I cannot believe I am actually posting this thread. Huh. Alex dear (my brother) if you are reading this stop now before I kill you <3 I love you dear go back to sleep and get rest so you get better from your sickness. And stop reading this I will kill you alex <3 I mean it. Anywho so... I really like one of my friends. Ive liked him for like four or so months and I think he used to like me but it gets kind of complicated...see, I kind of kissed his best friend back in october a few times... and although it brought us closer as friends because i kind of freaked out on him (this was before I liked him) and started crying because I didnt want to be known as the girl who kissed that guy and he did some of the sweetest things for me ever. And basically I think he used to like me but because of that incident..well...yeah.... So I worked up the courage to ask him out to our sadies dance back in january- as friends. He said no but "I dont want you to take this as rejection because I care about you too much for it to be like that, Im saying no because its much more fun to go in a group and we are such good friends and I can tell you anything and not get judged and I never want to mess that up." Woohoo friend zone? At that point I was like ...*shrug*...okay...and then he was like "But *hug* I actually was thinking seriously of asking you to homecoming but..yeah....and I bought you something, can I give it to you tomorrow when I see you?" It was chocolates btw. And ugh it really sucks because Im really scared to tell him anything because I feel like it would really **** up our friendship and that scares the **** out of me and I just want him to be happy but if I dont tell him then Im suck feeling ****** about this whole situation and sucky about my love life and unable to move on. And on top of that, Im starting to think Im liking the guy I kissed way back when, I think because Im so confused right now. God damnit i need help ):
I think you should talk with him about your feelings, because who knows? maybe he has the same feelings about you. And if he is really your friend he will understand that you only expressed how you feel and nothing will be screwed up. :)
I say, you think things through. Mainly, you need to think about who you really like. Because to me it seems that you are very confused. You need to clear your mind and think on this. After you've made your choice you need to take things steady. Its better to play it safe and lose one thing, than risking all and losing all. I personally believe you should be true to yourself. So whichever you choose, you will know it was a correct decision. And you know, even if you're staff, you are still human. There is no shame in that.
Not only am I human, Im a high school girl. It gets more complicated every second. lol. Im pretty sure I like kevin, but i keep thinking back to john sometimes and its kind of a bother actually. And with Kevin...ive liked him for months and honestly at this point im sick of feeling like **** because of mixed signals and me just feeling bad, and...I think im just going to tell him because I dont want to walk around delusional. I need closure on this badly, even if he doesnt like me, it gives me the ability to move on. God im scared.
That sounds like a plan. But for right now, I suggest you take a deep breath, put on some calming music, and relax.
I cant relax that much really. I have to finish writing an essay...on love. wtf is this ****. lol. Anywho, so I am going to tell him...but i can NOT tell him in person, it would kind of kill me, so I am going to do it through a letter. Its still scary though. ): But Ive felt myself become kind of eerily calm about this.
You're calm about it because it isn't so sparked to you anymore, dear. <3 I'm sure once you tell him, no matter what happens, you'll be okay. I'm glad you're telling him, though. x3
Yes, that is a good Idea. But its better if you relax and think through things. I'm sure you'll be able to deal with the situation on a clearer mindset. I understand High school is so full of this situations and they suck, because your feeling well, but then you see the person and get butterflies and you feel bad because you want to tell them, but its never easy.
Let me tell you this, from personal experience. Letters don't work out as great as telling them in person. But, it's your choice.
