Well, you see... My personality changes on the dime sometimes... Such as one moment I'll be happily disscussing anime and the next I'm p.o.'d and friggin screaming at people. One day I'll f eel cute and confident, then one I step foot off the bus I'm almost depressed enough to make suicidal attempts. I was wondering if anybody here had some experience and could help me. AND MY GOD, NO MATTER WHAT I'M NOT GOING TO A THERAPIST DUDE
*Sigh* Okay. You probably have Bi-Polar Active Disorder, like me. That was exactly what I was like. I hated it. It was taking such a toll on me, that I actually tried to kill myself four times. Then My friends would worry, or I'd yell at them, or I'd get into fights with god knows who. And especially people I shouldn't have. Then something happened that sent me off the edge. I had always hated counselors, but then one day I stormed into her office and yelled and screamed and cried until I felt somewhat better. I was shocked. I never liked them, and they sure as hell were not going to get anything out of me. Or so I thought. I was confused about the fact that I actually went to one, and then when I was finished, I felt better...ish. It just removes the stress of it all, that's it. Then after the thing that sent me over the edge, I told the counselor I never would have trusted to tell which of my friends I talk to the most, you know? These people, just because you talk to them, it doesn't mean your crazy. And it sure as hell doesn't mean you have to go see a 'Shrink'. Just to have someone to confide in, someone to tell about how your emotions are all hay wire makes all the difference in the world. To be honest, I was exactly like that before I went in to the Doctors for a Diagnosis.
I know I don't have Bi-Polar disorder... It doesn't run in my family and no doctor has mentioned it. I haven't told my friends about all of it, but I gave one a friggin bloody nose and fractured ankle. My mother has threatened to send me to a therapist. I know it's not terrible or anything... It's just it makes me feel so... powerless to need help.
You're not diseased or anything. It's called being a woman and a teenager. (Well, I'm guessing your a teenagers?) Female's hormones go out of wack during ages of 12-24 or so and it also conitnues through life. We all have to deal with it. I feel EXACTLY the same all the time.
If you had split personalities you'd have random blackouts, which I assume you don't. You're going through puberty, suck it up.
True, if you have multiple personalities, then you would experience black-outs and it that change of emotion wouldn't happen so sudden. So yeah, what you're experiencing are called 'mood swings' or something like that. :/
I'm bipolar, that or manic, runs in the blood. As for you I think that the other people here got it right. The last ones to post, btw.
I've had experience with this and my advice to you is to try and deal with it. Your you and if split personalities is occuring try and focus on being one personality... Confusing I no..
You might just be going through mood swings...severe mood swings, or Just be borderline..My cuz has borderline.
I have a whole legion of friends who have both been diagnosed WITH bipolar disorder, and flip their emotions on a dime to the point where they consider themselves that way, anyway. Personally. I go through similar. I can jump from being affectionate with someone to threatening to rip the skin off of their skulls. And I usually express this verbally. Until you come in contact with medication, its only a matter of having at least some control over your emotions and your reactions to different situations.
Exactly, but if you feel that you cannot control yourself, then at least try to get....well I know you said....but medical help is 1 solution.
It does sound to me by what you describe, that you do not have multiple-personalities. MPD is a lot different than this. As others have said, it seems like bipolar, which means you will feel extreme emotions that deviate from happiness to rage to depression etc. It also may be that you are just experiencing extreme mood swings now as part of adolescence, which is giving off symptoms of bipolar. Diagnosing teens with bipolar can be a pretty dangerous thing as well, the medicines are not the greatest so it's nice if the doctors could be more 'sure'. The teenage years and chemical changes can show signs of quite a few disorders and mental conditions, so I can see your reluctance to go to be diagnosed and possibly end up on some drug that may or may not be right for you. In the end though, if nothing else works and you feel suicidal etc, I would urge you to do so because your life is important. If you refuse therapy for it, the thing I would suggest you do is try to do meditation and learn about your emotions so you can get a better grip on your life. Meditation done right can help alleviate a lot of pains and stresses that build up. Also, make sure you get the proper amount of sleep and do some exercising. This could be a temporary thing as teenagers often can be quite emotional because adolescence just changes the body and can make things go out of whack, including emotional states. Perhaps even try to do such things as read on books about how the brain works as these can be pretty insightful and sometimes you can relate and think of ways yourself on how to deal with emotional excess by relation. Some great books have been written by Steven Pinker, and many psychologists refer to his books for information at times. They are long reads but perhaps something like these books will assist you in coming to understand yourself better so that you don't feel these emotions are so out of control. If you would like some help on some good meditative practices, I would be glad to post a couple techniques here you can try out or that anyone can for when they feel overly stressed. I do hope you feel better soon and things become stable for you.
