Help with Life

umm, its okay as long as we can help

right?.....im sure you would do the same.

 

but right now she likes someone else. but at the same time she told me that there could be a chance in the future

 

If she told you that she's probably just letting you down easy if she likes someone else. I would just consider her a good friend and see what happens. You have a strong friendship with her and that may be just how you two have been despite how families sometimes react to boys and girls being best of buds.

 

2 things:
1. Im not sure if Im moving out of town (still moving)
2. I moved to West Virginia last year, (Im now in my present non WV location) and people started calling me gay/retarted the week after I arrived.

 

Hey Annex. Didn't we talk about this some days ago?

 

I can't believe I'm posting here, but...

Just got my report card.
Verdict: Abso-f*cking-lutely screwed.

Is it necessary to get over 90s on finals in every single subject I take? Yeah, it's great, but for God's sake, my parents just called me upstairs to yell at me for getting high 80s/low 90s.
And one 75, but that was French. >_>
I may be grounded for a few days, I honestly don't know. My mom came down, glared at me, then went back upstairs.
So what the hell am I supposed to do now? If I say that I care about my grades (which I do), they'll say I don't, and guess what! Grounded.

 

then be tougher and fight them and diss them back

 

I need...Major help. Seriously. Why the f.ck can't I block this guy on MSN? It doesnt work. He liked...Hacked into my ****...I swear. And he's bringing all of this **** about our past up.

[14:13] ~*| Jay |*~:
hi...

[14:13] Jayn:
Whoa...

[14:13] Jayn:
O_o;;

[14:13] Jayn:
Uh...Hi?

[14:15] ~*| Jay |*~:
never woulda thought u would be so shocked at me saying hi... ur the one who left (again) and your the one who hasnt been online in weeks.. im the one who should be shocked that ur even on

[14:16] Jayn:
I've been online...I said "whoa" cuz I blocked you. It's like...You were dead and popped out of the casket. Scared the **** out of me. And I did that because I dont wanna talk about ****** stuff. You totally just scared me.

[14:16] ~*| Jay |*~:
hah... blocked me huh?... ok well u dont needa worry about me anymore then. bye.

[14:17] Jayn:
...

[14:18] Jayn:
Wow, okay...>> What else would I have done? You already knew I had problems and then you went and totally killed me even more so -_-;

[14:20] ~*| Jay |*~:
lol u killed your self... how long did u think i would wait for u to make up your mind... another year? maybe 2? u were being very unfair and the fact u got mad at me proves how selfish u were being as well... and just so u know, i broke up with her that day. but anyway u can go ahead and block me again cause obviously u dont want to talk to me.\

[14:21] Jayn:
Don't say that. You have no idea. Seriously. Please, don't do that. I'm not trying to make it seem like your the bad guy or I'm the bad guy, just honestly.

[14:21] ~*| Jay |*~:
just honestly what?

[14:21] ~*| Jay |*~:
i waited over 1 and a half years for u

[14:22] ~*| Jay |*~:
was it that hard to decide if u wanted to be with someone u say u loved?

[14:22] Jayn:
I waited for you just as long. I don't know how it's selfish if the only reason I didn't make up my mind was for YOUR sake. Just honestly, the stuff I went through here that made it so hard to chose.

[14:25] ~*| Jay |*~:
lol u know i would have helped you through it, and it wasnt for my sake, if it was for my sake u woulda just said no and you would have not made me suffer for over a year, lonely every day, crying my self to sleep, waiting up every chance i got just to talk to u for a few seconds and have u just leave 1 or 2 min later anyway. u know how many friends i lost? u know how much i lost in general

[14:25] ~*| Jay |*~:
because of it

[14:25] ~*| Jay |*~:
and here i am, single again because i felt bad for hurting u, cause ur the only one i want to be with, and u dont even give a ****

[14:25] ~*| Jay |*~:
so dont tell me its for my sake

[14:28] Jayn:
Why do you always try to interpret what I feel and what I've done? And I DID say know. And I DID stop telling you I loved you and stop being a lovey-dovey but you brought it all back again because your incapable of just talking like a friend to me. And no, I dont think you would've helped me through it. Not saying you wouldn't have wanted to, but saying that you couldn't have. Just the things that were happening...And I don't know why you even let yourself feel bad about it. You should've stayed with her, I mean that.

