A talk with me and Roxas

Jiηx · Aug 12, 2007

well i just spent the last 2 hours or so talking to roxas about all he has done and how sorry he is, i'm posting this with his consent and the hopes that it may clear some things up. Roxas didn't particulary want this up as it would seem like he's an attention whore, and if you think he is for doing this, blame me, i put this here now, so that some people may realize what was going on with him.

AVA: Roxas
other one: Me

roxas and myself said: ↑

Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
I just realised, i'm only friends with mish because of you
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
cause of KHVR1 we PM'd each other to talk about it sometimes and that's how we became friends
AvA says:
lol how?
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
cause of KHVR1 we PM'd each other to talk about it sometimes and that's how we became friends
AvA says:
im sure you would have become friends anyway. i hear namine is back.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
yeah she's back, but you made us friends sooner which is why we're so close now.
AvA says:
has she said anything about me yet? or has anyone else?
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
she asked if you were back awhile ago, i lost the thread it was said on though so i dunno...
AvA says:
damn.
AvA says:
give her my msm.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
ok
AvA says:
for a heart felt talk.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
ok
AvA says:
or give me hers.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
shouldn't you sign on then instead of phone?
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
make it easier
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
i dunno hers
AvA says:
please find out. and i can get on at midnight.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
ok
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
i'll find her account and PM her your msn
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
i reversed the warning you gave her about the threads. that cool with you?
AvA says:
yeah.
AvA says:
craig.
AvA says:
thank you...
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
No problem dude, i wanna help you make things right
AvA says:
whenever i ****ed up...
AvA says:
everyone laughed. my consequences were not theirs.
AvA says:
you were one person who helped.
AvA says:
only one of two who ever have.
AvA says:
the other was...
AvA says:
for everyone else it was just.
AvA says:
fun.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
I guess i just don't wanna see my friend get hurt ...
AvA says:
i mean. where the **** did i go wrong. pull the curtain on my own self. paranoia.
AvA says:
and then, finally.
AvA says:
i closed my eyes and realized i was the victim.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
you were amazing one day, and the next...something like changed...it was odd but even with the ****ed up things you did i never hated you, i don't think i can ever hate my first friend from KHV, my first friend on the internet that i didn't know IRL
AvA says:
ive payed for all the bad things ive done.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
I send the PM
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
she's online now so a response should come quick...if she responds.
AvA says:
yeah man but its my fault.
AvA says:
i was the one who found the glamor in the darkside.
AvA says:
and fell victim to my own debts.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
we all stray from the good side once in awhile, some just...do worse things than others when they are in the dark side, some things that can't be forgiven so quickly...you just...have to give it time.
AvA says:
and i can never forget...
AvA says:
ive been to hell and back, man. and my time is up on kh vids
AvA says:
so...
AvA says:
why cant i just
AvA says:
cry.
AvA says:
i never told myself
AvA says:
wake the **** up!
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
i felt the same way at my uncle's funeral, he had liver posioning from drinking too much and i loved him dearly, but at the funeral i never shed a tear, cause all i could think about was "it's his own ****ing fault"
AvA says:
and you know what i damn did?
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
what?
AvA says:
suffocate the dreams in my mind
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
o.o woh...
AvA says:
i drowned out my own thoughts to become some sick ******* im not...
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
the question is now...are you fully ready to listen to your own thoughts again?
AvA says:
i hurt people. so WHY CANT I JUST CRY
AvA says:
now im gone craig.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
ok..
AvA says:
could no one see
AvA says:
i needed help.
AvA says:
to stop myself. and you were there.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
i've been trying to help, i do what i can but in the end i feel drowned out by other people sometimes...
AvA says:
but it was too late.
AvA says:
think about us, yourself, the planet, man.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
in the end we're just a small fraction of something much grander...
AvA says:
there are other people just like us talking now. but their conversation is insignificant to us.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
cause at this time, all we think about is our 2 selves, those around us don't come to mind as we talk.
AvA says:
when my eyes finally opened up to pure sunlight, i was the first to know my friend.
AvA says:
exactly.
AvA says:
but they still exist.
AvA says:
and everything i have done affects people who exist.
AvA says:
they are faceless names but there is a soul on the other side.
AvA says:
and when i posted the vtech stuff
AvA says:
and when i banned namine...
AvA says:
and when i insulted la sofa and others...
AvA says:
and when i posted disgusting stories...
AvA says:
and when i swore and discussed sex...
AvA says:
and when i used cin's password against him...
AvA says:
and when i allied with boris...
AvA says:
and when i posted that video...
AvA says:
i never once thought there were real people on the other sides of those usernames.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

