KHV Confessions

Didn't you confess that you were a girl once? Boy that was an earth-shaker.

 

Vivi and SJ? ....... Me? :3

 

I seriously doubt any member has had a crush on me, unless they like the ******* type.

 

gusy

rememre wehn i said abotu an hour sago that i was a little timpsy?

well

i'm wasated now.

confession made

 

Same same :) It's nice that we all can share secrets....helps get them off our chests and it definitely makes you feel better when you can tell people who have their own confessions that may be similar to your own. We all can relate!

 

One of my major things is that I hate being male with a passion, even though I'd never be able to do anything about it because I want a family in the future too much. There's also the fact that I'm currently in love with a girl who is definitely straight.

 

Oh you. I've seen what you look like, freaking liar.



Didn't you talk with three girls on webcam on MSN once?

 

There is one thing I know for sure and maybe it relates to many of you. KHV affected our lives and how much we grew from the person we used to know before this site. Where we grew up at our own pace but we learned a lot about ourselves.

The reason why I left KHV in 2009, I could not stand a certain admin who believed she was the best. Where she did say **** about me but I'm glad I realized this when i was away from KHV during that time. It takes a while for me to trust people and it still can backfire on you. I'm so glad that I actually found people who wouldn't betray me and they are still my friends to this day. I was tired of the drama that I was put through and even in real life, rumors spread about me being suicidal because of not being asked to prom.

Many of you know I want a dog. The reason I want one because I feel like they could be a better companion that a human, they don't judge by how you look and if you're good to them, they are loyal.

 

<3 Sabby, I will always look up to you and I think you are so lovely.


I think I'll be serious,

CAT, I WAS THE ONE WHO BURNED YOUR APP!

No, really:

• I feel inadequant a lot of the time because I blow everything I do wrong into gigantic proportions.
• I constantly fear people not listening to me because my friends interupt me a lot and sometimes jokily but it really hurts.
• I fear rejection like nothing else, or someone just telling me I'm worthless
• I am very self conscious about body
• Sometimes I undermine people just to make myself feel better but then I know that I'm undermining them so I feel crappy
• Ever since my sister has gone to university it hasn't been the same, I love to see her but then she leaves again and it's so paninful. It's hard to handle.
• I flirt because I want to be told I'm beautiful because sometimes I need reassurance.
• I believe in Jesus but sometimes I don't follow him
• My perspective on the world is one where I see why people say/do the things they do, and it's all negative
• I've fancied my friggin english teacher for about 2 years now, I obsess over what he thinks of me and sometimes it kills me
• I don't fight with my parents much but when I do it is the scariest most horrible feeling ever
• I can stress myself out enough to cause myself to faint, I used to use it for attention because I felt so low about myself
• I feel weak and pathetic when I faint and yet it still happens to me (involuntary)
• My parents money troubles worry me constantly and it causes me to feel guilty everytime they have to give me money
• I'm going to India in the Summer and I am petrified about travelling there and of what I'll find
• I want to be someone that people look up to and like
• Sometimes I feel like the things I say are vain and so I despise myself for being so egotistical
• I am quite a chocolate addict

That actually really helped

 

Oh yeah, one more tiny thing.

I want the girl I end up marrying to cosplay as Rinoa. At least once. Preferably occasionally.

:>

 

Hokay, so I guess I'll spill a few things.

-I've had a hard time telling people no, this is mostly because I wanted people to like me so I felt if I did what was asked of me they'd like me more. I've gotten much better thanks to my current friends, but it's still in the back of my mind.
-I still trust very easily and can barley hold grudges. I can go to bed wanting to tear someone's head off and forget about the whole thing the next morning.
-Haven't had my first kiss, only been kissed on the cheek a few times.
-Only really had one girlfriend for a long period of time(a few for like a week, scary times). She cheated on me, moved to Europe, and is now marrying a german solider.
-I love my best friend of 6 years, I want to spend the rest of my life with her. I know she loves me, but due to family issues and work she's been closed up from relationships for three years. I pray she'll open up one day, because I don't want to leave her, but I don't want to wait here forever.
-I considered suicide when I was 13 because I didn't think I mattered and felt useless.
-I'll never homeschool my children because I hate being so with a burning passion.
-I used to cheat in school until my parents found out, leading to the depression and such when I was younger. I still feel very guilty about that, the fact I'm getting the chance to go to college makes me want to cry.
-I hate all of my childhood pictures because I had a damn unibrow that nobody got rid of for me.
-I actually like the way I look and I'm pretty self confident, unless I get acne in which case it all goes down the tube.
-Currently have a crush on Daxa although I think of her as a sister.
-I have wayy too many stuffed animals.
-I went up to my best friend's bedroom with her, we sang Disney songs for 3 hours.