[14:31] ~*| Jay |*~:
you didnt stop saying no, and u didnt stop saying u loved me, u didnt say it as often but u didnt stop, and you know what.. u dont have to worry about it, cause iv already wasted years of my life chaseing you because of your "problems" like your the only one in the world to have them.. well im done now, when we were together it was good and u ****ing know it, but it obviously meant nothing to you.

[14:32] Jayn:
What? Are you talking about...I stopped until you kept saying you loved me.

[14:32] Jayn:
And no, I'm not the only one who has problems.

[14:32] Jayn:
That's part of the reason why I stopped telling you mine.

[14:32] Jayn:
You never shared anything with me.

[14:32] Jayn:
Hardly.

[14:32] Jayn:
Twice...Maybe?

[14:32] Jayn:
I mean, not including your feelings on 'us'.

[14:34] ~*| Jay |*~:
ur right.. 100% my fault. sorry about everything lol. u can go ahead and block me again cause you know what.. im the bad guy, i dont share my problems cause i dont have many, and i have nothing else to say to u anymore, it always ends up in everything being my fault. sorry for ACTUALLY having feelings for you and not just pretending like you did.


[14:35] Jayn:
What???

[14:35] Jayn:
I didn't say it was your fault.

[14:35] ~*| Jay |*~:
yes u actually did

[14:35] ~*| Jay |*~:
several times

[14:35] Jayn:
When?

[14:36] ~*| Jay |*~:
Jayn says:You never shared anything with me.

[14:36] ~*| Jay |*~:
Jayn says:What? Are you talking about...I stopped until you kept saying you loved me.

[14:36] Jayn:
That's not saying "its your fault, your horrible."

[14:36] ~*| Jay |*~:
nd I DID stop telling you I loved you and stop being a lovey-dovey but you brought it all back again because your incapable of just talking like a friend to me

[14:36] Jayn:
Again, your interpreting stuff.

[14:36] Jayn:
The wrong way.

[14:36] Jayn:
And you're blaming me too...

[14:36] Jayn:
And I'm not even mad at you right now...

[14:37] ~*| Jay |*~:
im not blaming anyone

[14:37] Jayn:
And you're practically cussing me out...


[14:37] ~*| Jay |*~:
lol yeah i have this thing where i dont like haveing my head and my emotions toyed with

[14:37] ~*| Jay |*~:
witch is all u did to me

[14:37] ~*| Jay |*~:
so press that lil block button and do us both a favor

[14:37] Jayn:
Are you serious? Okay...

[14:38] Jayn:
I don't know why you have to go and twist everything I say and do.

[14:38] ~*| Jay |*~:
i dont

[14:38] Jayn:
You are....

[14:38] ~*| Jay |*~:
im not

[14:38] ~*| Jay |*~:
your just saying stuff that makes me look like the bad guy and everythings my fault

[14:38] ~*| Jay |*~:
u stop shareing your probs with me because i didnt share with u.. ever think i didnt rly have that many?

[14:39] ~*| Jay |*~:
saying u only said u loved me cause i said it to u

[14:39] ~*| Jay |*~:
like i guilted you into haveing feelings for me

[14:39] ~*| Jay |*~:
witch is a lie

[14:39] Jayn:
Yeah, it is. You didn't.

[14:40] Jayn:
I did have feelings for you, and I meant it when I said it.


[14:40] ~*| Jay |*~:
lol thats also a lie.

[14:41] Jayn:
How?

[14:41] ~*| Jay |*~:
part of loveing someone is WANTING to be with them and WANTING to go through the good and bad times together, and all u did was push me away, and keep telling me not right now, maybe later, we cant be together right now for years

[14:41] ~*| Jay |*~:
you led me on and you know it

[14:41] Jayn:
I did not.

