Normally i wouldn't even consider creatin' one of these threads askin' for help but i'm kinda bustin' my chops here. lol I'm unsure where to start really. My problem isn't with other folk, far from it. My family life has gotten significantly better over the past months. Still have the occasionally tussle with my brothers but we resolve that fairly quickly. College is goin' great. Made some friends, enjoy the classes n' performin' well, cept for English, but i've always struggled with that. So i'm kinda freakin' out 'bout that n' stressin' over the essays i gotta hand in. So, i terms of home, college n' work life is pretty sweet compared to what it used to be. I find the problem with myself. It's hard to describe but i guess i could say i feel lost or somethin' is missin'. I've had this feelin' for years n' it would crop up every now n' then but it's never been problematic. Once it creeps in my head it's difficult to get rid of it. The funny thin' is i dunno what "it" is, but when i think of "it" i feel kinda empty n' i slow down to the point that i stop what i'm doin' n' i'll sit there tryin' to figure out what's missin'. It's infuriatin' though. It's been years n' i still haven't figured it out. It can leave my fraustrated n' it'll show. I'll act moody 'round the house for a while till i can calm myself down but it doesn't leave a good atmosphere for the others. There's a few other thin's i'm stressin' over. I'm sorta worried 'bout my mum n' her health. I suck at friendships. One went horribly wrong n' the outcome left me shocked n' feelin' like crap n' wishin' i could alienate myself from everyone. I viewed the person kinda like a wee siblin'...aye, you folk should avoid me. I don't feel sad (cept 'bout the friend deal) but instead, empty, even confused (no, not genderly confused. Sorry all you lesi's, i'm straight. xD). I dunno what to do. =/
A feeling of emptyness? Hmm..... Perhaps you say everything is going fine, but you would want it to be better. Let's see.....maybe you want to be a more confident person....and you feel like that little bit is missing to help your life. Well, i'm not really sure....but that may be it.
First, the title to this thread is a great Little Britain reference xDD Right.. a lot of people feel empty inside and become moody and uncertain of where they stand with things a lot of the time. I, myself do. Sometimes its easy to beat off if I've had a strong of happy experiences and I forget about it. But if something bad or just disappointing happens its like a trigger and it comes straight back >.> From the sounds of it and your sadness over the lost friend you just need more companionship. Someone you can go to when your down that isn't family. Not a friend you know through collage and whatnot, but a companion... which I think is different. You shouldn't tell yourself that you should distance and alienate yourself from people.. thats gonna make you an introvert which will lead to low self-confidence and bad self image. Im suprised you find it hard to make friends ~ you're a lovely person <3 And don't worry too much about your mum... you aren't a professional (Atleast I think O.O) and so all you can do really to help is make her as happy as possible and spend time with her :3
Y'know, I'm in the same ballpark as you right now. I have one year of college left before I graduate (well, one year and a half, really). I've placed Dean's and President's List twice now. But I still feel lonely and messed up, like somethin's missing. I thought it might be relationship issues, since every last one of my friends has a bf but me. Still feels like it is, and then there's just random other things that just bum me out and leave me unmotivated. I know I have friends, but it feels like they're drifting away because now they found love or something. Just saying I know where you're coming from. You have AIM; if you need someone to vent to, don't hesitate to IM me sometime. I'm always on.
Oh, i wish it was better. It's improved a lot but it's still not all that great. I don't think it's confidence. If you ever met me at the beginnin' of the year you wouldn't have recongised me. I was that shy. But workin' for a year really boosted my confidence n' it keeps gettin' better. I'm still shy but no where near as shy. That pretty much sums me up in a few words. xDDD I'm confident that's part of the problem. I've never found a guy i've been that interested in to date, or has the same standards as me so i've kinda given up. I'm just so different from a lot of folk i know. =/ Aye, it's probably the lack of a boyfriend, but i tend not to think 'bout it. I think i know what else is causin' the feelin'...again, a sense of lonliness. I think i may have figured out what it is. Thanks guys! <3 n__n