That was more than a few...more stuff I could put, but I'll leave it at that..

Oh, I love Scar for some reason and quote him all the time.

 

@ABSOLUTELY EVERYONE IN THIS THREAD (especially Sabby, cause she needs it):



You are not alone, and you are not strange. You are you, and everyone has damage.




@Sabby: I love dogs for those reasons too.

@Ienzo: I look up to you.

 

Are you flirting with me?

Also only one of them was a member, so doesn't really count, besides I was the one with the crush on K A I R I/Sammy/Peyton, not the other way around.

 

Alright time for a serious confession:

-This time last year I was getting drunk or stoned on the streets with a bad group of kids because I felt so unloved by my family.
-I am almost always constantly biting the insides of my mouth out of nerves
-My family is constantly fighting and my mom always tells me that I'm to blame for the family falling apart. She then takes it back and tells me how great I am. In short, the environment I live in is beyond inconsistent.
-I don't feel like I can trust most people in my life
-I feel like whatever I do will never be enough for anyone else
-I don't feel pretty enough for my boyfriend, and I feel like he deserves much better than I can ever give him.
-I act arrogant and confident when I'm really feeling the total opposite
-I have been hurt by so many friends so therefore I don't believe I will ever have a best friend.
-I struggled with anorexia at a very young age, and even now I get insecure if someone tells me "you're so skinny!"
-I always want to just hear people say that they care about me. It's the only thing that can make me most happy. It makes me feel like I'm doing something right.
-I leave KHV because I feel like no one likes me on here
-I'm an atheist
-I am scared of death
-I am very opinionated and I realize this makes me seem cold
-I have an odd attraction to Saix okay this one isn't serious but I'm trying to lighten the mood of this post

 

Just sayin', I care for you Haley bud :]

 

I care about you too. I mean while I'm confessing I might as well confess to the entire KHV how I almost messed up our friendship to the point of no return, and I'm just grateful that you forgave me for being such a ******.

I also confess that other friendships have been messed up online, and unluckily enough haven't been fixed. And I regret not doing anything about them. I have so many people in my life that I wish I could just message a novel but I'm too scared to do so I really am too scared that they'll just push me away.


yep that's about it here's the real me

 

And I might as well say that was one of the reasons I left (along with just not caring for many of the people back then). But its all cool now.

Oh jeez, when it comes to messed up online friendships, there are at least 4 girls that have tried online relationships with me. The first girl really meant something to me, and I was even going to try going to Texas to see her I was so madly in love, but she got a real boyfriend and things quickly deteriorated between us (sucked cause she was the one who helped me through my dad nearly dying). The other ones were horrible attempts to fill her gap. They all failed, and none of them have talked to me in at least 2 years now. Since then, I'm avoiding online relationships beyond good friends.

And now KHV knows all about our little drama.

EDIT:

Oh yeah, I've carried a little slip of paper with a combination of my name and that Texas girl's name in my wallet for nearly 3 years, and I'm paranoid of throwing it away or anyone ever seeing it (I'm not saying it)

 

I thought we were to send Saxima our messages. I suppose she showed too much concern for us, privileging us with privacy, allowing us to opt out of identification; no one has shown much interest in their anonymity. Just a thought.

But this works too.

 

@Haley - Whaaaaat? No one liking you? It seems like the exact opposite lol. But hey, Im not you and I don't see what's up, so....things aren't always what they seem?

Am I flirting with you? Can't a guy compliment another guyfriend's looks? Cause I can take it all back lol. (just joking I mean everything I say)



Oh, you don't say? I suppose I had developed somewhat of a crush on her, too. Can't even remember how, but yeah. I'd get up in the morning just to talk with her on MSN. That, and Cartoon Network showed Scooby-Doo in the mornings.

 

I have a confession for this site in itself.

I used to hate this site with a passion. Long ago, people would flame me and there was no way I could get any mods to help me because a few mods hated me as well. So I was forced to move to another site. Then things repeated.

Now, that I'm older, I've learned some of the stupid mistakes, but it still sucks that people are so judgmental on a few things.