This is a short story I wrote after an exam one day. It's entirely told in either dialog or self asides, I wanted to try something different from usual. I’m not proud of it or anything, just kinda have it on hand. "You know, it's really hard being lazy and still wanting to accomplish something. It's even harder when people tell you "it's okay" or "you're so smart", losers. Honestly, it's not easy, I mean to say, there's so much I wanna do with my life, with my time, but I end up doing nothing because I can't motivate myself. I don't mean to be so self centered, but when you grow up around kids that don't know anything and adults that treat you like god's gift, you start to think differently. You get stuck up and snobbish, no joking around or anything here. Then you meet someone better than you, you don't hate them, you don't like them either. You avoid them and pretend they don't exist, 'cause they make you accept that you might not be so special. I mean I've always acknowledged that I was in my surroundings, nothing more than slightly above average, but from the top of the bell curve you see so many more behind you. You wanna know why? I think it's 'cause you're always closer to them, the ones ahead of you are light years ahead and make you look like a straight up idiot, probably because you are. I digress. It's not easy. I want to be better than I am, because I never want to lose to anyone, I've accepted that I can never be as smart as half the world. But I've never conceded that they are better than be, never. I fight what I know to be true. I struggle against fact. I defy proper reason. No matter what I'm still inferior, I still feel like trash. But that isn't they point, the point is no matter how it feels I can't make myself without others, they are what see you and they are what define you. Screw for a second self image, 'cause it isn't worth a thing. You know, I hate self esteem boosters that they always try to use in school--" "Stop talking to yourself." "Why should I? Stupid girl." "It's stupid." "Why? Go away an’ leave me alone." "Because it is." "Work on you're argument and get back to me in ten years. Maybe then you'll have a good enough reason to look down on me." "Everyone thinks that you're stupid, you know." "So? You've got the gall to tell me this much just say that you think so too." "..." "What does it matter to me what those paramecia think? Seriously, I doubt that anybody even notices me, much less holds an opinion of me. Anyways, there are over a billion people in the world and you couldn't have surveyed them it's a logistical impossibility." "Why do you always do that?" "What? You utter ******." "You always take everything so seriously. It's creepy." "Literally. Literally for god's sake, get you're damned words right." "Huh?" "I take things literally, not seriously, you used the wrong word to describe my actions. Anyways, why are you talking to me if I'm so stupid?" "--" "You don't even have an answer do you?" "I do so! If you'd just shut up and stop acting like you're so much better than me I'd--" "I'm leaving. I don't wanna hear any more of you're poorly constructed insults." "Hey! I'm not finished! You stupid little boy!" "Irredeemable idiot. Why can't they just leave me alone? Seriously, it's not even worth the aggravation." - “Hmrgh. That’s odd. I don’t usually dream about things that actually happened in the past. Maybe it’s a gonna be a bad day.†“I’m up!†“We’ve been room mates for a few months and you still do that. Why can’t you let your old habits die?†“Well, excuse me princess.†“Shut up. I’m leaving, I don’t have time for this.†“Idiot, you’ll never make any friends like that!†“Don’t care.†“You will when you’re forty and homeless.†“I’ll welcome it with open arms.†“Whatever, ya prick.†“I’m twenty two as of Thursday, I’m a college student who still hasn’t gotten rid of the habit of mumbling to myself, I am correspondingly ridiculed for it, though not so harshly as ever I was in public school. It’s the start of the second semester and I still know absolutely none of the people here. I like that, some would prefer to call it antisocial which is I believe a misnomer since antisocial behavior is, if I’m correct, acting against society not against socializing. I like to read about other dysfunctional people and it really isn't so bad being a total jerk. You get used to it and then you just learn to avoid people, if they talk to you, you make them regret it. That‘s all there is to it.†“Hey.†“Hey. Watches too much anime.†“’Sup.†“Hey. Lies a lot.†“Yo.†“Hey. Makes obnoxious noises, smart though.