in the end, i htink the fact you now know the consequences of your actions and feel truely sorry for them, it easily show's that you've changed back into the guy i knew and had fun with watching his muffin remix and alex' adventure and the old RP threads.
AvA says:
i never thought about how those things would hurt people.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

often we act before thinking, though acknowledging we have made the mistake is the first step to fixing the error, and improving yourself to think first, act second...
AvA says:
im more than that.
AvA says:
i have matured. finally.
AvA says:
thats all sara wanted.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

then tell her...
AvA says:
i never did, but said i had.
AvA says:
but now i truly know what it means.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

from this convo here, it's clear to see you have matured
AvA says:
i wont tell her. i will let time pass.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

then i wont tell her either, i'll let you decide
AvA says:
and maybe return when the snow, it falls on top of everything.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

a blank canvas
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
a fresh start
AvA says:
yeah.
AvA says:
a new start...
AvA says:
the beginning of what i should have been.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

delete and re-write
AvA says:
the history was tough to write.
AvA says:
it made me feel really bad about everything.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

it was really moving to read though
AvA says:
it was worth writing.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

and reading.
AvA says:
very worth it.
AvA says:
i look at the stars sometimes.
AvA says:
the fear inside of me becomes empty.
AvA says:
the stars in the sky... they are like little lights of hope. they illuminate the Earth below
AvA says:
and sometimes the truth.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

namine got my PM, but wont respond until tomorrow, i dunno if she even read it...
AvA says:
and i realized...
AvA says:
realized...
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

hmm?
AvA says:
i saw the sun coming over the horizon. little rays were shooting lines through the dark sky...
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

that no matter how dark and grim a situation can look, the light breaks through in the end..
AvA says:
that too, but...
AvA says:
i know it, ive seen it...
AvA says:
all i did on kh vids
AvA says:
was pull you all so close
AvA says:
and then...
AvA says:
...say goodbye.
AvA says:
it was the perfect light for a perfect day.
AvA says:
that was this morning...
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

i see.
AvA says:
and... i cant say goodbye, you see...
AvA says:
i dont want to have wasted the last year and a half of my life
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

i know...i tried once, it's just...too hard to say goodbye to the bonds of friendship i made there.
AvA says:
it hurts.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

it does...
AvA says:
waiting for excuses that deceive your own thoughts...
AvA says:
it all just hurts.
AvA says:
so you make a little spark inside, and as every scandal unfolds it slowly dies.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

we never thought than when we signed up to the place about a year and half ago, now, we'd have had to facr hardships that hurt as much as they did.
AvA says:
til, like me, its gone.
AvA says:
but it still hurts.
AvA says:
yeah...
AvA says:
i never thought it would be like this...
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

risky business these internet forums
AvA says:
XD
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

i just joind the ****ing place cause my best friend kept nagging me to
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
one of the best things he's ever done for me in the end.
AvA says:
wow.
AvA says:
think about the possibility that this conversation could not exist.
AvA says:
what would we be doing right now?
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

i was about to go watch FMA
AvA says:
no, i mean
AvA says:
any of it. we had never joined kh vids.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

wow...
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
i can't think of that
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
i don't think i can think of my life without you,cin,mish,DA,RvR and loads others of friends..
AvA says:
i know man. this has consumed my life.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

me 2,
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
one second, gotta move a thread
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
heh, i wouldn't have to do this if i didn't join
AvA says:
thats why i want to come back, just one more time. since i know i wont get banned.
AvA says:
i know that now.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

