First of all, am I too late? D: 1. For this one, it's only an opinion you have of people. You feel like they have to see the light soon--see that popularity isn't the key to everything. That they shouldn't act like the center of the world...so on. Your mother must be exaggerating, calling you a grumpy old man at 11. There really are some kids who just mature early. Who see the world for what it is. 2. Ah...I had a fair-weather friend who felt empty, too. Out of curiosity, I asked him when he started feeling like this, and he told me when he was 8. When a close relative of his died. If you can look back, maybe you can pinpoint just what is making you feel so empty. Of course, quantity < quality. I don't have a whole lot of friends either, and it makes me feel lonely and empty, too. When they do come around, it makes me feel lucky that I'm not one of those who have so much fake friends. I'm sure you consider yourself lucky as well. :3 3. Ah, girls. Actually, I'm one myself. I study in an all girls school, so I can't exactly tell if it's just weird how they act around you, by inference, or if it's quite normal. Judging, though, by the way all my classmates talk about boys (or boy), I can say this is quite normal. Consider this a compliment--it means you're quite the charming one and have quite the attitude that shows up sometimes, perhaps. But please, don't feel awkward around me. :D Other people being stupid? Well, some are for what you see them do. Personally, I wouldn't say stupid. But of course, I can't tell you what you can and cannot do because I have no control over you, whatsoever. About "I act like myself...but I'm not sure if that's me.", perhaps it's just a sense of insecurity. If you think it just doesn't feel like you...then, just give it time. I always thought I was the shy, reserved one, but here I am jumping over tables, laughing like an idiot, and approaching teachers and principals, greeting them with a smile and a sense of humor that I never showed anyone except real friends. It's also very okay to think deeply. I believe it enhances your logic/knowledge. But of course, there's a right time for deep thinking and maybe shallow thinking, just to humor your friends or to not over-think thinks. I'm sorry, by the way, if I came around too late. If you're not stuck anymore, I'm happy for you. :3
You´re a clone of me!!!!!!! ´cept for girls lol. Anyways, I would recomend trying to make "cool" guys react to what the h... is happening around them. Do you have a religion class? do as I did and ask your teacher to speak about this. Hope it helps!
