Okay-Here I go I was molested when I was 8. Because of that I have low self esteem. I have anger issues. I questioned my sexuality most of my life up until recently-I have found I am Bisexual. I Self Harm. I do Solvent Abuse. Mutible suicide attempts later,im still here Because of my best mate,Jordan-who Im madly in love with. Jordan used to self harm,we promised eachother we wouldnt do it. Jordan is "straight" and has a girlfriend (He says he wouldnt be sexually attracted to a guy but he wouldnt really question the emotional aspect) Im being bullied at school. I have a girlfriend but I dont love her,I love him. He says he wishes he could love me the same way I love him. He has clinical depression. As do I. My girlfriend is Bi-Polar. Basiclly,i know nobody will read this-I just want it here....if you do read it what do you think I should do Thanks.
16?! I'm sorry, but I think that sixteen is a bit young to say that you are in love. Beleive me, I probably know what you are feeling, but I don't think it is nessesaraly love. I'm eighteen and I still am not sure what love is. As for the depression, it's easy to tell that you think the world is falling all around you. Beleive me, I was there, in fact, I still kind of am. I have low self esteem, I'm sometimes depressed, and I use to have sucidal thoughts. I just want to let you know that you do have the inner strength to fight the depression, but I'm guessing you don't know your place in life. All I can say for that just hope and pray that your purpose comes soon.
I'm trying not to be judgemental; it's your life, but that also means that you have your own calling. We are created in our own uniqueness, and (in my experience) when someone has a calling that is not of the norm, they have trouble finding that calling and feel the weight of the world at their sholders. Your still young, so enjoy life while you can, but persue that what is calling you.
Its strange to think-My calling is Psychology....its weird that I need that sort of help but id rather I help others -_- Psychology and Art is what I love and ive always sworn to stick with that.
For a long time, I thought I was going into the field of medicine, mostly because diseases have plagued my family (and myself) for the longest time. However, as time progresses, life changes (and I realized that it'd be difficult to remember all that medical jargon). Now, I see myself as either a teacher or even a youth pastor (big surprise). I just want to help people, mostly youths who are having a hard time finding their place in this world.
After reading this, I must admit, you are actually a member on this site I have a lot of respect for. Anyways , on topic. What I should consider is you talking to your family about this, especially members of your family/people you can really trust. If this doesn't work, I recommend meditation of some sort, which doesn't mean to cross your legs like a guru and hum, but ease your mind, relax and find peace. This will give you time to breathe and to think.
As tummer said, it's a little early to say you're in love. You may feel like you like this guy a lot because he's a good friend. That on top of the fact that you're bisexual and probably find him attractive can easily be mistaken for love. I struggle with homosexual feelings and I have a lot of friends that I'm attracted to but I don't "love" them. For everything else, there are lots of solutions for depression and things like that. This may sound unhelpful or like I'm just saying it to say it but I mean it: You may want Jesus Christ in your life, or if you do, maybe it's time to try and strengthen your relationship with him.
I kind of what to add on what Killjoy is saying here. It's normal for a young person to have this types of feelings, but it's not what love is. And with the whole religion thing, I would agree with that as well. And I know there's a big controversy about Christians and gays, but what is commonly missed is that God doesn't hate gays. Gay's are actually pretty cool people and I know some some gay people and they're cool to be around. Yes, being gay is a sin in God's eyes, but just remeber that God hates the sin, not the sinner.
Exactly. Don't think being a sinner means you can't be a Christian. If that were true, nobody would be Christians. Everyone sins in some way or another. Being bisexual is no reason to avoid Christianity.
Could be a reason to avoid certain Christians though. It seems like there are a whole host of issues here. On the topic of your friend: In your situation, I'd try to focus on your girlfriend, and get over your feelings for your best friend. Unreciprocated feelings are not something you should keep around you. You can still be friends with him, but it'd be a very good idea to try to only think of him as a friend.
Well, if he really doesn't love her then he shouldn't force himself to stay in a relationship. Otherwise, I really don't have anything else to add. I kind of disagree with now knowing love at a young age since love is ageless, but it would take a certain time for one to fully understand it as they would have to understand themsleves, or something of the sort. Either way, if your friend is straight and unlikely to change, it's best to think of him as only a friend to avoid even more pain and heartbreak.
