The Superior, I will not feel anything.' I thought. I closed my eyes softly, and slowly, and I tried to relax myself.

 

Nebx sighed deeply and walked out of the kitchen.

 

I walked out of my room and felt kind of hungry so I head for the kitchen.

 

I was still sitting in my seat, eyes closed, leaned back. I sighed, unable to relax. I felt empty and restless. I snapped my eyes open, and stood up quickly. "I can't stand this." I said aloud. "What do I do??" I asked myself. I walked over to my bed, and sat down. I let flames flow through my fingers, and the flames formed throwing knives between my fingers. I threw the knives in my left hand at the wall above my art table, stabbing into the wall with keen accuracy. I threw the knives in my right hand at the wall afterwards. I then conjured up eight more knives between my figres, thrown the ones in my left hand at the wall, followed by the ones in my right. I kept this rhythm going, not stopping. I was trying to get rid of the angry confusion built up in me.

 

I walked into the kitchen and suddenly didn't feel hungry anymore probably because the flashback effected me too much so I just sat at the table and laid my head down. The next thing I knew I was asleep.

 

Xensoa walked out to the garden and smiled. Her mind was still confused at what Nebx said.

 

I threw eight more knives at the wall, then stopped. I let my head drop, and evened my ragged breathing. I took deep breaths, then took one final deep breath, slowly let it out, and rose my head back up. I figured that I would be fine now, that I couldn't feel, and would not allow myself to do so. I slowly stood up, and walked to my door. I unlocked it, then walked outside of it, lightly closing it behind myself. I started walking down the halls, on a walk to clear my mind of what's happened.

 

Xensoa sat on the bench and started to sketch some of the flowers.

 

I walked down the halls, and reached the doors leading into The Garden. 'Maybe I should go to The Garden. It's large and very pretty. I might be able to clear my mind, there...' I thought. I walked up to the door, and opened it slowly. I walked into The Garden, and looked at one of the benches. Xensoa was sitting on it, sketching the flowers. "Hello Xensoa." I said to her, walking over to her.

 

Xensoa looked at Saxilesm and smiled. "Hello, Saxilesm. How's your day going?"

 

I smiled back at her. "Bad." I said. I walked over to the empty side of the bench, and sat down beside Xensoa. I sighed, feeling a bit sad, but not wanting to feel at all. I kept telling myself in my mind, that I couldn't feel...

 

"How bad is it?" Xensoa looked at her sketch.

 

"It's as bad as bad can be...." I told her. I stared at the flowers to my right with dull eyes. I felt very annoyed with Nebx at this point. I couldn't even sort out what I feel. I felt lost...

 

Xensoa looked toward the flowers she'd sketched. 'I still don't get what he meant......' she whispered to herself.

 

"All I know, is that I want Nebx to stray away." I said. I kept repeating in my head that I couldn't feel, and that I didn't care for Nebx. Though, I was starting to believe that less...