So yeah

Since I've been grounded I've gotten to talk to Fearless more, but it still doesn't seem like enough for me. I guess it's just me being needy to an extent, but would it be too much to ask for her to turn on her phone at least once a week so we can talk? But I realize that she has other **** to do so I respect her schedule and just wait my turn.

ANYWAY, while formulating my christmas list I put something on there that I wanted more than anything. I said that I wanted to meet her next year. It seemed to me like a reasonable request, I mean, so far on my list I had few objects and none of them were expensive that I knew of. And god knows I don't have the money to pay for a trip like that, so it would be a nice thing to ask for, right? But upon seeing this, my parents instantly rejected the idea and scribbled it off the list.

And I swear to god I nearly cried right there. I'm not an emotional person most of the time, khv. But I don't get to talk to her as much as I'd like to anyway, same goes for seeing her due to mostly technical reasons. I'll find myself calling her even though I know she won't answer just to hear her voice, and though it gets me sad that she isn't really talking to me, it held nothing to when my parents did that. It felt to me like they told me I could never meet her. I thought they were supportive of this until now.

So now I'm here, with an assload of homework and a cellphone waiting on my dresser for her to return one of the messages I've sent her, or one of the voicemails I've left her. She has yet to return one in the past two weeks. And although it hurts me that she finds herself with so many things to take care of in her life that she can't talk to me; although I respect that she has a life and try not to make too big a deal out of it, it isn't nearly as heartbreaking as when my parents told me they wouldn't let me meet her without a moment's thought on the subject.

I don't even know what I need help with at this point, khv.

 

Maybe your parents don't understand what it meant to you for them to do that. You should try to communicate it to them before you jump to conclusions. I mean, I don't know exactly what transpired, but don't let that hurt build up unless you know for sure that they were intentionally dashing your hopes. It's only the most vindictive and heartless of parents who just want you to suffer; usually it's either paranoia or mis-communication. Other than that, just try to get their support. Ask them what it will take for them to at least consider it. If you get their support, maybe that will help you feel better about the other problem as well.

 

She's probably busy with her relatives. As for the christmas list thingy your parents may've not cared about "teenage" relationships when they were younger as my friend does. If your parents think lowly of her you can try and egt her to make a Skype account because if I remember correctly that would let you two see each other right? Does she have a webcam because if so then try and convince her to make a Skype account and that can be a generic way of you two seeing each other.I'm sorry about how you feel and I know how you feel because my boyfriend lives with his grandparents far away now and that hurts so if you need someone to talk to you can talk to me if you would like to.

 

WEll we would do that, and we actually did a few times over MSN, but at the moment I'm grounded from the computer. So webcams are a no right now.

 

postcards maybe as a way of communication. And have you tried debating with your parents, but notin a micking manner because you're smart enough to keep up a good one

 

My parents are also smart, yet they see every argument I ever make as me being a smart ass. And postcards? I'm getting ready to mail her her christmas gift anyway.