Me, Xoug, have these last words for you guys:

I was desperate and I am aware that I must have mental problems, but I did what I did because one day, I stopped to think and I realized that, she mattered so much to me that some day, even if it were in a VERY distant future, I would hurt her in some way, the smallest thing it could be. So I set up a plan and lied to hertelling her that she told me a lie when she said she loved me.... It's very confusing....
So today, she thinks I don't trust her and she does not like me anymore.

You guys from this forum reeeealy could help by talking to her, because I am willing to do anything to have her back... especially therapy. y.y


her e-mail: {This is edited so as to protect a person's email address. Please do not post people's emails publicly so that just anyone can have them. We do not want you or her to be harassed. See my message below.} - Repliku.

her name is yasmin (call her "Kira-chan") she speaks portuguese but she understands english very well, and don't bother her, I beg you!
oh, you should actually explain the situation and please apologise for any inconviniences okay? Ò.Ó

 

Well, you can't have her back if you're dead...why not think about this and let people talk to you before you do something drastic?

 

You are talking very fast and well, not making much sense in seriousness. What exactly did you do that upset her? That would help us to assisting you with some advice. Also, why would you hurt her or yourself?

Ok.. so again, why did you set her up in that way in the first place? Were you hurt by someone in the past and decided to break things with this girl before you felt you could get hurt again? It seems whatever you did, it backfired seriously and you may just have to come clean to her that you were not yourself and were being stupid. I don't really see how else you can get her attentions back as you seem really emotional and erratic and if you want her back, you must calm down. Even if you can't get her back as a girlfriend, you need to calm down because you will scare her. We all make mistakes but going crazy about it will not help you here. Can you explain -why- you lied to her and set her up as in she lied to you? This may be what you need to explain to her, but I feel it is rather imperative that you re-word it before you do talk to her.

You really should not give out a friend's email on a forum public place like that. We cannot just talk to her anyway. It is you who needs to calm down and try to get your thoughts together so that you can talk to her. Do you really want her getting a ton of emails from people she has no clue of? That's not a good way to go about things if you don't want her to feel pressured and freaked out. If you want her to calm down, first thing to do is to talk here and explain slower and in more detail what is happening so we can help you get an order to things. Then you can try to talk to her as she too will be more calm. We really could not email her to explain the situation anyway as you are not very clear on what exactly it is, including your past that made you decide to set her up in the first place. We'd like to assist you, but please try to be more clear.

 

I think your schizophrenic. That, or you really don't know how to write in English. It sounds like you put this girl through a lot by lying to her and making her think that she lied to you (If i'm correct).

You need to move on. Be better to another girl. Obviously you put this one through a nightmare.

and what the heck is this, oxymoron much?

You talk to her. It's up to the person that made the mistake to apologize, not some random people you meet on a forum.

Oh, and yes please, go get therapy. None of us here on the forum are certified in psychology.....

 

Seriously dude, if all this suicide crap is because of a girl then you need help. I know that it must be hard to lose someone who was close to you, but ending your life over this? Death is the cowardly way of dealing with stuff.
You need to understand that there are other girls that you can fall in love with.
What you're going through now might be hard and not fun at all, but time heals all, and after a while it will fade away.

I say, try to fix things, whatever needs fixed, since we don't even know what's going on. If you can't fix it, suck it up and deal with your problems like a man. It's not the end of the world man, there is so much to live for..

 

THIS is why you were going to kill yourself? Dude, you need help. This is not the last time things like this are going to happen, it's a part of life. You need to get over it.
I now feel no remorse for making fun of you.