I have no pulse

..........................................................................................................................Wait I found it. Never mind I am in fact alive. Did you know that there was a kind of replacement heart that acted with a kind of fan-blade-like system that created no pulse because the pressure was constant? I read about it in a book and today I couldn't find my pulse. Let's talk about hearts. Real ones, and artificial ones not the ridiculous representations in valentines day cards. By the way, what's even up with Valentines day? It's for St. Valentine, but what'd he do? What's the point all it is is an excuse for failing couples to break up over a trivial issue. I don't even know what it was for originally. I don't know where "Same difference" Came from either. Honestly, what's it really mean? How can it be the same if it's different and different from what exactly? Hows that even work? Why does gravity effect masses coming together? I mean it doesn't really have any scientific justification. It's just there with it's constant 9.8 meter per second per second. It just has no reason, at least magnets have poles and electric fields and stuff, gravity is only attractive and hasn't any particles or anything causing it. You know what else has no cause, the universe. Really what's it even here or there or anywhere it is for? How can it just be. Why is it a universe if it was created. That means there was something before and wouldn't that be the universe? So it should really be the same universe. That means the universe may have an end and beginning of life and other things but never existence. Our puny minds can barely grasp the concept of true empty space and time. This sucks, I wanna be smarter.