im doing pretty alright knowing that i'll never have a quirky cast of them that adore me is devastating
This forum and all its beautiful people must be a figment of my imagination. ... No ... surely not? Is this all for naught? All the moderation, all the helping members, all the caring memories we had together ... I was inactive for such a long time. I ... hate it. I always hated it. How I couldn't do anything. I wanted to quit being a moderator for a long time. I wanted to quit this place. I ruined everything. My inactivity has cost everything. I hate what I've done and haven't done. I hate this forum. I hate everything. I hate myself. It should all just burn. Spoiler But wait. There might be many possible internet realities. This current myself is not the same way. It's not the true myself. I can be any way I wish to be. I see! And myself who is not an inactive KHV member can exist as well! Still, the internet and forum itself might not be bad, but I could still hate myself. But ... Don't the others hate my lack of activity? But ... I hate my lack of activity. I'm a lurker. Lurking, invisible, and inactive! I ... hate being inactive. But maybe, maybe, I could be more active. Maybe, my membership could have a greater value ... That's right! I'm no more or less than myself! I am me! I want to be myself! I want to continue being active on this forum! My life is worth staying here!
Wha ... no ... No this makes sense. I can't even pun at this moment. This singularity of clarity you've just bestowed upon me is so magnificent that I feel like I can see everything. I can see myself, a different me, doing different things, in a different place. I don't want to be that me. The best person you could be is yourself ... unless that's illegal, then settle for slightly not yourself. ~Nights
