Firstly, I think this is going to be a long post. I'll keep the paragraphs short and sweet. I just moved to a new town with my mom and her new husband, and I had to leave my best friend at my old school. This new one is really enormous, and there's tons of people and cliques and I feel like I'm being stifled. My choir teacher hates me, I'm failing chem, and it's been hard fitting in with so many preppies hanging around (no offense to preps, I'm just not one of them). My depression's coming back and recently it got so bad I started cutting, so my mom took me to a psychiatrist and they're putting me on a drug for bipolar disorder. I don't want to take any meds anymore, but I'm so desperate for it to stop I'm willing to do anything. All my life it's been hard fitting in. My friends tell me that's not the truth, and that I just have a really bad perception of myself, but I don't believe them. I can't stop thinking about every little thing. If I'm not occupying myself with homework or something else, my thoughts just won't stop. It's horrible. I zone out in chemistry and this guy next to me keeps telling me I'm a space case. >.< I've never done anything to him, so what's his problem? Is it normal to feel this socially awkward? ;_; Like there's a wall between you and the rest of the world? Or is there really something wrong with me? Crap, I don't know how to get it all to stop.
Moving is tough. Especially after the school year starts everyone already has their friends and they just seem like an unbreakable chain of togetherness that you just can't try to enter. What you should try to do is 1. find out what you like the most (sports, anime, lipgloss, etc.) 2. look for an after school club that seems to fit your interest (auto friends ^_^) 3. or if step 2. fails then find a group of people who look like people you'd like to hang with and ask them at lunch if you could sit with them. Hopefully that helps
Yeah, I suppose that's part of the issue. Everyone seems to have their groups, and their only interest is in talking to them. Most of my friends at this school are freshmen, even though I'm a sophomore, because they're new too.
Well, I can tell how bad that is, but moving, having depression, and even fitting in, all normal. Even for me, I live in the darkness, the depression, sort-of-speak. But, it's all natural, I believe you're just over-reacting, no offense, but I wanted to actually stab myself when I was depressed, but I learned something, thought of this while I went through everything when I was depressed. "Once you're done and it's over, you're off and shipped to the world." Well...all I can say is, just, be yourself, I think the only reason you zone out in chem, is because you're either bored, or you're just a space case, which I would agree with the guy next to you. I don't like to be this boring in a way, or an enigma, I'm just saying, be yourself, don't let things get in your way and stomp you, just hold your head up high and it'll all stop, just, keep a smile on your face. That's all I have to say, I don't think I can tell you what more I can, and if I'm off topic, forgive my adolescent mind.
Yeah, you have a really great point. Sorry. It actually runs a lot deeper than that, but it doesn't matter anyway. Thanks :rockdover:
That's nothing to be concerned about ^_^. My sister has friends that are freshmen and she's a sophomore. She seems to have a great time at her new school.
Okay my school system runs a little differently BUT I think that if your THAT new just find some friends be they freshmen or people that have always attended that school and stick with them and ignore other peoples comments I did that and well...MOST of the original people are still my friends and admitted I DO get bullied alot but thats because I'm loyal to my firends!
well, moving is a hard time to go through because you leave all your friends behind to move, then you dont know anyone there, and you think life sucks... But, like allison said, join a after-school group or something, something that takes your mind off of it...
wow....i hate society as a whole, that's why i'm homeschooled. I got all sorts of crap from my school, and i still get crap from ppl online (only this time i can fight back) so.....i suggest homeschooling, The 80's music, and a kitty.
