My goodness, it has been a while.

Hello.

When you finish your heart attacks, I have some things to say.

I did not hack the site, try to hack the site, or threaten to hack the site, before anyone asks. I am sorry for the confusion. I did antagonize people. I owe a lot of apologies for the things I did.

Any inquiries about the banning or unbanning should be directed to Jayn and Plums.

Going forward, I plan to be nicer and more understanding of other users. The past year has shown me that I am the cause of my own misery more often than not.

To Amaury: I inexcusably personally antagonized you. I judged you without getting to know you and blamed you for my own failures to change your behavior. I am sorry.

To Mike (the reporter): I'm not sure if you're still around, but I apologize for criticizing you publicly. I was harsh on you because you annoyed me even though you were doing no harm. I was selfish and toxic. I apologize for stressing you out. I hope you are doing better now.

To all others, I apologize for the offenses I caused either directly or indirectly and not noticing it when I did.

I want to do better. I can do better. I hope I can make reparations with anyone I harmed. I am sorry.

I want to thank my friends for cutting me off when I got too toxic. I needed to be cut off to truly understand that what I was doing was only harming everyone around me. You have helped me more than you could know. I am sorry I did not value you as much as you deserved.

Please continue to be strict. I am in control of my behavior, but I am not always aware of the effects; I may need help. I don't want you to give me the benefit of the doubt or take my side automatically because I'm 'trying'. That may one day let me fall into the same old habits I had before. If you have a problem with something I say, please contact me privately instead of letting it go. Your advice will be a reminder to stay on the path. I greatly appreciate your helping me grow this far. Please help me grow some more.

On to the good stuff.

 

Takes a big man to apologize like this, in public. It takes a lot of humility to do this in front of people you don't want to look weak in front of....

I'm going to match this maturity the only way I know how...



Welcome back bro mademythreadfirstbitch

 

Thank you. whathreadbitch

 

Not gonna pretend I understand what this is about, but anybody with the balls or ovaries to make a thread like this is pretty cool

 

Anytime. itsstilltherehauntingyouitsjustbeenevacuated...bitch

Agreed, but, eh, I don't think that stuff matters to people like us with no grasp on the sitcheeayshun. Let's just welcome a former fallen back by being.. .well, the spamzone

 

Maybe Saturday was a bad time...

I'll kill you.

 

welcome back c:

 

I'm glad to see you back, and especially glad that you've matured in your time away.

While I always respected your intellect and willingness to go against the crowd, your personal skills really held you back. But this thread shows a huge improvement in humility and kindness. Here's hoping you can not only sustain this but continue to grow. I'm just sorry that it sounds like you had a rough ride to get some sense knocked into you.

 

Well I must be an asshole for not being super cheery about this.

Don't get me wrong man, it does take something to apologize and that is good and all. However, in reality nothing has changed until we see it. Actions speak louder than words, etc. Clearly there is some bias in this thread, and that is more than okay but I am not going to pretend that the things that happened in the past, didn't happen. People could easily say the same things about me, and that is just fine.

To clarify, I am in no way mad at you for anything (although you may be towards me, eh) its just this is, how can I say...uncomfortable? Yeah that is a good word to use. I like to be honest about this stuff, I really do, so I hope you/any of your friends don't decide to go apeshit on me for having a different opinion here. I came back to khv because I missed some of the nicest people I have ever met, and I also wanted some closure. This takes some of that away. I know on various occasions you have tried to get in contact me through Ashwin but I decided to just keep to myself because like I said before, I just want to forget about all of this. I want to forget about the various MSN convos where you went all psycho-analyst and decided how wrong all of my actions/outlooks on life were. I want to forget about all the "insert khv drama that the staff would remove here". I just want to be rid of it all.

So please, understand that if it takes me a while to speak to you, it is nothing personal. I just need to take care of myself. For once.

 

I actually understand completely. I am not mad and never was. You have been through a lot. I wanted to warn you ahead of time so that my coming back wouldn't upset you. I'm sorry.

To all who welcomed me; Trigger, Mixt, tale wind; thank you.

 

Hello and welcome back. That is really all I can say because I have only met you once in a chat, and we really didn't talk. But welcome back and have fun, but not too much fun, 'kay?

 

The Nazis really have won.

 

Most underwhelming return/10

 

It's not my fault you guys lost your spark.

 

You took too long

 

Maybe if a certain someone wasn't a Nazi sympathizer we'd be better off.

 

To clarify, inquiries about Makaze's original ban or other questions/concerns can also be directed towards me.

 

; ~ ;

Nice save.

 

@Nate_River, be nice.

Anyway, to be honest, I don't really remember much of anything against me, so everything's cool between us. I'm one of those people that doesn't hold grudges and gets over things, like, 5-10 minutes after they happen. It's why whenever my mom and I argue, she goes to bed all stressed, and I'm all honky-dory. :o

Welcome back!