My heart is filled with hate & despair, someone set me free(LOL)

Just so you know, I never talked about this before...That much. But every single day in school, I get put down. I'm not even lying. Like, literally every school day, probably after 4th grade, I get put down because of me being annoying. And I'll be honest, I probably am annoying, but I think it's how I'm 'original' and that I can't change myself from being annoying. So they have to put up with it, or could at the very least stop making me mad/sad. I usually shrug it off, but it's becoming more of a burden. Few people are my friends/don't intentionally make me sad/mad, but that doesn't mean I'm satisfied. Can anyone help me? I can't shrug it off or tell them to stop, because they'll just ignore me and keep on making me mad/sad about every time I talk to them without even beginning a convo. Some even hate me to the point where they want me gone/dead.

 

I know how you feel. I can be annoying at times but all I can say is that if they make you mad/sad they're not worth paying attention to. Like you said it's that quirk that makes you, you. If they can't accept that, they're not worth it. You have some friends right? THOSE are the ones you should pay attention to.

It boils down to this:

Accept all of me or none of me. Simple as that.

 

I don't think it's really that easy. Another piece of my originality is listening, even if I'm getting insulted at. And believe me, it's bloody hard to try and not listen

 

Just shut it out. It's hard but you'll have to train yourself not to listen to what they say.

Wish I could help you more.

 

What exactly is it about you that annoys people?

Being original is important--however, it's also important to be aware of your faults & shortcomings, in order to be able to fix them. If it's just your personality that people don't dig, then find people who do, and ignore the haters. But if you, say, yell a lot and that bothers everyone, you're not losing originality by not doing it anymore, you're just trying to create the best iteration of yourself.

You're allowed to change yourself, just make sure that you don't completely lose 'you.' Everyone has room to grow, though.

 

Oh wow, this right here is what i've been going through for..16 years now? Just gotta choose the right people to hang out with. Though there are many that'll bring you down, there are those that, whether intentional or not, WILL make you happy, and will make you...better? Try getting into a sport, it helps vent your emotions a lot. Hope i could help.

 

I know how you feel man, and I'm going through this as well. It's been happening basically all my school life.

Pretty much what Smurfasaurus said, just choose the right people to hang out with. I will warn you, the people may seem like the 'right' people, but they might turn out to be someone pretending to be the 'right' person. They might be hanging out with you just to get stuff out of you, and make fun of you further. Backstabbing people. I'm not saying to not trust anyone, just be careful.

Venting your emotions through something helps as well. It could be a sport as Smurf said, drawing, writing (drawing + writing are ways I vent), or just talking to someone you trust.

Hope this helps, and good luck. PM me if you want to talk about it further. :)

 

Do you think of yourself as someone annoying?

Just don't forget that you're you, and nobody else. And you are who makes you who you are, you can change if you want, just be determined. Hope and determination are important to do anything, they are part of things that allow you to reach and pass through any limit.

And, like Misty said, if you stop doing something that you believe is part of yourself, this doesn't mean that you not gonna be your-original-self. Sometimes this mean that you're maturing, growing. Moving forward to be a new person, to be a new and original yourself.

If people don't accept you, delete them. If you don't like them so just ignore them, if you do this they would never even exist for you, they will make no difference in your life. But if there are people that you care, and they say something like you're being annoying, you can choose if you want to be like that or be like this.

You are who you are, and, well, "be who you wanna be.
So, who you wanna be today?"
See this video friend, of our good buddy Mike. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d3LAtuaagso&context=C2170fADOEgsToPDskJaUmhxO9XZv_kNewWqU8sF

I hope you feel better really soon, and anytime you want to talk, PM/VM me and I will be really glad to talk! ^^

EDIT:

LOL.