KHV Confessions

Seriously, this thread is depressing. .___. Though I guess I feel like I know the people who have posted a whole lot better now and it brings us all closer together~

Now excuse me while I find one of those 'hang in there' posters with the cat hanging from the tree. Y'know, to boost morale a little..

 

Alright, I'll post some shocking confessions.



1. I hate losing. Im not too accustomed with the taste of defeat, so whenever someone beats me in an argument, I feel deep hatred. Not on them, but on myself. Usually when this happens with a friend, I worry I'll hurt our friendship. This happened on Thursday, but Im glad my bud was being friendly with me after that little word fight.

2. I used to have a crush on AnimeGirl249(?). This was back in like 07, so. But still she doesn't freaking remember me. ;-;

3. I care deeply about what others think of me. I hurt easy. : [ So yeah, Im not as badass or as intimidating as I look. *****es.

 

I spam the F5 button on the 'New Posts' page because I am addicted to this site. /lame

 

• I feel ignored by people
• I have a deep fear of meeting new people, because I'm afraid they won't like me.
• I have a fear of: Squirrels, That above (Not like the sky I mean the sentance above me ), Clowns (Slightly) , and being rejected.
• I used to drink some, I wasn't an alcoholic denial I just liked how it made forget how ****ed I was.
• I deleted half the things I was gonna post on here /foreverafraid ​

 

KHV Confessions: where we all come together and share our secrets a sorrows.

Anyway, I own a beanie baby that I've had since childhood that I call Chippy.

 

I don't find this depressing.

Sure, some may call these issues weird, but as Dr. Seuss said, “We are all a little weird and life’s a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love.”

So what if we have issues? So what if we are "weird." It doesn't matter. It makes us who we are. If you were to look at all the problems people similar to you have, and you read them in a negative light, yeah, it's depressing. But how about reading it in a positive light? You see you aren't the only one with issues and weirdness.

People who have faced hardships in their life are usually the ones who are the most interesting. They tell me most interesting stories, they have interesting marks on their bodies. Every single thing in your mind and every single scar on your body, be it self-inflicted or from abuse - it holds a story. Tell the tale, intrigue people. Don't ask for pity, just tell the story.

To me, these confessions are not depressing. To me, they are stories.

 

Am I the only one that read this thread and felt happier? Frankly I see it as a reminder that you're never alone; other people know what you're going through, and we're all in life together.
Sounds a bit lame, I know, but c'mon, look at us all? We're a bunch of misfits, but we all fit together because of that.

 

You don't actually think he said that, right? That's a Dr. Seuss quote..

 

Oh, haha, I was going to say Seuss, not Freud.. /fail/ I even looked it up to be sure. But still I failed.

 

I hate pure blood. Like if someone is cut and I can see the blood. Fine. If I see it in one of those medical bag things that they use to give to hospitalized people, that creeps me out. Like clean blood is weird.

 

Got a few more to add:

-My current ringtone is "Careless Whisper" because screw you :>
-I often feel like nobody really wants to be around me, and sometimes I just want to be left alone
-I'm still scared of sharp objects, have been since childhood
-If I make a promise, I try my hardest to keep it
-I very often feel inferior to other people
-I believe loving sexual activity is a very beautiful thing that people should be more considerate of (regardless of marriage status)
-I'm much more interested in fictional worlds than in reality, which makes me feel delusional

Freud also believed that human behavior is driven by biological dispositions and innate urges, and that we develop our sexual fetishes while developing as a child based on what body parts we find infatuation with.

Just Saiyan.

 

May as well join you depressing people...

• I am terribly shy, in real life. I have troubles looking people in the eye. I have troubles talking to people, sometimes.
• I prefer being alone, but in the household I live in, that is nearly impossible.
• I keep all of my secrets to myself. Seriously, I tell them to no one anymore.
• I have thought of suicide multiple times, but I talked myself out of it everytime.
• I always feel that people hate me; my family especially.
• I prefer fantasy more than real life itself. I always catch my self day-dreaming that I am in an anime or something among the lines of that. It's hard to explain, and I do apologize about that.

There is quite a bit more though, but that'll be for a later time.​

 

Oh gosh...have I had any crushes on this site?
... I've...had a few but I'm not going to name names because I feel strange admitting to that since I feel like I'm at the older end of the spectrum on this site.​

 

What would you consider the "older spectrum"? I'm assuming I'm not on it.

 

This thread, man...

There are things I've learned that I never would've guessed about people and it makes me feel better about myself.
Seriously, this is outcasts united~

 

Group internet hug, anyone?

 

I'm 26 if that helps.​

 

Oh, I thought you meant, how long one's been on the forum.

I'm turning 20 this year :|

 

I guess it's my turn

• I have low self esteem because I was constantly judged by others of the way I looked
• I have paranoia that people are talking about me behind my back and judging who i am without knowing me. I would imagine they would say I'm fat and ugly and stupid
• I was a cry baby, because before that was how I dealt with emotion. I started learning not to deal with certain things but that was bottling stuff up and now I'm like this
• I tried overdosing twice
• Last April I was labelled as depressed and went through counselling and anti-depressants. February of this year I was told that I was linked to biopolar disorder, i refused to take anti-psychotics because I knew i wasn't at all.
• I never really let out my feelings about my grandfather dying. It sucks... it really ****ing sucks. Watching his lifeless body... it killed me inside and literally ripped my heart apart
• I usually believe that I'm a useless piece of **** that is not going to go anywhere in life
• I've had(or current) crushes are: Jerome (past), Ghetto(past), Austin(past), Jad.
• I will always love Darky.
• the idea of me being liked by others is unfathomable

 

my confession is that my confessions are too weird and sad to be confessed!

boy, that was a huge weight off of my shoulders.