I remember the first time I ever got a video game, I was happy like a little schoolgirl. I played the game constantly, until I beat it and stopped playing it much when I had to start going to school. I remember my first day at school, it was pretty comforting, pretty weird at first, then it got better. I remember making friends, very good friends, I also remember joining Band, best feeling ever. I remember when I watched my parents fight more than usual, I can still feel my heart hurt each time it comes to mind. I remember my first crush, now that I think about it I don't even know what happened to her lol. I remember my first girlfriend, all the fun, laughs, sorrows we shared, then she moved, so did my happiness. I remember when I tried to move on from her, got dissed and tricked by girls I did like, which is what made me despise relationships. I remember when I met a girl that played in Band, she was an awesome person, but over time, it just couldn't happen, she was already taken, and I tried to break that up, and winded up making her go crazy, never again will I do that. I remember telling a girl how much I loved her but she didn't wanna date yet, but she didn't have feelings for me, so I said it was alright, but for some reason even now, she can't leave my mind, I don't think about her, but when I see her is when my heart changes. I will be a good friend to her, I believe she needs friends to guide her and help her learn how awesome some of her friends are. I remember how I felt when I hugged my dad for 10 minutes when we had to move to Cecilia, I can still feel his tears hitting my forehead as mine ran down my face. I remember how I felt when he died, I felt emptiness but played it off, it was hard to cry, since I've been holding tears back for 8 years. Sometimes I want to but I just can't. I remember how I felt when I played my Orchestra for the first time, I felt reborn, I felt like something snapped in me and it just overflowed through my arms and allowed me to tap into skills I never thought I had. I will always remember three things, my dad, my wisdom, and myself for what I am and who I am right now. I wrote this because I've been reflecting some points in my life, some minor some major, apparently I seem to be stuck in this nostalgic or/and depressive mood, although the depression isn't really strong, it just feels.....nostalgic I guess idk. So pretty much I came right here to vent and sometimes I may just do stuff like this, and some other times I may ask for advice in the form of a question. But yeah.....post advice, comments, agreements, disagreements, or even confusion comments lol
