Alright. This is kind of a vent so I'll make it so it's not too tl;dr. My mom has something called Trigeminal Neuralgia. To make it short and sweet there's an artery that's rubbing against some super nerve in the jaw that causes severe pain. The only cure is a shitload of pain pills and surgery. Maybe a gamma knife if you're willing to have radioactive crap stuck into your head. She had it on the right side of her face not too long ago. So to make things better she got surgery done. It was fine until we realized that she had it on the other side of her face. Which is rare. Only 1% of TN cases have it on both sides. JUST ONE FUCKING PERCENT. And she has to be that one percent? What did she do to deserve this? I hate it. I hate it so much. There's nothing I can do. For the past few days my mother's been up until late at night pacing around, crying because it hurts her so bad. She's taking so many pain pills I'm surprised she can even work and be normal in the head. She eats soft foods and doesn't even dare look at anything that's slightly hard to bite. Right now she's pacing around again, writing things down on a whiteboard because it hurts her to talk. Dad's standing with her...the only thing he can do is hold and support her. She moans and cries and repeats. I hate hearing it, I hate what she has, and I hate how I can't help her. Edit: And now she's off to the Emergency Room. Jesus Christ. I asked her that. What can I do to help? She wrote down on her whiteboard, "There's nothing you can do to help." Then she looked at me and started to cry. She's getting surgery again in November 9th. Thank god. My mom and dad mean everything to me. If something happened to them I wouldn't know what to do. Hearing my mom in such pain tears my heart into pieces. I'm terrible for not being able to help her. Yeah, I know that sounds ******ed and sappy but it's true... I just don't know what to do.
The only thing that you can really hope for is the best. Freaking out is completely understandable and justified, but your mom is the one it's happening to and it might be easier for her if you can be strong. These sorts of things happen to the best people it seems, and you've just got to hang in there. Even if you're not a religious person, praying can help to at the very least calm you down.
