Life has recently become very VERY stressful and at the moment I really have no idea how to start handling it. I'll start from the beginning... since that's the best place to start. 2 years ago in June was the start of my fainting. It was the start of my condition where I just collapsed in stressful situations as a sort of defense mechanism, like my body was subconsciously trying to get out of a bad situation and it happened A LOT. By a lot I mean at the beginning it would happen at least twice a week if not more. Many days off school and trips to doctors/hospitals and such, the medical staff concluded that I suffered from severe anxiety and low moods. The main cause of my fainting was my fear of running long distances and also my boyfriend at the time, he abused me emotionally basically, he sort of lead me on and I could never tell if he liked me which lead to my constant worry about how well things were going, which inevitably lead to our break up. While we were together he was so busy and I just wanted to see him, I was also quite depressed because he made me feel insecure and the things we did, well, I didn't really want to do them but I was so scared that if I said no then he wouldn't like me any more. In my low moods I thought it was him, let's call him Gordon, that was making me feel better but it was him that was causing my pain so after an 8 month relationship he broke up with me in a savage manner (he told everyone before me that he was breaking up with me and then did it in public in front of all my class mates when I was at my weakest). It didn't take me long to realise how much pain he'd caused me and after we'd broken up my fainting reduced a lot, I only really fainted once a month if not less. My fainting continued for 2 years until this one time just after an English lesson when I heard my very busy English teacher ask if he could leave as he had work to do, the other teachers helping me ignored him so he stayed, I felt so guilty, like such a burden that I vowed to fight with all my strength to not faint. It worked as well, whenever the dizzy feeling came on I would fight and override the 'need' to faint so I thought I had seen the end of it. That was until last Friday, I was stressed about friends and exams and during the lunch period I was doing some work when a friend of mine made a snide remark and I just snapped at her, it wasn't anything too drastic but I was sick and tired of her bullshazz that I just flipped. In the afternoon I had Biology, we were doing practise exam questions and because of the events at lunch I was stressed out as it was and then with these questions placed infront of me that I didn't fully understand stressed me out even more. I tried to read the questions but my mind was hazzy and stressed out that I didn't really know how to answer. This all escalated until I just uncontrollably screamed out in (emotional) pain, stunning my class to silence and then I fainted off a science lab stool and hit my head. Not only did I despise myself for being a burden but also for being weak and for scaring my friends. I was sent home and I tried to relax at home. It is now wednesday and I still have a headache and I'm a bit forgettful which also isn't helping my stress levels. In the little free time I have, I try to get on KHV and talk to my friends especially this one person and I'm so scared of loosing any of them, I feel like recently I've been a right downer and I fear pushing them away as I try to seclude myself. What I really need is a way to deal with this stress and possibly someone who may understand what I am going through. I have exams in a month and I feel completely unprepared for them so I am starting to revise but I still have fears of failure, fears of not being good enough and fears of fainting as a result. I thought I knew how to handle this stress of fainting but right now I am clueless. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. Also, I apologise for any gramatical or spelling errors, my head still doesn't feel right and I am far too tired to spell check. Enjoy the essay, most of all I just really needed to unload all of this as I don't know who else to turn to.
That fainting stuff must suck. :( First you should maybe take a walk. Because its been proven that exercise reduces stress. But if you don't have time to take a walk just take a break and maybe relax for a couple of minutes. Just to calm down. Another thing is that your friends on KHV will ALWAYS be there for you so don't you worry about that. I'm sorry that I can't help you with the studying part because I have troubles with studying to. :( I hope you feel better soon. If not you can always PM or VM me.
This must be hard, Enzy. =/ But don't forget that we will always be by the other side of this computer you're using right now, but there are those bond that connect us even if you're in the other side of the world, so don't worry about we leave you because that will never happen. You know, when I have some sort of problems, I have a way to try to get out. When I am in a embarrassing situation I try to laugh with everyone. When I am in a very embarrassing, sad and bad situation, the best thing I try to do is just go away; this is hard, but we have to be strong to tell ourselves to do the best thing. So find a time of your day and lie in the bed, relax, take a deep breath. Maybe listen music, one that you really like to hear. Just don't forget to try to calm down and taking deep breaths, empty your mind and you will probably relax. Once you relax, remember how is to feel like that, because when you're in a situation you might faint, remember that relaxing feeling that is being somewhere you can call home. Do you have a best friend? Or someone you trust? You may need a time with that person to talk, she/he will understands you, will help you. You can control yourself, you can't choose what you feel, it will have to come normally with the situations. But you can choose your path, you can choose how you will live; just try your best to be happy. Try your best to be who you want to be and live as you want to live. I know that it's easier to talk than to do, and that this post may not be of much help to you. And I am sorry, I'm not the right person to give advice, but I want you to know that I'm here trying to help you, like everyone here in KH-Vids. You're not alone, so don't forget we're always with you. I hope you feel better really soon. I wish you good luck with everything, and as everyone have/will say, PM or VM us if you want to talk, because we will.
*Hugs her sissy and never lets go* I so sorry sweetie :( I don't know what I would do if I started fainting... You are so strong for hanging tough and not giving up. Just try to stay out of those situations if you can. Just to try relax- or momenti as Terriermon would say xD If you need anything I'll be here for you <3
Ever tried some meditation or relaxation techniques ? Different meditation techniques are suited to different personality types, some of them can be practiced quickly, anytime, any place. Maybe you should try to look for some that work for you. I mean pure techniques, forget any sketchy "how you should think" guidebook that one might lead you to believe is part of the package. A technique that works for me is the caffeine nap. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Power_nap
Aww, Izzy <3 First of all, I know how you're feeling with the weakness thing, I go through it a lot with my condition. The first thing you need to realise is that you are not weak. You said that this was a medical thing, so accept it as a part of you. You also said you despise yourself for scaring your friends, it's not your fault. It was something beyond your control, and they got scared because they didn't know how to react or what to do in that situation and they care about you. As for the studying, take short breaks every hour. A 15 minute break is good, sit down with a cup of tea and a KitKat or whatever and just relax (breathing exercises may help here), then go back to your studying with a clearer mind. I can't help you too much on the studying front, but I do know the pressures of it. Remember if you wanna talk or rant to me you can, okay? Hope you feel better soon.
