Babies

I work returns at a Victoria's Secret distribution center.

 

i'm seconding what @Jiku Neon said about not being able to handle babies because of how frail and fragile they are. i get anxious and stressed over it.

anyway, i'm 20 years old and i've never once yearned to have a child of my own and i don't think i ever will. the life i want to lead has no room for a child. additionally i think babies are gross as hell and i have unfriended people on facebook that i'm close with just so i didn't have to see their stupid gross babies anymore.

 

Gunna throw in some more TMI with misty.

I've always thought I'd be alone and be sucessful. Which didn't bother me for awhile. I accpetes that. Until I met this random dude on the knterwebs that swore he was gonna marry me. In which case he did. When we got out own place we just had this sudden urge to have babies. We tried but failed. Thank god. And I know that sounds wrong but I'm happy we didn't. We weren't ready to have this frail human. I still have so much I wanna do before I have a baby. (I wanna son first huehue) but I think about it more then I should. >o>

 

While the urge DOES pop up every now and then
At the same time I'm DAMN sure one of me is enough for this universe
When I vamoos outta this world I wanna take everything with me preferably not leaving anything behind.

 

I want a kid so bad sometimes, and it has gotten to be a pretty solid desire of mine for the future. I especially want at least one daughter. I think it may just be a result of me being closer to my mom than my dad for quite a while in life and all of my pretty close friends being girls, but a daughter would be so awesome to me. And like, while the poop that is the gender binary is something to keep in mind, I don't really see why I should care in this case because I already know that I will put my best effort in supporting my child(ren) and making them feel accepted regardless of their gender/sexual orientation/whatever. It's just so dumb to me to have that in mind consistently when I already know what my response would be :v especially because all babies are adorable and I love them all