The Escape

"I dunno..." Said Roxas he hid his face back in his hands. he then laid down. "I think Axel and Xion are near by..." said Roxas senseing them he showed his face the tears were gone, but his eyes showed that they were for a fact crying, "That means I have to go soon." Roxas sighed he didn't want to see Xion's face, right now just thinking about her made him mad, thinking about Axel made him gulitly.

 

Xathabat looked at demyx sadly." can i go with you roxas,i dont want to leave you alone..." she mumbled her eyes grew sad and filled with tears.

 

"Xathabat...Stay here, I'm just going to be outside, I'll make sure you can see me...I'm not going to do it agian, at least not now...I just can't face them...not like this..." said Roxas placeing his hand on his cut wraist, he winced agian.

 

Xathabat looked at him worried and wiped the tears that were leaking out of her eyes." no,i won't leave you alone again..."she whimpered.

OOC: you know how hard it is to make my charter be positive when im such a negitive person lol XD

 

"Fine..." said Roxas he hugged her, "I'll stay in here then... Don't fallow me if i go out in the hall, please, just don't..."

OOC:I know what you mean...I'm a negitive person too...even thought I smile at times...

 

Xathabat sighed." i wont if you promise not to hurt yourself anymore..." she said and looked at the ground.

 

"I promise I won't hurt myself anymore..." said Roxas he looked at the ground shakeing, "I'll see how long I can keep the promise...I'll try my hardest, but at times I like the pain."

 

Xathabat looked at him." but pain should never be tooken alone roxas, pain may help you numb the real pain but it will never leave for good untill you stand up to it." she said and sat back on her bed and sighed she started feel cold again.'wha-...' she thought to her self, her eyes widen as her hands started to shake.

 

"I'm not standing up to anything...at least not now..." said Roxas laying under the covers of the bed, he was cold.

 

Xathabat couldnt stop shakeing and she began to cry."stop...this can't be happening now..." she whimpered. she wraped herself in the blankets hopefully to warm herself up and cried harder as she noticed her tears were a little red and she gasped.

 

Roxas sat up hugging Xathabat putting his blankets around her, he hugged her tightly, trying to warm her up. "If the bloods comeing just let it out..." said Roxas, "We will go through the blood like together like a younger brother and older sister would go through a problem together." Roxas looked away from her as the pain in his stomach came back along with the taste of blood. "Mines comeing out also..."

 

Xathabat closed her eyes tight as her bloody tears poured out of her eyes and as she started to shake from the cold."i dont want to feel it anymore.."she whimpered.

 

Roxas attempted to wipe away the tears but to didn't work very well, he looked at his hand it was cover in blood, he remmebered the night tried to kill himself by cutting himself. He stared at his hand, then wiped it off on his pants. "Just go throuhgt the pain now...remeber it will disappear sometime..." said Roxas, he looked at the hand that didn't have a cst on, his head was throbbing and his hand was throbbing. "I promised I wouldn't do it..." thought Roxas looking at his hand and then at the door "Don't do it... Can I control myself? I can't cut myself angain I nearly died last time...."

 

Xathabat whimpered and opened on eye to look at him."roxas just never forgot your not alone." she said with a cough and huged him."i may not be much, and i may not be a good friend but i'll always be with you." she said softly and smiled weakly.

 

"wait are you dieing? you can't! your the only one who understands my problem!" said Roxas looking at Xathabat, his wraist continued to throb.

 

Xathabat noded her head slowly."im not at the point of dieing yet, i still have time dont worry roxas." she smiled weakly." i know people care about me now,but they weren't there before and it will take to time to heal scarres from the past, but ill keep trying, do you want to fight this togather?" she asked.

 

"Let's fight it together..It would be the best way." Said Roxas, he felt the blood riseing in his throat. "In the man time...I'll be in the bath room letting the blood escape." said Roxas going into the bathroom throughing up blood into the toilet.

 

Xathabat looked at demyx sadly.'im happy he cant see me like this..or he'll never see me as a girlfiend and jsut a weird creepy friend.' she thoguht and sighed and got some tissues and wiped her bloody tears.

 

Roxas sat in the bahroom he had finally stoped throughing up. He leaned agianst the wall when he fouond some scissors, those can drain the pain away...but I promised Xathabat I wouldn't, One cut can't hurt...could it?

 

Xathabat sighed and went to check on roxas." are you feeling any better? im not." she said weakly and fell to her knees.'maybe im not alright as i though..' she thought to her self as she winced in pain as she grew more cold and shivered.