KH: Axel the Matchmaker

"Because...you're everything I could want," Namine said, clasping her hands nervously as she looked down. "And you're always...you always make me feel happy...whenever I see you..."

 

"How do I make you happy?" Axel croaked sadly, placing his elbows on the desk, and resting his forehead on his hand. Why did it have to be him? Why couldn't it be...Marluxia or something? He didn't ask for any of this. "I mean, when did your feelings for me even start?"

He felt so stupid and inept about not being able to spot this before. Axel knew she was acting weird when she came in, but he thought it was a obsession that would pass away.

 

"A...a while ago," Namine answered, still not looking up at him. "And...I don't know why...you just do..."
He kept asking 'why' and wondering things...did he not feel the same for her? The dread of this began to fill her stomach...

 

Axel gulped, refraining himself from getting up and out of here, just to give him time to think, but that was even more hurtful and rude, and Naminé didn't deserve it. Casting his scrutinizing eyes into her deeply, he gripped the edge of the table with one hand, to keep him from stopping himself, and inhaling a deep breath he explained, "Naminé...look...you mean alot to me, and I care and love you...but as a friend. You're more like a sister. I don't ever want to hurt your feelings, and trust me, I never expected this, you're a great girl, and you'll find the right one. But...it isn't me, and....I'm sorry, I'm really sorry...I don't feel the same way..."

 

Hearing these words, Namine could feel her hopes dashed away, and her hands, which were clasped, tightened. "Oh..." she said, her voice trembling slightly.

 

He didn't know what to do after that. Axel was at a loss on how to comfort a female, and hearing Naminé's quaking tone didn't make the circumstances any easier for him. Going by natural instincts, as he needed to do something, he got up quietly from his seat, making his way over to her, and he placed a hand on her shoulder tenderly. Axel looked at her with a sad smile, his eyes sending a silent apology again, "Sorry....I'm....not the right type of guy for you. Trust me. You're beautiful and amazing, Naminé, and I know there is someone who can appreciate you for all you are out there. You just have to find him...I hope you understand...?"

 

"I...I understand," Namine said, struggling to keep her voice steady. "I'd...I'd like to leave now..."
She needed to go home, so she could contemplate everything he said, and perhaps...stop repressing her tears.

 

Axel nodded, knowing this was a good time for her to be alone for awhile, as it must be hard for her. He didn't say it, but he saw her eyes turning glassy, water clouding her blue orbs, and he looked away. He muttered to her silently, as he dropped his hand from her shoulder heavily, "Yeah..I think that's a good idea. Just promise me you won't cry too much for me, okay?"

 

Namine didn't answer, fearing she would no longer be able to hold back her tears. Standing up, she walked towards the door, unable to look at him.

 

It was so hard seeing a type of girl like Naminé about to cry, if she was sad, you felt it too, especially if you were the reason that caused it. But Axel had to tell her, he couldn't keep the truth from her, and it would've been worse if she kept falling for him, thinking that one day he might reciprocate her feelings. But it wasn't that way. And she needed to know. Chasing her walk to the door with his eyes sadly, he whispered, "Maybe if it wasn't too late, I would probably have liked you too..."

And he would. But Larxene had already captured him. And he didn't know even if the pain of rejection will be experienced by him if he ever told her.

 

Namine paused for a moment, and, turning to look at Axel, murmured, her tone of voice quivering slightly, "I'm sorry...to have wasted your time..."
Then she turned back to the door, ready to leave.

 

"Naminé..." Axel called softly, stepping abit towards her, but not sure if it was a good idea. Instead, he glimpsed at her, with regret, but with a stern look that came to his face at what she just blabbered, "Don't ever think you wasted my time. You can never waste my time. You can talk to me when you want, I'm still your friend. How can you even say that?"

 

"I'm sorry," Namine managed to say, as she turned the doorknob and stepped outside, glancing behind her slightly with teary eyes.

 

"Is okay, it just hurts me that you think I see you that way, " Axel explained, sending her a bittersweet smile, despite the numb and horrible emotions running inside him at what he had done. Or what were the memories of that emotion. Either way, it felt real enough. And she was a fragile one, Naminé, she really was. "Don't be sad, Nami. You'll see that it works better this way. Now you're free to find who you really belong with. Maybe he's been there all along and he was overshadowed by your feelings for me. I just hope to see you smile again when you talk to me, a real smile..."

 

Namine gave a soft nod and began to walk down the hallway, away from Axel. His words seemed to have meaning to them, but she could not fathom the meaning of it - especially not in the state she was in currently...she would have to ponder about it later, after she had shed some tears.

 

Axel let her leave, not wanting to hold her back any longer. Sighing tiredly, he felt exhausted after this. His brain had the desire to shut down and not function for the longest while. And he couldn't even begin to describe the distress that he was encountering this moment.

He moved to sit on her vacant chair, slamming his skull down carelessly, wrapping his arms around it on the table. And he stayed there, no having the energy to move. She'll be alright, he hoped. Naminé was fragile, but she has a amazing strong streak somewhere inside.

 

Angel appeared behind Axel.

Well......what're you going to tell Roxas?

 

Tapping his hands on the table, sighing with his head stiill on the hard wood surface, he turned to look at her weakly, and softly answered, his tone laced with dejection, "I'm not going to tell him anything...he might have a chance. If Naminé can get over this, she might see who's been there all along...I think I'm taking a break today. Are you going to talk to Larxene or should I?"

 

I will...as soon as I find her.....want some Sea Salt ice cream? My treat.

As soon as Nymph ever gets on.......-_-

 

OOC: She was really on yesterday alot xP. She'll get on later, I think.

Axel shook his head sulkily, his eyes almost fluttering closed from the exasperation, "I don't feel like it...I feel like I don't even have a stomach anymore. Why is this all happening now?"