you have my consent to come back, but there are others that you'll have to convince in order to be allowed.
AvA says:
i know.
AvA says:
rvr...
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

yeah...
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
this convo alone would convince half of them..
AvA says:
he really, really hates me...
AvA says:
but dude, i need to speak to rvr.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

i know
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
he's on vacation
AvA says:
he just...
AvA says:
yeah...
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

when he comes back, i'll try and convince him to unblock you.
AvA says:
i need to apologize, even if i dont know what im apologizing for.
AvA says:
why must this tear my god damn head inside out?
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

because it's a reminder that's it's something you need to fix.
AvA says:
i cant believe i lied to everyone about namine...
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

that was what shocked me the most
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
i even stuck up for you saying you weren't lying..
AvA says:
i know, everyone did.
AvA says:
look what i did...
AvA says:
i wish all of kh vids was here.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

i can always...post this convo if you want?
AvA says:
they allied with me simply because of roxas.
AvA says:
roxas was the creation of everything wrong with me.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

they sided with he who they knew more...
AvA says:
just because of my name.
AvA says:
look what he did to the forum.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

Roxas is your darkness, the question is if you can shake off the shadow's grasp and plunge into the light?
AvA says:
no one stood up to roxas because they knew what would happen.
AvA says:
he gained everyones trust.
AvA says:
but didnt deserve to be trusted.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

I never trusted Roxas the member, I trusted Alex the human being and i'm sure that;s the case with others.
AvA says:
and he always got so much sympathy.
AvA says:
roxas will never return to kh vids.
AvA says:
ever.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

Hopefully Alex will though.
AvA says:
yeah...
AvA says:
i cant believe i did this to namine...
AvA says:
i was so ****ed up
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

nothing can be done about namine until tomorrow, but i swear to you i will do everything in my power to get her on msn to you so you can talk.
AvA says:
i cant believe it!
AvA says:
i cant honestly believe what a **** i was.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

as long as you know you where one is the main thing, because then you can change, which i know you can and have.
AvA says:
i cant believe i lied to all of you.
AvA says:
and back then, it didnt faze me at all.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

if it helps...i forgive you, i'm not one to hold grudges, hatred gets in the way of the fun we should have as kids.
AvA says:
but now its something i cant get my head around.
AvA says:
thanks...
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

i know i can't speak for the other 14,000 members, but as long as one forgives you, it's a step in the right direction
AvA says:
yeah.
AvA says:
but i ruined her fun.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

but you were man enough to admit, and give her it back
AvA says:
yeah...
AvA says:
that was another part of all this change.
AvA says:
change is good right now.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

Yup
AvA says:
the roxas you know will disappear.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

if you come back to the forums...will you change your name?
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
just not Mint, that name sucked xD
AvA says:
yeah.
AvA says:
and yeah again lol.

Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
i'm having fun in the old server
AvA says:
my name...
AvA says:
should be Alex, if its available.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

i'll check
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
there is a member called alex
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
and a few alex' with numbers after them.
AvA says:
oh man.
AvA says:
when was his last activity?
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

20th june
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
he has no posts though
AvA says:
kinda recent
AvA says:
i see.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

oh cool, i figured out hwo to see who's repped me and all other members.
AvA says:
i guess no one would notice if it accidentally got deleted from the database in the server change.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

probably not
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
but i can't delete accounts
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
you'd need an admin
AvA says:
wink.
AvA says:
but you can change the pass right?
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

you'd need to give me sometime to figure out how.
AvA says:
nevermind.
AvA says:
i wouldnt want to make him unhappy.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

yeah that does sorta go against your new person
AvA says:
exactly.
AvA says:
i need to think of a new name.
AvA says:
maybe ava.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

makes you sound as if you're promoting the band
AvA says:
or tom.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

from myspace?
AvA says:
they are godly.

Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
AvA says:
from blink and ava
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

ah that tom
AvA says:
ava is just... so inspirational.
AvA says:
but ava is nice.
AvA says:
i dunno right now.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

take some time to think
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
the right name'll come to you
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
i have mine cause i had played FF9 the day before and it said vivi was such a nice kid, so i wanted to be th evil side
AvA says:
mint!
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

*shoots*
AvA says:
fine... parsley!
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

cannabis!
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
no wait
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
i think we had one of those
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
....
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:
something awesome anyway.
AvA says:
...
AvA says:
god. its tough.
Some were scared some were killing for fun, I shot a mother right infront of her son. says:

hehe, so much easier when it was under 100 members and there was really small chance the name you wanted would be taken
AvA says:
yeah im kinda pissed but shouldnt be, its a common name.

AvA says:

and you can post this on kh v if you like.
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Alex C: · Aug 12, 2007

.... summary please? <.> too lazy to read everything right now....

Soushirei · Aug 12, 2007

XD Why is this stickied?

ducky · Aug 12, 2007

...

Alice · Aug 12, 2007

yawn BORING!
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Sora 13 said: ↑

.... summary please? <.> too lazy to read everything right now....
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You disappoint me. :\

XD Why is this stickied?
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Why naut? :B

Fork · Aug 12, 2007

Anyone who's too lazy to read this is a dumbsh!t =\

Solid Snake · Aug 12, 2007

yawn BORING!

Cia · Aug 12, 2007

Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww........

..

Jiηx · Aug 12, 2007

it's stickied for now cause iw ant it to be here long enouh for some people to read it and realize stuff, i don't want it burried withint 2 hours of it's creation.

Soushirei · Aug 12, 2007

Alice said: ↑

Why naut? :B
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Yeah, you're right. All heartfelt MSN convos should be stickied from now on. ;p

Mish · Aug 12, 2007

Forsaken Shadow said: ↑

Anyone who's too lazy to read this is a dumbsh!t =\
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Or maybe they're just lazy?

This is stickied because they're both attention whores. :3

AAAND my thoughts on this are that Roxas is treating the internet like serious bixness and needs to chillax.

Donaut · Aug 12, 2007

You know that feeling where you normally don't believe one person, but then they say something, and you actually believe it? That's what I feel.

Cia · Aug 12, 2007

What? ^

filler

Fork · Aug 12, 2007

Mish said: ↑

Or maybe they're just lazy?

This is stickied because they're both attention whores. :3

AAAND my thoughts on this are that Roxas is treating the internet like serious bixness and needs to chillax.
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Then I just have 1 thing to say:

...
...

Couldn't find anything to counter-attack >_>
Damn your big head :3

Cody · Aug 12, 2007

Dr kill123 said: ↑

yawn BORING!
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I hope you get raped by a giraffe tonight.
Thanks for posting, Vivi. Nice read.

Alice · Aug 12, 2007

Yeah, you're right. All heartfelt MSN convos should be stickied from now on. ;p
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Yes. ):

bee tee dubbayoo no soul has Mish lolololol

Mish · Aug 12, 2007

Alice said: ↑

bee tee dubbayoo no soul has Mish lolololol
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Pshh. I'm sure you agree with me, really. n__n

Cia · Aug 13, 2007

... and now that I read it...

I didn't get through half before tears stung my eyes.

Alice · Aug 13, 2007

Mish said: ↑

Pshh. I'm sure you agree with me, really. n__n
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At first I did, but then I decided to have a soul. n__n

Anderson · Aug 13, 2007

I was reading the whole thing and...

I thought how deep the conversation was...WOW. It was nice of you to make a thread like this.

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Solid Snake Kept you waiting, huh?

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Cia (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*.✧*.✧

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Jiηx You're such a loser.

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Soushirei 運命の欠片

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Mish smiley day!

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Donaut Banned

Cia (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*.✧*.✧

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Fork These violent delights have violent ends

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Cody Chaser

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Alice Banned

Mish smiley day!

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Cia (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*.✧*.✧

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Alice Banned

Anderson (☞ﾟ∀ﾟ)☞ You've lost the game.

Cia (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ.✧.✧

Cia (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ.✧.✧

Cia (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ.✧.✧