This is not a cry for attention; it’s a message for help. I don’t even know how to begin this. It’s too long of a story for me to even condense down because this has been going on for quite a while. A lot of you guys know that I was admitted into the hospital all of Thanksgiving week, right? Well, apparently we believed my heart condition was getting worse and it’s about time for a transplant. We came up to Phoenix this past December but there were no surgical consults at the time (probably on vacation). Well, I met with them yesterday. It’ll be a lot of paper work and planning, but if I do get accepted by a hospital for a transplant, I basically have to pack up my things and move near the hospital. The doctors explained to me exactly what it was going to be like. Once I get my procedure and have a healthy heart, I’m going to feel better than ever. I can do stuff and I could never think of doing before! Still, it’s a big commitment for me to make. I’m going to be given a number of medicines to keep my immune system down. If I don’t take it after the transplant, the antibodies will attack the heart and my body will start rejecting it. Because my immune system will be down, I can’t be around sick people. I couldn’t take the risk of getting an infection and possibly die. There are tons of other risks that I can’t remember. I would be more susceptible to cancer, which scared me. I had trouble sleeping last night; not going to bed until very late and waking up every half hour or so. I’ll also have to change my dietary habits now so it wouldn’t be as bad when I have my new heart. Less cokes, no sugar/salt, zero junk food. Just fruits, veggies, water, and chicken. I’ve already decided to go through with it, no matter what. I’ll have to become mentally tough and my life is virtually changing tonight. My parents can’t see it, but I’m scared to death of everything that’s around me now. I do get some peace though, mostly because of this site (surprisingly). I guess the point of all this rambling is that I need some help KHV! Some words of encouragement, prayers, or something like that. I may seem stable now, but I think I’m about to lose my mind. I want to do this; I want to get better and be me as long as I can. This small family of ours actually is sometimes the one thing that keeps me going. I finally want to thank everyone who’s sent me good wishes thus far. It’s been a rough few months and it’s not going to get better. Especially an awesome young lady who’s always got the right thing to say to me. :lolface:
I hope that you manage to get better! It must be really scary for you at this time. I'm surprise you even came to KHV! Also, I will be saying a prayer for you. You can guaruntee that for sure! Please do get better! And you'll be in my prayers~!
I had no idea any of this was going on. Granted I've been absent for a few years but I think I would have seen something. Well whatever the case, I'll be keeping you in my thoughts.
Well I'm praying to you, specially since my friend... has told me a lot about you. But by reading your post I understand better why she's been "kind of" freaking out about you (if you haven't noticed). Also, I think you are really being strong of giving up junk food, and everything else on your list. I know you're probably thinking of course you have to, but for me, that's about as hard as trying to walk on water. So yeah good luck, and also thanks for being there for my friend, she's always happy when she brings up you (except when she talked about your heart issues).
YOU! I see what you did there. I think you've said too much. We're going to have to duck tape your mouth shut....err your fingers together..tomorrow. Yeah I worry about you tummer, and...well I do agree, it's impossible to a junk food addict like us. :lolface: Don't worry about it, I know you can do it. :noworries:
Thank you. It took me time to think about if I was going to actually post this. I decided to do it anyway because I filled in a lot of information a few weeks ago and I have tons of freinds on this site. Thank you. It's partially because I have to, but a part of me wants to. The heart I recieve will be a gift from someone who lost their life. I'd want to cherish the gift, no matter what. I guess I'm just preparing the body for it to come. You're friend's seemingly good at hiding the freak out part from me. I hate worrying her, but that's kind of a part of my life. I'm really glad that she's stuck with me through all of it though. Thank you for the motivation. Yeah. Live or die, I'll be alright (although I would prefer to stay alive :lolface:)
Oh tummer D: I wish you the best. This will be a big change. I know things will work out and you'll be walking around with a new heart. I'm so happy that I got to know you, and I'm so proud of you. I cannot even explain how proud I am and how brave you've become. Just keep positive thoughts and keep your chin up. <3
I've never talked to you before, but I do wish you the best. You seem like (well are) a pretty chill dude and you've been through things that I will probably never understand. And God's most certainly smiling down on you. Good luck and may the changes in your life be super special awesome! c:
You've got all your bases covered, so you'll be fine. You've also got a healthy will to live, so you've done everything you can. Now you just have to leave it to God to decide how things will turn out. The only thing you can do now is make sure that you've prepared for the outcome of not being so lucky. In other words, have you got those letters finished? :lolface:
The only real surgery I've ever had was getting a cyst removed. I remember feeling so nervous and scared before then, but it must be like a paper cut compared to what you're going through. :C Just know that we're all supporting you. And I can't even describe how incredibly brave you are for committing yourself to this. Stay strong. We're here for you. <3
Thanks Sabby. Yep; I've been constantly watched by God and it's all uphill from here. I'm kind of staying off of that right now. I wrote some for my friends irl, but thinking about that right now isn't really good for my mind. I still have at least 6 months before anything really goes down. With my luck, it'll be sometime in November. They found my condition when I was 3 months old in November, I was hospitalized during the 2008 election, and of course my episode this past year. There are other times, but I just can't remember; but November's not a good month for me. XDX Thanks Luna. You've been one of my longest (time-wise) friends on this site. I've gone through a number of surgeries, but they don't even compare to this. It's odd to hear people say that I'm brave. Yeah, I'm looking at death and telling him to screw off and leave me alone, but a lot of the reasons I'm doing this seem a little selfish. Thank you for the kind words though.
Oh dear, I don't even know you that well, tummer. I just know you've had dreams of a girl you like. I'm not even sure if that was you. :c Heeeyyy. Listen. When you get better, come back here, to KH-V, and tell everyone you're better. You don't want your friends and future friends worrying over you when you're already better. This operation of yours...it's big. the closest mine was was something to do with the appendix or...something. It's not even an important organ. </3 Anyways, keep all these people who replied in your mind and metaphorical heart. Whether we know you or not, we're here. <3 Just stay strong; I know you are. God has a plan for you, I bet. You'll get through this!
Sorry I always forget, some one has to die for the transplant... Yeah since my friend does hide it pretty well... but.... I don't know. I guess I should of just left it as, yes I'm praying for you. And you are really stronger than me for this heart transplant, because I would of done something stupid by now.
