Hi...I've never really said anything here Most of you probably don't know me, But I've been here for awhile just sorta lingering in the background I live in a small town, and i mean you don't know the definition of small Intill you've been to Moss Point Mississippi Me and my family My mother who was adopted by an old couple when she was 6 moths old about an hour from Moss Point My father a "Quitting" alchoholic who has back injurys and can't work My Sister who is a demon child who can't handle no And me..the one lingering in the background Me and my family smoke marajuanna And my parent have been doing before they were even married My sister doesn't like to smoke but i am known by my uncle and his friends as "The Worlds Youngest Stoner" I'm 13 going on 14 And as not to be mellow dramatic...My life sucks I could never hold down a GF more then a week, Uselyl for her to find someone else I've thought maybe to go "The other way" but it doesn't seem right for me As seeing to guys even touch gives me goos bumps though i am all for gay rights My cousins gay But thats anouther story Anyways I go by bisexual because i am just not sure I don't have many friends, just one and i am afriad of talking to him to much as to drive him away i trust him enough as to tell him i smoke I only tell you people because its the internet They have entire forums for smokers And i have smoked with him at his house Honestly if i didn't have weed i probably would have killed myself by now that and my mother She always wanted a boy, it mught have been the first 3 years of hell with my sister that drove her to it and how our behavoirs are so diffrent But i have been depressed latly for many reasons and as to try to think happier i stopped to think of everything good in my life...and then it hit me I didn't have anything I tried and i tried but nothing, i had no reason to be happy. I had absuloutly no reason But then i just get really stoned and pass out The reason i posted here is because After hearing some of my story Maybe you people...can find something good in my life
Fist off, do either of your parrents treat you badly for literally no reason? Does your father physically abuse you? The biggest problems in your life seem to be your use of drugs and probably your father being a "quitting" alcoholic. I've known a lot of stoners and I can't really say that they were bright(although there was one who actually was smart). As for your girl troubles, you're only turning 14. You may feel like you need a girlfriend but having a girlfriend for the sake of having one is wrong and you're honestly too young too worry about it. Just be patient and you'll run into the right girl eventually. I didn't get my first girlfriend until my junior year started and that was by sheer chance. Even if you find nobody in high school, you have college. Enjoy being single, it means you can worry more about yourself. As for being someone in the background, I'm sure that there's a lot of people here like me who know how that feels. If you think people don't pay attention to you, try being a little more outgoing. If you're shy, just try not to be because it'll be worth it. I don't really have much of a comment about your use of drugs. Even if it won't kill you, the addiction can be pretty harmful. Plus, what if you meet a girl you really like(and who likes you back) but leaves you when she finds out you're a "stoner"? I'd say it would be worth it to quit.
First thing I'm going to say is that you should seriously get off that weed. Plus girls don't like stoners, that's probably why you can't keep a relationship going. Oh and weed being the only thing keeping you from killing yourself is seriously one of the most immature things I've ever heard. If you hate being the person in the background you should seriously start being more outgoing, and if you think you can't do it then force yourself to. I used to be that person in the back of the class until I decided to change my whole life around and now I've got more friends than I can deal with and I'm at the best moment in my life. It sounds like you're just dealing with that typical teenage angst that happens to all teenagers. It'll pass just deal with it at the moment. I can't tell if you have anything good in your life because I don't know your status in society, but I can tell you to look around at what you do have and appreciate it. Always appreciate that you're alive and have material items, a roof over your head, and a family no matter how they may think of you or vice versa. I know it sounds cliche' to say but it's true and if more people did this the world would be a little bit better. I guess I should tell you not to kill yourself but that never seems to work. But you should seriously look into living since I heard dying sucks.