†“Class. I doubt I’ll pass this semester. My parents will hate me for it. I should pay attention today, but I resent listening to idiots and people who think that they are better than others, which is odd because I listen to myself quite a bit. I digress, actually this entire thing is a digression. Anyways I often think about life, I know it’s cliché and very tired but it still hasn’t been totally solved to everyone’s satisfaction. Whatever, like I wanna help those idiots get up in the morning knowing what they’re born for, way to either boost or kill their egos.†“Is this seat taken?†“No.†“Thanks, hey I’m--†“Sorry, did I give you the impression that I was listening?†“No.†“Good, then we’re on the same page then. Now leave me alone for a moment and let me be.†“Anyways, I’m Sara.†“Good for you.†“So this is History.†“So it would seem. Are you planning on stopping anytime soon?†“Why are you here? Do you like history?†“If depressingly high death rates and long drawn out and utterly disappointing wars over small spits of unusable land took my interest then maybe.†“So you think people are bad?†“People like you, or all people? Don't start with me.†“Wh--†“Why don’t you just shut up? It’s a simple question answer it quickly and don’t start a schpeel on the Renaissance while your at it. Seriously, just cut your losses and stop making yourself look like a fool.†“I don’t want to.†“Why might that be Sam?†“Sara.†“Do I look as if I care? Well, do I?†“I don’t know.†“Then you can very well assume I don’t.†“I don’t want to shut up because I know it irritates you. You think you’re so great and everyone else is trash, or at least something to that effect.†“It’s not so much that I am so clever so much as everyone else is an idiot. Like you.†“See?†“And?†“You’ll never get anywhere is society. You won‘t have money or power, you won‘t be liked or remembered, you‘re just like the dust under everyone‘s feet.†“I don’t need society. I’m perfectly contented with the prospect of living out my life destitute and more importantly alone. Any reason you’d like me to do otherwise? If not then this conversation is over.†“Because you’re sad. Pathetic, pitiable, you look like you need help.†“If I refuse? Help from you?†“I’ll let you go.†“Then let me go. Now.†“Before that.†“Yes? If this is gonna be sappy then I might just kill myself now and save the world the trouble.†“I knew a kid like you before. All the kids in my school made fun of him for acting strangely, I did too. I talked to him once, I told him he was stupid, then he turned to me and told me that I was the stupid one. I took that to heart, he was mean but he still knew more than me, he still knew more about things that I never noticed. I never talked to him again. I did however try harder to know, to know about life and everything around me. That‘s why I‘m here in this class right now, to learn more. I don‘t know where he is now, but I think he never grew up and he never tried to learn anything.†“You’re proud of your ignorance? Or did you just think that this kid would remind me of myself and make me realize that life really isn’t worth living if I don‘t change and be buddy buddy with everyone else?†“No. It’s because you don’t have to be mad at everyone.†“I’m not angry, I just hold a grudge against everything and dislike everyone.†“You’re just trying--†“I’m leaving, come back in ten years when you have enough standing to look down on me. I’m not so low as to be pitied by a person like you yet.†“No. You’re the one running away. You come back in ten years and tell me you honestly that you are still right and still better than so many people.†“I wouldn’t waste my time.†“You haanged at all Adam.†“Hmph. So. You’re really that stupid girl from back then. You have changed, though, you‘re still a bit too early to preach at me like that.†“You’re wrong, it’s never too early to try and help someone, but in another ten years it’ll be way too late.†“It‘s been too late. I’ll admit defeat if it shuts you up.†“You idiot!†“Ow! What was that for?! I’m not your charity case, now let me go you stupid little girl!†“Fine, I will, but you‘re still wrong.†“I don’t care.†“Yes you do.†“Whatever.â€
Very good, the plot was simple but it had mant layers of thought, something I enjoy most in good stories. The character, Adam, is a very complicated character and was a good choice of subject to explore. 9.7/10 only because i'd REALLy want too see more of this! ^^
I hate long protracted things, and this was right after an exam which by definition is both long and protracted. I felt like making something short for once and though I'm not exactly proud of this, I do accept your positive review and you have my thanks for taking the time.
Well, stuff you make on the spot can always be better than planned things, I believe this is one of them. And also, I correct myself before, I would have to give it a 9.9/10 I realise now it is short and sweet, extending it could ruin it. And the 0.1 left out is that little bit we always need to improve on! : D
