Well, you guys know I don't usually post here, but this stuff going on really makes me need to talk about it. So I came back to Bosch yesterday, and pretty much right there is where I started to get aggravated again. Before I left I kept feeling like I was going to hang myself or someone here, but once I got home I managed to get relaxed and everything. Once I got on the plan to San Jose and got off, I started to get a pit in my stomach. I was already thinking about how annoying it was to go back here, and I really didn't. I haven't even been here 24 hours again and I already feel like I'm going to go out there and kill someone. I told my parents I didn't want to come back here, and end my year of service 2 months short, but my mom didn't listen to me at all. She just kept saying "Stop being so negative all the time. Why don't you try looking at the positive side of things?" And believe me, I tried, for about 3 seconds, because there is no bright side here. She says it's all about developing myself and crap like that(like I really care about that stuff), but when I think about the annoying parts of this place I can pretty much name every thing that is here that annoys me. My dad doesn't say that kind of stuff, but he says I should finish the 2 months because "I'm doing something good". At this point, I don't really care if I'm doing something good for myself or not, I just want to get the heck out of here. It's only 2 months, but every day here feels like a year, and I can't stand being around all the people that come here and all of the noise. My mom says that once I go home I'll just sit around doing nothing (Like I'm supposed to get a job when we're in the middle of moving again), but at least I'll be doing something that I enjoy. What do you guys think I should do? The councilor here said that if I feel like this still in a few days I should call my parents and see if they could send me home early, and I would like that, but I just came back after a week and a half, and I doubt they're going to listen, especially my mom, just because I say "I don't like it here, and I want to finish off my 2 months early."
I'm not sure what to say, I want to say that you should finish up the 2 months.... But I know if I was in a position like that, I would want to finish early too. I don't know if I can be of any help. All the same, I would encourage you to finish the 2 months.
I have to agree with Flood. Two months goes by a lot faster than you think. My entire high school career went by in the blink of an eye, and that was four years. The best thing to do would be to stick it out. If you think they wouldn't let you go home early anyway, just try and power through it. Honestly, for me, I'd rather be out and about doing something than stuck at home. When you're done, you can relax and feel accomplished for getting through it. Honestly, if you quit thinking about it, it'll go by quickly. The more you think about it, the more it gets to you, and the longer it feels.
I can't really tell you what to do since I haven't experienced this before, however, If I were in your situation, even highly disliking my location, I would push myself to finish the two months. You made it this far so keep going! 10 months down and two more to go.It will be worth it in the long run. You say that you don't care about doing good for yourself, but later on it will be worthwhile to know that you made yourself complete the year. These two months may seem to go by slowly if you keep telling yourself how much you hate where you are, but they will pass quicker if you make finishing the two months a goal. Or even as Nights said, don't think of it as two months because time will seem to go slower. Just let yourself know that it will be over sooner than you think. It will be better to say "I finished a year of service" than to wish that you had later on in your life. Though it may be challenging to remain there, it will make you a stronger person. A year is a long time and you are almost done. Don't give up when you have such a short time remaining. I remember you making a thread before you began your year of service. It seems like yesterday that you made that thread and we were all congratulating you but instead it was ten months ago. Ten months! Time goes quick. Hang in there. ^-^
You guys keep saying that I should just go through the two months, but if I start going insane I'm blaming you. Either way, I say this because yes, it's only 2 months, but going through two months with something you don't enjoy isn't exactly praiseworthy. I said I would try, but being here makes me go crazy, and when a ton of people come for sessions, I need to restrain myself because everyone and all the noise drive me crazy and I can't get away from it. I don't really care about saying "Woo-hoo, I finished the last 2 months", all I care about is saying "I did my service and that's good enough for me"; after all, the only thing I was looking for during this year of service was work experience
