Need Help With Social Problems

Nobody loves me. For 14 years straight I've never known what love truely is, and just so you know, this sunday I'm turning 14. I've been picked on, humiliated, embarissed, without true friends, beat down, nearly killed, depressed, unnoticed, empty inside my heart, and unloved for my whole life. There's only 1 person that has ever liked me for who I am, but I was to blind to recognise what love was, and she moved on. The reason for these things, is because noone's really ever tried to get to know me. They only know that me they see at school, where I can't show who I truely am. Even though I know that alot of those things were exagerated, it still doesn't change the most important thing to me. The only thing that I want more than anyone could know, is to truely love someone for who they are, and to recieve true love for who I truely am in return. I know that I am better then I claim to be. I know this for a fact. I just need to see myself for who I really am, and to do that.......... I don't really know. It's as if I see myself as a different person then everyone else. Like there's something holding me back from being myself, and from being proud of who I am, and from believing in myself, and that causes me to be the something that I'm not. That causes me to be the person that noone truely knows. I know I can overcome it, but I think I just need a little help to push me in the right direction.

 

Well on the bright side when you're older you'll laugh at this all, because then life will really be a pain in the *** and you'll see how you worried for nothing.

 

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I wouldn't say for nothing....
>.>

 

Alright....... a litte bit of something. I'm pretty sure that it'll be nothing in retrospect though. But if in 10 years it still matters I need to get it on tape.

 

I am the same excact way, though I never had anyone that liked me. I dunno, I think I'm incapable of love or having alot of friends. One good friend is all you ever need, a friend who sees who you are as a person and won't judge you in any way. I am so happy I have a friend like that. As a girl, my escape has been writing or listening to music. I think it's good to have an outlet to vent your troubles so you won't feel bad all the time. I know my image will never change at school, I know I'm not what they say I am, that's all that matters to me. They don't talk to me because I am different, I don't talk to them because they are all the same.

I've been where you come from, and from experience, I say keep on living. After school, none of those people will matter. You will find someone right for you who'll accept you as is, not now, but eventually...

Ever need anyone to talk to again about stuff like this, pm me. I'll listen/read. lol

:D Keep your head up, things will get better.

 

You're just shy. A big help to this is to join clubs or organizations at school. Talk to the person who sits next to you during class. That's how I got some of my closest friends. See what the person likes, if the person enjoys the same thing, talk about it non-stop. (I do that. xD) Once you get pretty close to them as you talk, you can fully be yourself. Just to tell you...don't think about killing yourself. A person is important to at least one other person

 

I could NEVER even THINK about killing myself. Life is worth living. I just need to be as good of a person as I can, and break these bad habits that torment me so.

By the way, I joined an Organization, but not a school one. It's a top-secret Organization, developed from the Free Masons, which developed from the Knights Templar, Which developed from the Knights of the Round Table, and all the secrets guarded by the Knights Templar, and the Free Masons, are passed down to us. One day, a guy from the Knights Templar showed up randomly, and outof nowhere told us the exact location of and how to get to the Holy Grail, and let me tell you, Indianna Jones was WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY off. But the secrets are only a small part of it. It's more deep than that. The main thing is that it teaches you to better yourself. To be the best person you possibly can, and to apreciate life in general.

 

Oh lawd is 'dis sum drama-

First off, you're only fourteen. There's a lot of things in your conscience that probably haven't fully developed yet: abstract thought, recognizing actual 'love' [romantic context] etc. I'm currently agreeing with White Rook on this situation. I can shamelessly assume that sometime you'll see this as an inane let out of stress and tension. I know when I was younger I used to exaggerate things horribly. I wasn't secluded from others as you have said, but I was quite the pitywhore. Especially when I thought about things in the late evening. I don't know why, but I seem to become much deeper in this time frame.

Not knowing your past experiences, I can't really tag this as emo whining though. Please, don't feel like that was a prying statement. There were no intended implications~

If you think that there is a psychological problem causing this, than I would consider asking your parent and/or guardian if you could visit a therapist. If not that your school most likely has a counselor. It seems like a very confrontational act, but the benefit is worth it [I am a very shy person. I get nervous talking to the people at Pizza Hut]. Obviously the school counselor can't diagnose or prescribe medication to you if there are important issues that need to be tended to, but even if the counselor isn't helping you at all if they see problems they can request that you see a licensed therapist, who can later if they diagnose you, assign you a psychiatrist.

This sentence is going to sound painfully hypocritical to anyone who has read my full profile lol (ﾟﾍﾟ;)

 

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I know how you feel about this. I have friends of my own and I can be uber annoying. Yet, I'm very shy and quiet person in class.:( I push ppl in my life away 'cuz I don't want anyone to see me compare to them. I don't even like them at all anyways. One even tried to be my boyfriend. Hello? STOP RIGHT THERE! DON'T CROSS THE LINE!

But here on kh-vds I feel so 'loved'. Even I don't truly know the meaning is but I like to be noticed for a change. I would like to be your friend if that really helps.:)

 

Ok , that's good to hear. Just live out life. =D It can be surprising and great, despite the bad parts of it. Be yourself (try to do it in front of people who you know best for practice.)
xD

 

Oh lawdy lawd.

Please tell me you're kidding. XD

 

Nope. It's the truth.

 

Some extreme form of larping? <:3

 

Clontox, come to me whenever you need to talk about life ok? Think of me as 'big brother-Arc' XD. I wont turn you away.

 

Could you please do the same for me? *big puppy dog eyes* Oh and, Clontox, you have my permission to add me as your buddy. :D

 

Haha. You're very insightful for your age, I'm sure there's no problem with letting this slide.

 

..........This is EXACTLY the hell I've been going through my ENTIRE life. Outside of KH-Vids, my only friends I don't even get to see. EVERYONE else hates me. I fell in love with a boy, who moved away before I ever told him...and I'm trying to move on....but it's REALLY hard. Untill KH-Vids, I shut down my emotions two years ago...when my love left. Now, I'm trying to live a better life, stay by my friends, and move on. It's REALLY hard..it really is...but, thanks to KH-Vids, I'm alive inside.

Anyways, please hang in there. You have friends here, and if you don't think you do, your wrong. I'm here, and if you need someone to talk to, talk to me. I know EXACTLY what your going through....Just keep your light burning strong...

 

*Puts on some Simple Plan*

.....Too far?

 

Haha. Right. I so believe you.

Is it an object or sentiment? And if you know where it is, why don't you tell the millions of researchers trying to find this 'grail' where it is. LOL


Sorry to be a pest like this. I just find it very unlikely you know the exact location of something like that.