I kinda don't really know how to explain it, but help me out if you can: 1: my friend is currently in Paris and I'm missing him a lot. I havent been able to stop thinking about him since he left, and I think its just making me a little depressed. The odd thing is he has barely been gone for a week, and I cannot wait until he gets back. The bad part about that is that I know without a doubt that he doesn't miss me as much. he's on holidays, why should he? We text every day, but due to timezones our conversations are really short, because I'm either just about to go to work or I'm taking a nap because I just finished work. We have little 20-minute conversations twice a day, and he keeps sending pics of everything from his holiday. He's not coming back for 3 weeks, and its kinda depressing because its very unlikely I'll even see him then. 2: i have realised that I can't take breaks at work: not because I'm not allowed ti, but because I get really lazy afterwards. I start my shifts half an hour early because I get the early train (my work is pretty far from where I live) anyway, I cant take a break because I start subconsciously slacking off afterwards. In the last hour I constantly find myself pacing around the cafe finding things to clean and staring at the clock, rather than actually serving customers. I will still do it when my coworkers tell me to, but my motivation pretty much plummets if I take a break. I can't not rake a break though, because the chefs insist that I do. They also always insist on making me heavy foods so that I cant do much when I'm done. I keep telling them to make me something lighter to eat, but then they get really annoyed. What I dont get is the fact that they expect me to eat such heavy food and then be amazingly productive and running around talking to customers etc etc. the chef blasted me today because I was a little slower because I had a headache. I dont even complain about it! If its absolutely unbearable I'll ask for a pain killer but thats it. Basically, I think the chef's are right though. I should just do my job. 3: uni is stressing me out. It hasn't started yet, but the fact that I haven't already gotten into uni is really messing with me. I had a few friends today whose high school scores were lower than mine and they got accepted, but I chose harder courses to get accepted into so I havent been offered a spot...yet. Something should come up within the next few weeks, but at the moment I'm just stressing a lot. So......thats pretty much it. A lot of stuff has kinda just happened at once and it has thrown me off a little bit. I'm feeling really weird, like a mixture of sad, guilty, anappreciated and dumb. Help if you can?
relax, go to sleep, wake up with a fresh attitude ready to take on life. I'm nervous about being accepted into this school, but it's not really worth stressing over because I've done my best, I've submitted everything I have to submit, so all that' left now is to wait. Whatever happens, happens. I can't really help with the work thing because I don't have any work experiences, though I sympathize with your problem about taking breaks because I'm the same way.
I'm sure your friend misses you too Amy, he'd be just as glad to see you again face to face. You'll definitely see him again soon, just find ways to take your mind off it till then. I don't really have any good advice to help you with your work situation. Just try and talk to the chefs, make them understand that to work at a reasonable pace you need lighter foods. If you have a headache, ask if they can give you something for it. Working with a headache isn't going to speed you up at all. The time it'd take to ask for a painkiller would save you the time you would take reeling in pain. You're a highly intelligent person, any university would be more than happy to take you. You're bright, you're charming, if you had higher scores i'm sure you'll be noticed. They'd be dumb not to accept you. It's normal to stress over a matter like this. Just don't let the stress get to you too much, okay ^^ You know you always got friends you can turn to whenever you run into problems like this. Just stay calm and stay happy ^^ Hope this helped, Amy.
1: That's sweet and understandable. Unfortunately all I can advise is trying to meet up with other friends and have a good time. Unfortunately I also know that most of your friends are abroad at the moment so that may be hard.... I advise doing stuff you enjoy, watch movies, play games, whatever your into to kind of fill up your time and enjoy your time. If you've got a new year resolution, could be a good time to start on it. 2: Unfortunately yes, that's the kind of stuff involved in a job. You take breaks so you can go back to work. It's unfortunate, I've turned lazy mid job after a terrible day, but it's all we can do is move forward. I won't deny I've avoided some jobs before when I know I can get away from it, but that's rare. But yes, unfortunately all you can do is just do your job. Hope it gets easier. 3: I didn't get into Uni my first year, last year as it was and I can be sure to say it's a terrible time. But in the end I am glad I had the year off, I got my first full time job working as a Teaching Assistant and I learned tons and better yet the appreciation of higher education. I can only say that you can only do your best, if you've done your work then you can't change it, there is nothing more to do. You just accept it and deal with things as they come. Even if you don't get into the Uni you want, there is always an alternative, and sometimes it's better then your first path. It's all an opportunity. Hope everything turns out ok.
You're probably just used to having your friend around and so you just kind of feel a bit empty when he's not there. Well if you are having difficulty with your job you should just ask the chef straight on, just explain that you can't run around when you have just eaten something heavy. If you stress that won't help, just keep your cool and you should do just fine. If you are feeling a bit down in the dumps just do something you like to do, if you think you know what you feel guilty about you should let it out. Maybe you just feel unappreciated because of work and your friend going away at once. You are still friends with him right? If you are you shouldn't have anything to worry about.
