Mysty

yeah but it would still have been nice to have that freedom (both in riding and a summer away from home by my self)

yeah but what ever.maybe one day i will go to my uncles farm in saskatchewan and ride there, he has lots of land. i was suppose to go this summer but now i think i need to work and save money for university. and my best friend from edmonton is coming down this summer and i don't want to miss her

they are lessons and they need the horse for other lessons so he isn't really free to use, plus the stables are out of town abit and to get anywhere from there you have to go down the highway so i would need a trailor to transport him to were i want to ride

i go every friday but i don't own my horse so i can't just go out anytime for a ride, just 1 hour every friday in a ring. io do wish that i could take my horse out and ride around town on him, maybe even canter along a beach, i always thought that it would be a fun thing to do

yeah well currently i have no money and can't get a job so that would be hard. plus i don't have a car and only have my L so i would have to go with my parents which is something i don't really want to do. (no offense to my parents)

i am not really that kid of person. and there isn't much to do here, you are either going for a walk or hanging out at the mall and frankly both are boring

its ok pretty uneventful lately, same sort of routine day in and day out for now

so enough talk about this, how is your life going

yeah of course that is part of growing up but for now i will stick with the morals that i have. they are reasonable so why not. if i am going to date someone they have to stick within my morals, it is a good starting place

exacly, i have morals and if you don't respect them then you can take a hike.

i don't know exactly what i want, all i really know is that i want someone to hold me and confort me. i do know what i don't want though. and i do understand that people make mistakes but if they choose to lead that type of lifestyle then it is not a mistake. i am christain, but i don't expect my botfriend to be Christain just respect my decision and not do anything that would offend that, or constantly do things that i don't believe in (like partying and drugs)

yeah, i have high standerds and i won't settle, i would rather wait to find the right guy than go out with someone that i am not sure that i would actually like

thanks, for that. yeah it is ok most guys at my school are annoying jocks, popular people, or druggies and i don't really want to date any of those types of guys

yeah i know that. that is why i haven't really cared in the past. it is just a feeling i am fighting off, it is not like i have had anyone ask me out anyway so it really doesn't matter

i will try but for now i am happy. although lately i have been feeling like i need a boyfriend, i don't know why really but i guess it is a normal teenage thing. i will get over it because at my age i can promise you it will only end in heart ache

at this point i have stopped caring. i am hoping to go to university next year (i am going a year early through a program offered here) so maybe i'll make new friends there and if not whatever

yeah, i moved provinces in greade 9. i don't care what people think of me but at the same time i don't like to talk to very many people and at this point in highschool i feel that when people i don't really know talk to me they do it out of pity. i hate when people do that too. I DON'T NEED YOUR PITY PEOPLE

ok. well my lack of friends is partly my fault because since i moved here 3 years ago i have been quiet and people just see me as a weird misfit loaner. i could have tried harder to make friends but i didn't so i joined a small band of missfits and even there i am kind of the odd one out

i do, sometimes i usually don't because i only really have one friend i hang out with outside church or school and we don't hang out to often because sometimes she is to depressed or her adhd is going wild and i can't deal with her. so i usually don't get out of the house much

yeah, then i will have an excuse to get out of the house except for school