Alex856

I SWEAR I REPLIED TO THIS. >_>

How are you doing ale pal?

sigh dont leave yet let me pm it to you dont want it out were people can see...

why does everything i go through seems to repeat...sorry....crying like hell now...just go to bed...night.

Not mad just worried about you. I know it may not seem like it but i am worried. got mad when i didnt know where you were though ><

I hate it there too lol.... I know dear ; ; just wait it out and be strong.

bit upset but not at you. Alot of stuff is going on and im in hell. These meds are making me feel like shi t and the pain is getting worse. though the pain is only worse cause im upset and stressing like hell ; ;

ya I read them this morning. Just didnt reply til late cause I just wanted to cry/sleep.

ya like i said i read them this morning....
Go back to the hospital if needed.... just wait it out it will pass....ya okay...

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Im sorry I didn't mean to ; ; it happened a few min ago. -sigh- im really sorry I honestly didnt mean to do that at all ; ; please dont be angry...got enough of that today ; ;
Also if I take to long to reply im sorry. curently venting to myself ; ;

I did? O_O *looks* of ef =/ this comp has been gliching. I was looking at my settings and the comp effed up ; ; I didnt mean to delete anyhting I swear ; ;

im on for a bit.

do what you need to feel better...ill be on later...my parents aare leaving in two hours until the leave ima do a quick call then ima just sleep...get well soon....

killing myself so many times ._. it was fun. i just took my meds but befor i go to bed ima do some emails and send you a quick pm.

its past midnight and i just got home. the concert was awsome. there was 2 bands befor manic drive. the second band i fell inlove with so my dad got me their cd. once manic drive came on i went crazy i LOVE the guitarist so i mostly recorded him. my dad got me drum sticks and their poster and the signed it. i ended up rehurting myself pretty bad but it was so worth it maybe not to but it was for me it was so much fun. i get to be me at concerts and not stress over anything that bands music stopped me from

well im off for today. I has to do my hair. you have a good weekend. make sure you rest. bai

nighttmare...now im having a panic attackll.....im scared..*reaces for you* im scared..you're the only person who makes me fully tranquil...

OMFG!!!!!! So after baby sitting my parents come to get me (and yuck because i have to sit next to kmy brother as he talks to his gf on the phone saying how much he loves her and that he is goingon vday i was gana hurl XD )and mymom throws somthing on my lap. She found the cD ive been trying toget for three months!!!! :'D then my dad got me three anime's Chobits card captors the moive and kiki's delivery service :'D tthen my bro brought backall the books i had on hold at the library :'D looks like your no coming on again so ima go figure out what to read/watch first :'D

been waiting all day....im in dying pain i feel like **** i need to go ill try to be back later...

im off invisable mode for now. ill be on but ill be doing other things so i iwll be back and foerth.

I'm on .

I havent had a full nights rest in 4 days...the pain gets worse everyfay and keeps me from sleeping... Im able to sleep for a few hours during the day but its not enough....the meds side effects are so bad... it already got me dizy enough to fell and re-injur myself....im so frustrated right now im crying like hell...mom is mad cause im still going to baby sit tomrrow. its bsascly just house sitting if the baby is there she will be asleep and i can be alone to think over somthing y'know?... We havent talked much and i have alot going on and everything is just adding.

Tomrrow ima be babysiting. my ride will be picking me up between 12PM and 1PM my time. She should be gone by 1:30PM or 2:00 PM. When she leaves I will come on (I think) to see if you are. you said you had good news right? If I am on and i dont reply its either cause of a mental break down (somthing happened today put me in a bad mental state will be a few weeks til im mentally stable again) feeding the baby or putting her to bed, laundry (have to get ready for saturday. yes im in dying pain but i wont let it make me stay home XD) or simply the meds were to much that I fell asleep/ passed out.

Its about to turn 4AM I ahve to take my next dose of meds in an hour and 45 min. ima make another attempt to sleep. im hoping after all te crying it will help me. love you night. and stupid me ended up talking to you're pic again. my meds really have me doing stupid ass things XD

btw happy monthaversry...

just give them a while to kick on. Just rest as much as you can.
I understand.You are not pathetic.

AGain its alright. And im not angry im to sick/in pain/mentally unstable to be angry lol. You just getall the rest you need and we will talk when we can.

Love you to <3

Im not sure if I wil be on tomrrow I have to freakin baby sit and get stuff ready for the weekend. Again im not that mad so its fine. rest well. see you either tomrrow or monday