[14:42] Jayn:
Look, I have nothing to lose here, if I was ****ing with you the whole time, I would've told you already.

[14:42] Jayn:
Maybe that's what it felt like but it wasn't intentional.

[14:42] Jayn:
And I felt the same about you and what you were doing.

[14:42] Jayn:
I even mentioned that fact to you--which is where the doubt had come from. And you assured me that you did care about me..

[14:43] Jayn:
And part of loving someone is not minding the WAIT.

[14:43] Jayn:
Yeah, it hurts, I waited too--Like I said, but seriously...I still waited. And I've been single ever since.

[14:44] ~*| Jay |*~:
lol

[14:44] Jayn:
If I didn't want you then dont you think I would've gotten someone else?

[14:44] Jayn:
Over that whole time...

[14:44] Jayn:
Seriously, it wouldn't have been worth it.

[14:44] Jayn:
If I didn't want you then dont you think I would've gotten someone else?

[14:44] Jayn:
Over that whole time...

[14:44] Jayn:
Seriously, it wouldn't have been worth it.

[14:45] ~*| Jay |*~:
seriously, its easy to say you've been single, and i always did and always will care about you, your the one who doesnt care. you REFUSED to let me see you, you REFUSED to be with me, you put me through years of pain never knowing how u really felt because all u ever did was say i love you too. not once have u ever said it to me

[14:46] Jayn:
Yes, I have.

[14:46] Jayn:
I remember.

[14:46] ~*| Jay |*~:
not once have u ever, EVER stop and think what you were doing to me

[14:46] ~*| Jay |*~:
you only thought about you

[14:46] Jayn:
Yeah, hence the breaking up.

[14:46] Jayn:
And how many times did I call myself selfish?

[14:47] Jayn:
And how many times did you say I wasn't?

[14:47] Jayn:
How many times have I told you I wanted you to move on.

[14:47] ~*| Jay |*~:
well guess what

[14:47] ~*| Jay |*~:
you got ur wish

[14:47] ~*| Jay |*~:
goodbye

[14:47] Jayn:
Bye. Just block me or something cuz it's not workin.

[14:47] System Message:

 

Let me guess. You and your family is an asian family? I understand. I also got B's and my mom got mad over it and nearly got grounded. Just say that you've been doing your best and if you have to, leave this site temporarily.

Wow. I-I'm sorry to hear that. Sounds like you two had a rough time in teh past. Huh?

 

Ask them straight out why the hell there grounding you.I mean do they know how many people would kill to get grades like that.Thats so unfair and you don't have to take that abuse for getting those grasdes.

 

Yeah...A lot. And he KNOWS I can't block him, but he keeps messaging me, trying to make me feel worse...

 

....get a new e-mail address then.

 

Wow, that sucks. They're really good results, so it's unfair that they're mad at you. I don't really have any advice, but just remember that there's more to life than exams, and that you did really well, even if your parents don't think so.

 

Which is what I'm working on...But he knows everything. He knows my email, my ffr, my phone #, my youtube, my gaia. Even if I get a new email address, there are other ways...'Tis the problem. He doesn't want to talk to be but at the same time he's upset so he's pressuring me.

 

Hmmmm. What does he want from you?

 

I don't know. If you read the convo, he's just laying all this stuff out and asking all of these questions when I really just want him to leave me alone, like I told him.

 

Yea I noticed. Hmmmmmm. I wonder if wants you to feel sorry for him and then like him again? That's what boys'll try to do to girls.

 

I thought about that, too. He's done that before...Just the whole pity fest. This is the first time I didn't feel bad for him. I felt bad ABOUT myself, but not enough to go on a huge rampage about how sorry about it all I am. He always acts like he's the only one that got hurt, and that I was just playing around with him.

 

Ye-wait. Playing around with him? You were ACTING?

 

That's what he said...He thinks I was just using him and I never cared about him. Lol, I was 'acting' for two years.