ShibuyaGato

If it was mono you would be dead tired. I got mono this year and that is how they found the blood cell issue which lead them to finding out that I had leukemia. I had it during a lot of band stuff so I didn't think anything of it but I was insanely tired.

Don't feel upset though. People move on and such is life.

If I am able to do it today indeed I will.

Anyhow I talked to Wolfie last night on msn about everything and she was rather nice but that isn't the point. She could have done something about this and maybe it would have gotten voxli banned or maybe it would have done something about it but it seems the personal attacks by the trolls stop when I am not there so I told her I would leave voxli and not return so the drama stops. Having on person gone compared to the entire thing going away is way better. And that is just from a staff standpoint.

On the personal side I just can't do it. I really can't.

Listen I am sorry about the things that happened on voxli and our exploding in vm's but I am sorry I can not handle voxli anymore it is too much. I have been pushing myself to no end and it isn't healthy. I don't really care but it seems a lot you guys care so I am not going on there anymore. The stress can kill me. Plain and simple. I really feel like I need to move on from khv. Sure there have been some great times on here but right now I can only feel the pain and khv just made it worse. Remember the only reason I came back was to escape from life and since people on khv have become very near and dear to my heart it makes it soooo much harder to do this.

But I am faced with a very hard challenge. I was brought up to never quit and once you start a job you finish it so quitting khv hurts but I can't just get up and leave my job here. I will leave once they don't need me anymore. This place is a chore now. Once I am finished I will be long gone.

I am truly sorry about this and perhaps you would have been better off not knowing me. This is very hard.

I have a job to do and until that goes away I will be here but let it be known once I don't have to work on anything as in once I am off staff I will be gone.

Sorry but I left the voxli group. I am done with that. I am sorry.

Not everyone is destined for a life of happiness. Perhaps I am the perfect example. Don't drag yourself down with me. It will help no one.

Problem is. I am empty and feel nothing but pain. Me being here doesn't help.

It is sad to say that the world doesn't work like that. The pain would keep things from being normal if anything it would hurt worse.

I am sorry.

You and I both know Nova didn't do it.

Now you understand why I am so upset.

Oh really?

I was born genetically wrong to the point of me not supposed to be living
I had seizures until I was 10
I had 8 back surgeries with 9 month recover periods
I had asthma all of my life
Part of my back bone isnt there so it is almost impossible for me to run at great speed
I had cancer
I dont have an immune system


AND TO TOP THAT ***** OFF THAT USELESS **** OF A GIRL WHO I THOUGHT I LOVED ONLY WANTED TO DONATE BECAUSE IT WOULD MAKE HER FEEL BETTER. SHE SAID THAT TO MY ****ING FACE AND HAVENT TALKED TO ME SINCE. THATS A MONTH LATER

AND GUESS WHAT THE HOLE WHERE MY HEART USED TO BE HURTS EVEN MORE BECAUSE OF WHAT HAPPENED TODAY

But seriously the fact that we all give these trolls an excuse is total bullshit

"oh it is just a troll"

No one is willing to do anything because it will involve putting themselves out there. I am damn tired of being treat like this

**** voxli, **** this website, and **** that troll.

I am so ****ing sick of this ****. It is all of a sudden my fault.

This site is BS

good luck voxli sucks

Bad khv spy movies lol

Alright well hopefully they shut up.

I can usually brush it off but for like 20 minutes they didn't shut up. It seems fine now.

Its cool don't worry.

Just saying voxli is being over ruled by Kintaro trying to get people to join is satanist khv group.

I must say it is both awkward and bullshit. Honestly when did voxli start to suck?

>< Yeah sorry about that. I keep getting caught up in all this extra work.

I need to stop that.