"Before They Were Nobodies" Organization XIII RP

"But, I've never loved someone before..." Ienzo thought to himself, but he wasn't about to ask Evan if he had ever loved anyone before. He sighed and decided that it didn't matter. Maybe he would ask Myde about it later, but he knew it would just end up making him feel bad if he were to even mention being confused about their relationship. "Well, I guess all we CAN do is choose what feels right to us at the time. But the thing I'm truly afraid of... is regret." Ienzo told Evan, looking down at the floor with a forlorn expression.

 

"Eviction" said Raul. "Hm... why not let her live here? She'll be going into the streets by no time. Why don't you do what you do best?" he said, giving Ashley a smirk.

 

Evan sighed and put a hand on Ienzo's shoulder. "If you do whats right for you....you wont regret." He whispered before smiling at the man. "I wish you luck....with Myde." He gave Ienzo's shoulder a gentle squeeze before moving away from him again.

 

Ienzo stood there silently, thinking of what Evan had just told him. He wasn't sure if the advice he was given made him even more sad or made it easier on him. Either way, he knew what he had to do... express his feelings to Myde. The one thing he had been afraid of doing from the very beginning, and he now had to do it.

Ienzo remembered that Myde told him to meet at Mells Bells, so he left the lab and went there to find Myde.

 

Myde was sitting at the bar in Mells Bells eating some cheesecake as he happily hummed the Ienzo song to him self

 

Ienzo walked in to hear Myde humming the Ienzo song, this made him even more nervous, it reminded him of the time they spent together when they first made that song. He knew Myde cared for him deeply, but he wasn't sure if he felt the same. "Myde..." He whispered as he walked up behind him.

 

Myde stopped humming and turned around to see Ienzo standing
"Hey Ienzy, glad you could come take a seat" Myde said patting the stool next to him

 

Evan watched Ienzo leave without a goodbye and sighed. He sat down at his desk and layed his head on his arms, closing his eyes. It had been days since he slept last and it was taking it's toll on him now.

 

"I... o-okay." Ienzo took the seat next to him, despite the fact that he was about ready to run away and never say a thing to Myde. He had to get it off his chest though, so he decided to tell him, even when feeling that he could possibly regret it deep down inside. "Myde, theres some things that have been on my mind lately... I kind of needed to ask you a few things. I'm not sure you'll like it though." Ienzo told him.

 

Myde patted Ienzo on the back
"Ienzy you know you can always talk to be, so just asked away" Myde said in his care free voice

 

Ienzo sighed, knowing all to well how easily that carefree attitude could change to sadness. He remembered when Myde woke up crying over a nightmare he had about him leaving... maybe it was trying to tell him something. The more he thought about it all, the more he feel torn up inside. "Myde, I care about you, I really do. I thank you for all the special moments we shared together. And I'm sorry if the logical side of me is interfering with our relationship but, I just can't understand if I really love you as much as you love me. We've only just met and I can't figure out what it is exactly that I'm feeling for you." Ienzo said, trying to get it out as quickly as possible before breaking down.

 

Myde pulled Ienzo face to his
"Ienzy do you have this funny feeling where you heart is when you look at me?" Myde asked sounding a little sad about that Ienzo has just told him

 

"Y-yes..." Ienzo replied, feeling as if he was about to cry. "B-but I just can't... understand. I'm sorry, Myde. I've been in this frame of mind for so long that I just can't stop even if I wanted to."

 

Myde smiled, Ienzo looked so cute even though he looked sad
"Then that Ienzy is love, even though this is my first time feeling it as well i know it's love"

 

"I just... It would make me feel more comfortable if we took our time with this, just so we could be sure we aren't making any mistakes before it's too late. I like to be safe when it comes to thing like this, and you'll have to get used to that, Myde." Ienzo replied truthfully. "I can only think of you in my mind as a friend right now. Even if what your saying is true, and in my heart I do love you, I still can't be sure of that until my mind believes it too." The truth hurt in one way, but in another way, it was satisfying.

 

All the care freeness had now gone out of Mydes eye, true he wanted to be less carefree but not like this, he didn't want to be just good friends with Ienzo, he wanted to take the risk, Myde got up and walked out of Mells Bells he wanted to pretended he didn't hear what Ienzo had just said but he knew he couldn't never eases them word out of his mind

 

Ienzo sat there, too shocked and torn apart to say anything... he couldn't even bring himself to cry at that moment. He just slowly rose from his seat and walked back to the lab, the whole time thinking of regret in his head. "What have I done?..." Ienzo whispered sadly. He looked over at a desk and saw Evan had fallen asleep. He went to his room and returned with a blanket, drapping it over his sleeping co-worker's shoulders.

 

Myde ran home trying to hold back his tears, for the first time in his life had he ever felt this bad
"I should have never of met him" those words where the only ones going around in his mind but he felt like they was nothing but a lie, when he got home dropped his sitar so hard the strings shock and made an out of tune noise, he went up to his room and fell on his bed, he wished Ienzo was there with him there too tell him he loved him and to hold him

 

Ienzo walked back to his own bedroom this time, standing at the edge of his bed for a few minutes before just throwing himself down onto it. He grabbed a pillow and squeezed it tightly to himself, muffling his screams as he cried. He know knew what regret felt like, and it hurt. But it was what he expected and he was prepared to face it... even if he had to face it alone now.

 

Evan woke up and felt the blanket around him. He smiled and wondered where it came from. He closed his eyes again and pulled it tighter around him, yawning contently. He started to wonder how Ienzo was doing.