1. you can walk 2. you can think 3. you can problem solve (i hope) 4. you have a home (whether it's full of people who love you or not) 5. you've actually had a girlfriend (it's better to have loved and lost then never to have loved at all) But one thing I would like to point out is that while marijuana does give you a good feeling and a high sensation, you have to come back down to earth and face your problems. It is, of course, highly addictive. which is why quitting seems almost impossible when you start it. But I highly suggest quitting smoking. Getting your whole family into it would definitely help, (because seeing someone smoke when you're sober is probably torture). The fact is that smoking weed kills brain cells that you need to use in school so you can get your high school diploma and, if you want, go to college and get a really nice job with high pay so you can have a better life. If your parents don't want to quit (because they've been doing it for a very very long time) I highly suggest you stay away from drugs Also, with your problems with friends, it's all about how you talk to people. At the beginning of the school year look around for someone you think you might be able to be good friends with (look at how they dress, who they hang around with, how talkative they are, all of these things can be indicated without being a stalker by the way). And then go talk to that person. Make small talk and be polite when they tell you stories or little pieces of information. By the end of the day you've made an acquaintance and by the end of the week, maybe even a friend.
Well first off, Aster, I think you need a hug. And perhaps a cookie. And what do you mean you have no friends? Just look around the site! I'm your friend, Jaden's your friend, Blair's your friend, countless other people too! Yea, I know your talking about irl friends, but you can't have too many friends! I know it may seem horrible, but I used to be really depressed too, especially during Jr High. It'll pass, trust me. AND HOW COULD YOU NOT TRUST THIS FACE. And about the drugs, I really think you should quit. It's sooooooooooooooo bad for you! Did you ever think that maybe it's the drugs that make you so sad all the time? I know it seems hard, but it's totally possible! I know because my Dad used to smoke, and he's currently completely clean ^^ Please feel better. Best of luck to you.
Since you had the courtesy to line everything up, I'll knock out the ones I can address one by one. I can sympathize. My town's not terribly small, but there's nothing to do here. I assume that's what you're getting at? When it's hard to find fun anywhere, it makes you want to just sit back and let life pass by. But you know how you fix it? You be the fun. If you think you can't find something to do, you're wrong. Your ancestors entertained themselves with rocks and sticks. You ever actually think about that before? That means they were probably playing four kinds of games called "Rock and Stick Game" and they were still having a blast. Find some havoc to wreak, that'll cheer you up. This is probably one of the worst things here, and even then it's not terrible. Long as he doesn't beat you. And if he does, just try to stay away. Somebody ought to smack her, then. Okay, everyone is telling you to lay off the Mary J. I'm gonna play devil's advocate for a split second and say it's not that bad. I spent a year around very responsible and well-adjusted stoners; if there's a whole campus of them, it's clearly not the devil's drug. That said, I'm sure there are some health concerns for younger people, because you're still developing and I wouldn't be surprised if weed stunts that. So you might wanna lay off it for a while. I'm not saying be afraid of it for the rest of your life, I'm saying be responsible and know what you're getting yourself into. So f**k 'em. If they don't appreciate you, you don't need that crap right now. You've got more important things to focus on. If you're up to your thirties without so much as a date, then I'd be worried. No, dude... It really doesn't. You've got a lot of room to move, you're just not seeing it. Hey, there's no problem with that. Acceptance is one thing; agreement is quite another. If you've got the one, don't stress over the other. Do what feels natural for you, and let others do the same. That's a perfectly good way to live. Sounds like you're pretty sure from the above. But if you're really still mulling it over, then you're bi-curious, not bisexual. I think a couple people 'round here have already spoken up as to your number of friends. It sure doesn't sound like one. If you think it doesn't matter 'cause it's the internet, allow me to remind you that they are still real people with real feelings that just happen to be really far away, and it really hurts when you don't count them because they can't hug you like they want to. If you were worried about sounding melodramatic, here's where it starts in earnest. And quit the weed if you're using it as an escape. It's supposed to help mellow you out; it is not your anti-suicide. Your reason not to kill yourself ought to be common sense. Death helps nothing. It will hurt, though; boy, will it hurt. How do you know people won't follow after you if you off yourself? Everybody makes an impression; most of the people who make lasting impressions don't even see it, because it's such a subtle thing. Don't discredit something you don't see. People care. I sure as hell can. You're better off than I was. And I was happy at your age. What's more, I'm still here, and I'm only getting happier. Stop looking for a reason to live. Just live. Live for real, don't just survive like you've probably been. Go out and do stuff. Be a mischievous little hooligan, if that's what it takes. Just find something to hold on to. Who do you want to be? Be that person. Who do you want to be with? Find that person. What do you want to do with your life? F**kin' do it! It's waiting for you, kid. Stop waiting for it.
