And here I am typing this crying my eyes out, I just said to ONE person I know he has good taste in music...I get 5 people including him on my back on how i have a social status of 0, look like a tramp, smell like a tramp and just creepy...Being the foolish, idiotic wreck thats me I explained myself...and i get teased as they talk about my mother...Ah nothing like the realization of how much people hate you in the morning. Bottom line, I am sick of how im treated in this god damned town noone ever shows me any respect, least of all my mom and step-dad, mom whos alwayss working during the day, getting me to do all the housework and run her errands at night, my step-dad who the minute i get home dumps my little sisters on me so he can go drink his life away in the pub...I want to talk to my mom or my dad about it, and maybe move in with my dad...but I just can't I'm always afraid they'll be worried or something and I just can't be a burden no matter what the reason or to whom...So please khv...could anyone offer suggestions on how to be able to talk to my own parents without fear of me putting them down or them dragging me down further...Because the way I see it...the life I'm living...I can't call it living any more...I get tiny breaks with my dad or sometimes I can go out with friends...but other than that theres me, the internet and my 2 little sisters and really...when you have about enough time to eat, sleep, get dressed and shower in a day occasionally a bit more time...is that really what youd call a life? Anyway if you read all that thankyou I apologize in advance for my horrible gramma..it's 1:35 in the morning and I can't sleep through the tears so typing is rather difficult
People can be total *******s. We are all fighting our own wars and sometimes the causalities are our compassion and care for others. We even lose oursleves along the way... It'd be hard to help you while I can't even help myself all that much but I saw this and just want to try... The whole 'don't care what others say' thing is near impossible to achieve for the majoirity of people, probably all of us can't do it. But doesn't mean we can't try, right? And nothing is wrong with crying. It's way better than holding everything in. Just let it all out and then try to smile, it's hard, but it helps. Even if you're smiling for something stupid or nothing at all. And about your family... I bet your sisters at least look up to you and love you for what you do for them. Your step-father doesn't sound cut out to be a father of any kind so it'd be pointless to rely on him any, as far as I can tell. You have your mother, she's just probably too busy to even notice her faults but I hope she doesn't mean to put so much on you, and real father there, you might as well try to talk to them. They might help. If it makes things worse... Just gotta hang in there. Sooner or later someone who will help will come along. In the meantime, one thing I know for sure is time doesn't heal all wounds, it's what we do with that time that counts. If you just sit around and do nothing then nothing is going to change. I really hope that if this doesn't help someone else tells you something that helps. If you want to talk to me you can either reply on this thread or on my profile or through a pm. Whatever works for you.
dude...thank you so much for reading all that...I've been holding back my tears for as long as I can remember...It's almost releiving to let it just go...
First of all, people like that are just trying to impress their friends by being jackasses, just ignore them. About not being able to tell your parents: You should just tell them, no matter what they're still your parents and you can never be a burden. Just tell them, it will help.
I know people are like that...they're jackasses anyway...You see around here...I'm not what you'd call normal...I've been picked on for as long as I remember...I've alays been scared stiff of moms reactions, so nowadays...I find it hard to talk to her about anything...And I only met my dad at christmas so things are hard at the moment
Normal doesn;t exist. Don't everr let them convince you that it does. What about yopur mothers' reactions make you feel so uneasy about talking to her? Surely she'd be understanding of how you feel?
It's been a long time...I don't really remember...I just know she'd over-react at the slightest thing and I HATE the shouting and screaming, I do remember that her temper as never exactly been controlled. And granted normal doesn't exist...But the people around here...If they didn't look slightly different you'd swear they were clones
I know how you feel. Stereotypes have ruined todays youth. Have you tried trying to tell her subtly, instead of jsut straight out? It could yield better results.
I don't know...I can try...But I hardly think I'll be able to do it...my life has made me shy to the point i don;t tend to tell anyone about my personal problems unless I think they may be indifferent...I can be afraid to sed emails sometimes let alone talk
I know this is hard but, you can tell you mother anything, no matter what if you open up to your mother she will listen to you and help you. Don't ever be afraid to talk to her.
You're so right I should but with so much stress from work, my sisters and my step-dad...I dont think she could take me having a breakdown in front of her. Things were all good till me step-dad came along...6 years...6 years of all this stress, only recently I met sisters on my dads side...and they seem the only eople I can open up to...But I get so stubborn and wont let them tell anyone...I'm such an awkward person when it comes to myself, I'm always refusing food or drink, even when im extremely hungry or thirsty..theres just been no way of me opening up to anyone properly over the years
Then I don't really know what you can do... Though you could always ask your sisters what they think you should do, that might be a good idea, since they know the whole situation unlike what we do.
I asked before...their only suggestion was 'just move in with dad like i did' And that doesn't really sort anything since I'd still have to go the same hell which is school...I mean if anything I need to learn how to open up to my parents
