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rikusorakairiown · Mar 20, 2011

Maki o-o says
*Kisses more*
I Love you risk, Not playing.
Risk Own says
My concept of love was long since torn from me
Maki o-o says
I Know.
Risk Own says
I can feel it no further than friendship.
sometimes not even that.
Maki o-o says
Well.
I Hope i can get the best out of you.
^^
Risk Own says
Good luck.
I myself haven't broken those chains.
Maki o-o says
I Know.
Only..
He can.
But.. Even then when he did those bad things
Did it feel good to love?
Did it feel good to open up yourself?
Risk Own says
No.
Maki o-o says
And why's that?
You prob got the bad part of it.
Just open up.
Once.
Even though you made that oath.
Risk Own says
my sorrow is my own.
Maki o-o says
Just do it.
Your sorrow won't go away
Until you know how to control it.
Risk Own says
I tried everythi
Maki o-o says
Right now, You're just afraid of it.
You're running away from it.
Still.
Risk Own says
I embraced it
I ran from it
I... mutualized it.
Sorrow will do as is it's wont.
Maki o-o says
*Hugs*
I Just.. Want to know how you feel.
How you truly feel.
I Really want you to feel better.
It pains me to see you this way.
Risk Own says
Better this than the alternative.
Maki o-o says
I Honestly.. Don't know if you're the real risk i knew before.
I Mean..
You've changed.
Alot.
I Want the old risk back.
The one i knew.
Risk Own says
So do I.
Maki o-o says
No you don't.
You just want to keep your sorrow bottled up.
Let it out.
Risk Own says
I have done
Maki o-o says
Nothing.
Nothing at all.
Risk Own says
It isn't a desirable situation
Maki o-o says
*Hugs tighter* Please.
Just..
Just don't try to fight it anymore.
Let it go.
The more you try to keep it inside
The more it hurts.
Even though you feel no pain
It's eating your heart inside out.
Risk Own says
My heart was blacker then than now.
Maki o-o says
Your heart was pure as pure could ever be.
Risk Own says
Once.
Maki o-o says
You were truly a good soul back then.
I Want that back.
Risk Own says
That person is dead.
Maki o-o says
Not at all.
He's stuck inside you.
Behind those.. Merciless walls of sorrow and despair.
Help him break them.
Risk Own says
All attempts to find him have failed.
Maki o-o says
You've found him.. Just you don't wish to help him.
The more you help people out and express your feelings
The bigger the crack gets.
The bigger the crack gets
well...
Risk Own says
And when I don't remember those feelings?
Maki o-o says
I..
Idk.
Make new feelings.
Better feelings.
Risk Own says
If only I were so lucid.
I am not a God.
Maki o-o says
I Didn't say you were.
Risk Own says
You want to know why I know he's dead.
He was back hthe previous few weeks.
Then he left.
Maki o-o says
I Know what it is..
Ever since you fapped you've felt better.
You made that oath to keep him locked up.
Risk Own says
Au contraire
Maki o-o says
You don't want him to come out.
You don't want him to show his face again.
Risk Own says
When I fapped he went away.
Maki o-o says
T-Then..
Why're you acting like this?
Risk Own says
Because my well is never quick to recede
only to fill
Maki o-o says
Fill it with joy and happiness.
Risk Own says
It's too rare.
and too little.
Or perhaps I'm too broken
I know not.
Maki o-o says
What's broken can be repaired.
Always.
What little can still be picked up.
Risk Own says
Not always by human hands.
Maki o-o says
Whats rare is still found.
Risk Own says
Darkness consumes forevermore.
It never rests.
Darkness is always there.
The light merely hides it.
It is quite simple really.
I am unfixable.
Maki o-o says
But you are repairable.
Yet you can not be fully fixed
Risk Own says
Many have tried all have failed.
Maki o-o says
You can be helped
You can be melded into something better*
Risk Own says
Only temporarily.
All will return to thesorrow of darkness and solitude.
Maki o-o says
Then who cares.
All the peices
Just keep on melding htem
Them*
Idc if the darkness and what not comes back.
Risk Own says
First you must find what is needed to meld me
Then someone so vigilant to do so
Darkness never rests
Never.
All leads to sorrow.
There can be no release,
Not even in death.
I must commend you.
I have gotten more out of me than most.
Maki o-o says
Hmm?
What does commend mean? D:
Risk Own says
praise
express approval of;
Maki o-o says
Oh.
Risk Own says
Everytime there is hope.
It is snatched away.
I long only for inner peace.
Maki o-o says
*Cuddles tightly*
I Don't want you to be consumed into the darkness that he put on you..
><
Risk Own says
I've not been.
That person also died.
I called her Maestitia.
Maki o-o says
She died?
Really?
Risk Own says
Yes.
Maki o-o says
Finally.. That wretched witch died. ._.
One down, 2 to go.
Risk Own says
I love Maestitia.
She's pure poetry.
Maki o-o says
You love her because of the joy of the darkness she gives you.
Poetry is yet just a simple word to cover up sorrow.
You mostly write it express love..
Feelings for another person
Risk Own says
Perhaps
Maki o-o says
But what you really do it write how it's all going to end.
Always.
Risk Own says
But talking in constant poetry
Is not undesirable.
I miss it.
Maki o-o says
Okay.
Since i forgot what i was going to say
I'm now done with this.
>_>
Risk Own says
Very well.
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So I'm going to get some soon.

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Sabby · Mar 20, 2011

Do I dare ask what I just read? O_O

Zter · Mar 20, 2011

So you were sexting with Makaze?

rikusorakairiown · Mar 20, 2011

Sabby said: ↑

Do I dare ask what I just read? O_O
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A heart to heart conversation.

Zter said: ↑

So you were sexting with Makaze?
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Makaze = makmak, not maki

AwkwardFailure · Mar 20, 2011

What..just..

LARiA · Mar 21, 2011

Zter said: ↑

So you were sexting with Makaze?
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Makaze would never!

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