**** my life.

Guys I seriously need help. It just hit me today. My life is a complete ****ing waste. I have nothing on this planet to live for. No one gives a **** about me. I'm pretty sure all of my friends would be a lot better off without me dragging them down constantly.

And y'know, I think it's been like this all my ****ing life. Everyday is the same. I wake up, put on facade of happiness, make a few people laugh, but inside I'm not happy. Inside I feel hollow and it feels like something in my life is missing. People say I'll find that thing, but **** that. I'm not wasting my life searching for something that doesn't exist: My happiness.

Man...I'm always in fights with my friends, I'm constantly paranoid about asking people for things, because I'm afraid they'll get angry with me if I ask for something. I'm live in a life full of paranoia and fear. I cannot live in fear my whole life, but...things just won't seem to change. No matter how hard I try to twist my life around for the better; nothing.

I can't find a job, and I'm sick of being a burden to my parents. Always asking for things because I can't get a job, all because I'm a loser and a failure. I often wonder what my own parents think of me. I wonder if they even like me, y'know?

I haven't gotten a hug from my mother in months. I don't think she even wants me around anymore. She never tells me she loves me or anything a mother would tell her child. I used to be so close to her, but now...

And my dad. I've always dreaded the thought of my dad becoming upset with me. I think he's upset with me constantly, but he just doesn't show it too well. He never speaks to me, even when I try to speak to him.

Oh, and one more thing about my mother. She's an alcoholic. Everyday she goes to The Pub and drinks all night. And this effects my diet a lot, because I can't cook and she brings home pizza all the time. So basically all I can eat are some snacks and pizza. That's it. This isn't healthy at all.

I'm tired of it. I'm sick of it. **** my life. And **** everything in it. Nothing matters anymore. I give up.

 

HAHAHAHAHAHA. YOU'RE HILARIOUS!

Yeah, blame everything on hormones.

 

you


don't joke about this :/ I'm the same age so don't **** around with something like this


kaythxbai

 

Hot sig is hot.

 

You can't give up! I know that people will say that things will change, but I will be honest with you, that will probably never happen. I think that if you try super hard to get a job this will help a lot. Maybe then you can move out.[this depends on how old you are but I do not have that information] Anyway, just keep trying and don't up. We are all here for you.

 

You are a mean poo head ;~;

 

That's not funny.
I felt the same way.

I know how ya feel.

 

1.Dont go emo,its just some type of phase. at least you've got a home to live in.

2. keep looking for a job so you wont have to,dont sit down and complain,just try harder.

3.how about YOU hug your mother when she gets home,or when you get home.

4. sit down with your dad and tell him how you feel

5.Have you asked her to try and cook before she goes?

6. You'll live.

and guys chill the hell out,jeez. all your doing is saying that's not funny and all that BS,how about YOU try HELPING him.

 

Dont be hatin' on xRoyale just cause you have no sig.

 

I was talking about you ;_;

 

I agree! I don't think that we should joke about this. I already have one friend who is depressed.

 

suck's doesn't it? D:

I feel the same way right now... ;~;

 

funny i was never like that

uh things will get better,but u have to want it to

 

Aww. D:

Well, your life sucks, because your doing nothing to change it. Go out there, and try to make it better, sitting here on KH-V *****ing about it won't make it any better. Don't have a job? Go out there, and find one. There's plenty to go around. Can't cook? Buy a cookbook. Afraid your Dad is upset? Chances are he's not, because he's your Dad. Go talk to him.

It will probably get worse, if you do nothing.

 

Here's the deal. About your friends,try not to be so paranoid! Try seeing their point of views and go talk to them about your life.They will probably understand your ordeal(Yes even those jerks that says that all that is 'girl talk'). Try not fighting them.Just think what thing you'll probably have after the fights,bassically nothing positive. Besides,your frineds would probably leave you behind if you don't speak up.
As to your mom,try making her sit down and speak your mind.Just try not talking to her when she's drunk(She'll probably forget the talk and/or get sick due to the beers).Tell her how it's hard to find a job,how you would like to see her out of alcoholism(Yes I made it up! =3),and start telling her pretty much everything.
Your dad,just have a one-on-one time together to a place that you KNOW that he will not resist going to! There you cab tell him how much you tried talking to him,even though it lead you there.He'll probably give you advices of how to have a better life .
As for your job,try looking for a job that you KNOW that will be interesting for you.Pick a type of job that you would like and get a small job first(McDonalds,Burger King,Janitor,Ect.). Don't get distracted from the real life and just concentrate on what you have to do while working. For example,you can't just go and start talking about going to a club while on register duties at a supermarket. Think of what makes you hireless(Another made-up word! Forgive me! >.<),maybe how you talked to the boss,your attitude,ect. Change THAT around and maybe you'll get a job. When you get better on the business,start thinking of moving out,even if it's a rented apartment in Downtown. Later on in life,you'll see that it will benefit you!

>.< Wow! That is alot that I wrote,so feel lucky that I wasted 10 minutes writing this for you. You better use my advice!! =3

 

Have you ever considered counseling? Something simple like that could probably prove itself helpful in your situation. =/

Just a thought.

 

1. That's true, but I've felt this way for a long time no, over half a year. I'm not sure a phase lasts this long.

2. You don't think I've been trying? I've been trying for months.

3. I don't have the time. She leaves early in the morning (like 5 AM) for work, and I wake up at like 12 PM. She doesn't get home till 9-ish when she drinks, and then she's too drunk to hug.

4. Uh...No. He'll probably end up thinking I'm a big ******.

5. She isn't home long enough to do so.

6. kk.

Okay, people need to stop assuming I'm doing nothing to change anything with my life just because I spent about 5 minutes typing all of this **** up. Seriously.

 

1. Puberty is a huge phase..and can you tell me how long that lasts? XD

2. Then try some more,mow your neighbors lawn or something.

3......12 pm?.. do you have school? and just tell your mom that you think she has a drinking problem and she needs to stop.

4. Well then you can fear how your dad feels for the rest of your life.just be a man and talk to the guy.

5. Well leave a note out for her and explain that eating pizza and junk food isnt healthly.'

And to whoever de repped me,leave your name and stop being a coward.who the hell said I was trying to be funny?..

 

Jermon.. >_> would you just get your shit together and stop complaining? You sound just like every other melodramatic kid out there. Yeah, you're not a special snowflake, so just get over yourself. Harsh but troof.

 

Well, that's my bad for assuming that.

You could always try counseling like Nobody's Shadow recommended. Besides that I don't know what to tell you.