Aura

no >.> i need to get use to this kinda thing >.>

no not yet buddy D:

Well, just wait until she's back. Couldn't you call her or something as well? You'll feel worse than that if you hadn't told anyone...You know what honestly helped me the most in not feeling like that? This is the honest truth. I stopped talking to the person. Completely. No vms/pms/msn/text messaging. Because when the problem (or a reminder of it) is there, staring you in the face, you're never going to get over it. You just can't. I stopped talking to him. And that is so much easier said than done. It took me quite a while. Then, I stopped referring to him as his name. I'm attached to his name. I started calling him jerkface. Honestly. xD No matter who I was talking to, he was jerkface. Whenever he contacted me, I answered with as little emotion as possible. No matter what, you must distance yourself! Very important. And remember, you're only seventeen, right? You have years ahead of you and this is just a rough patch. Do you really want to spend the next couple of months or years being depressed over jerkface? No. B| Another very important thing to do is focus on YOU. YOU as a human being. You're thoughts and emotions and actions have to be fueled by who YOU are as a person. You have to know what you want, not what they want. You have to know what you're feelings are. You have to know that it's not YOUR fault and that things happen and that you're a sweet girl who didn't deserve to have that happen. Every morning tell yourself this, okay? At first, you aren't going to mean it at all and you'll think: "God, Jayn's an idiot." But honestly, think about how you are and how you feel every morning and tell yourself: "It was not my fault. I can forgive him. I can move on with my life. I can be happy." Do it. You have to heal. And you can't heal without knowing what's wrong and what you really want. What do you really want out of this? Sometime positive. Nothing like: "I want to go lay down in a ditch and die." No. Something like: "I want to move on and remain friends with him." Or, "I want things to go back to normal." Or, "I want to forget him and focus on myself." Or, "I want to move on to someone else."

Which is another thing to consider. I'm noot telling you to whore yourself around. No, but keep an eye open. Let loose a little. Notice when a guy may like you, or when you catch someone's eye from across the room. Indulge in that. You are woman, hear yourself ROAR. BBB| Believe it or not, but woman have charms that men cannot even fathom. And it has nothing to do with how you look, or how much money you have, or anything like that. It's honestly just from being your honest self. There's something about that. If you can, flirt a little. Make new friends. Lots of new friends. Keep in mind I don't just mean irl here. But make new friends, get to know new people. In doing that, you'll have several opportunities to introduce yourself and become more acquainted with yourself as a person which helps.

You're right. Venting/ranting doesn't always help. Why? You're still thinking about him and you're living in the past. What happened, happened. Think of it this way, it could have not happened and then months from now it could've and it would've been ten times worse because all that time was a lie. I promise you, he did it for your benefit and it's something he probably wouldn't have done for me. Something he didn't do for me. :/ He spared you all of those painful months that he put me through. He values your friendship, I know. But you have to keep your chin up, Virah. <3 It's over. It's ended. Now it's time to start anew and move on with your life because you don't have a hell of a lot of time to fill in this world. There are more important things to focus on than stupid jerkfaces.

I'm not afraid of 'em. I forgot that even happened. xD

same kinda and i have to work tommrow ._.

yeah. . . what you wanna do?

at least were both bored

lol and you be y friend :D

cuz you dont like meh ;_;

I do too. It's pretty fantasdandsome.

lol you saw it? XDDDDDDD

I think you should tell her. You need all the help you can get, and I'm glad you have people to go to. <3

That's awesome! I've always wanted to go to Japan, but I doubt I'll ever go. :/

No we're...fantasdandsome.

It's good to have people to talk to outside of the interwebs. I'm glad you do. One time my mom knew about the person months ago and everytime I would wake up sad or in a bad mood, she'd be like: "Did he hurt you?! I'LL KILL HIM!" And yeah. xD So I stopped telling her stuff. And she was the only one I lived with for a really long time so I felt terribly alone whenever something bad happened between us. And that loneliness ultimately screwed me over. Because now whenever something like that happens, I try my hardest to keep it to myself and deal with it all alone. And whenever I tell other people, I rarely tell them the whole story. ><

Why Italy? 8D

Oh gosh. We're room twins.

Sadly, it is in my room. And I am in the living room. :/

*looks around* I can't find one. Dx

Dx Why do I have to sit in the dark?!

Wow. You're lucky. O_o You have someone to talk to about it IRL? Jeeze. All I could do was sit in my room in the dark and cry, even when the tears wouldn't come and even when I didn't want to. Just to try and get something out. Until finally I started talking to online friends. Who tried to help but...I still felt it. >:
I'm glad your brother knows.

Yup! He was going to take me to Time Square. T_T

._.* grrrrrrrrrrrr

Hmmmmmm. I tried looking at my blinds to see if I would laugh, but the lights are out and I can not see them.