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Dear Anonymous Boy,


I know that I haven’t written to you for quite a long time and for that I sincerely apologize. There have been so many things going through my head that I don’t know where to begin. Well I guess I should start with the most important one, which is how I’m currently feeling. I get this feeling quite a lot and it always bugs me because it’s a feeling that makes me all confused, upset, and frustrated. It’s a feeling that is indescribable and undesirable. It normally takes me days and days to figure out why I have that feeling but today I think I know why. It could because He isn’t talking to me or because the feelings I have for Him are returning. I believe it’s a mix of both but who knows. A few days ago when I realized that those feelings for Him were inching their way out of the place I locked them I got freaked. I knew they were there all along but I was refusing to acknowledge them for reason you know best. An easy way to get rid of them was to poison myself with dishonesty yet I realize know that it doesn’t quite work. He was the only guy I had so badly liked that it was impossible to take him out of mind but I knew that through hard work I would get rid of him and in my heart he would be replaced. For the days that followed after coming to my senses and accepting that those feeling were back instead of thinking about Him I thought about someone else. I thought that if I daydreamed about another I would slowly accept that I didn’t like Him any more but had merely moved on. It worked, well sort of because I slowly started to really think that I liked this other guy. Happy of discovering a way to rid those feeling I had for Him I kept going on with it until yesterday. I had not talked to Him in forever so I barely took any notice of him. I was talking to the guy I was beginning to like and suddenly a feeling of total nervousness and love swept over me. I could no longer hear what he was saying but was mesmerized by his enchanting blue eyes. It was the most amazing feeling ever and I was wondering whether I had really been poising myself with dishonesty. Maybe I did like this guy after all and not Him but was being tricked by so many feelings. I felt like I was on top of the world when He showed up. Everything just collapsed and I was no longer on top but back down to reality where He exists in my life and I don’t exist in his. All my hard work had gone down the drain because He was back and I knew things would be same.

 

lying about your feelings never works, it eventually comes out, so you shouldnt waste the time, and come clean to the person, you would be happier either way. the note is good anyways.

 

Yeah you should never lie about your feelings...

 

ummm yeah i realized that but this wasn't me who i was talkin about its part of a story thing i'm writing 0.o

 

*applauds* more please

 

thanks and ummm i believe u dont' have kh-vids rite on ur siggy but n e way i think u noe how this story ends :(

 

I dont think it's Brian I was jking. <_<


I honestly think I know who it is. >_> <_< D:


Nevertheless, it's good. You should tell that person even if your scared.....

 

well although it made be hard to believe especially for me it seems as though that person "HIM" is out of my heart i no longer like him cuz fortunately i've been able to move on so i don't have to tell anyone anything well for now anyway cuz i'm bound to crush on someone b4 the year is over :P

 

You say that. But I honestly know....



Anyways. I like that format. I should try it once.

 

yeah guess ur rite maybe i don't like that person as much but there will always be a small part of me that has those feelings but what does it matter its not like he cares and i'd just hurt myself more besides rite now i sorta like twizzy and i wanna b his friend cuz he is awsome but yeah ur rite that person is still deep sown somewhere but hey i'm living in the present so oh well :D