KHV Confessions

i play world of warcraft from the moment i wake up to the moment i fall asleep at night. maybe i'll go an hour without it throughout the day, but it's highly unlikely.

what is my life ;-;

 

World of Warcrack? You sound like a friend I have.

 

Thought it might be nice to revive this thread since it has a good heart. I'll revive it with this fear of mine.


Im afraid of losing any of my teeth. Sometimes I feel my teeth with my tongue and if one feels like it's moving I freak out. I also sometimes get nightmares about losing my teeth and it's just horrible.

I guess I take too much pride in my appearance. Im no incredible/sexy hunk, but I see losing a tooth as an imperfection.

 

I broke the dam !

 

I obsess over fictional characters and hate talking to people.
I also like pina colladas and getting caught in the rain.

 

I'm really self conscious about my voice and the way I speak.

When I was younger and lived in the US, everybody would comment on how my voice was very deep for my age and also monotone, emotionless and just odd. One girl actually told me that she avoided me for a while because she thought I was like a robot and she had only seen my sarcastic side up until then. And one of my friends from the US told me recently that when I visited his place for his birthday, everybody was a little scared of me because of my voice. Now that I'm older and my voice has matured more, I'm more confident when I speak...but only when I'm speaking English. I think most people know that I live in Brazil and that I used to live in the US but I don't think a lot of people know that when I went back to Brazil, I didn't know any Portuguese. I could understand it to an extent but I couldn't speak it because I never had to up to that point. And nobody lets me forget that I'm "the American" and that I always will be because of the distinct way I sound when I speak Portuguese and I HATE IT because I don't like sticking out. And it's sort of a vicious circle because I only speak well when I'm confident in myself and I stammer a lot if I'm not...and since I'm not that confident in the way I speak in the first place, I make mistakes that I usually don't make which just draws more attention to the fact that I'm foreign which makes me feel less confident and so on forth. So unless I'm around friends that I'm close to or family, I rarely speak and only speak when I absolutely have to which I really don't like because I want to get to know a lot of people more and form better relationships with them but I'm just afraid that I'm going to embarrass myself and screw up.

And that's my confession for the day.

 

Thought I'd post a confession here. This is really hard for me to do, because I don't like spilling stuff that can be used against me, but w/e.

My biggest fear in life is losing the people I love. Doesn't matter who or how long I have known them, if they are important enough to me, then I really fear losing them. This stems from the fact that so many other friendships of mine have been lost through rumors and petty disagreements. I almost always end up saying something stupid, and that sends everything downhill. No matter how hard I have tried to fix things, it seems impossible.

So there you have it KHV.

 

My imagination is overly ridiculous, and I often end up wishing fictional characters were real, and that I was part of their world, until the truth of the matter actually hurts me on the inside. Like, really hurts me. At one point I couldn't even eat because I was so upset ._.

 

/Locked upon request of the creator. ​

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Also, please don't necrobump. ​