I don't know what I should major in college, and I'm having a bit of girl problems.

Hi, I'm a first-year in college and I'm just really confused with what I want to do and what I should major in. I go to an American college called UCR. I know that you should major in something that you have a passion for and something that you won't struggle in. Now I'll be completely honest, I don't have many interests, the only things that I have ever felt really passionate for is the Sonic and Kingdom Hearts franchise and Anime/Manga. Its been my dream ever since I was in the 8th great to make Sonic or Kingdom Hearts games or make my own Anime/Video Game/Book Series. I have wonderful ideas for characters and stories, but I just never knew how exactly to get those ideas on papers and start and start writing a story.

When I first entered college, I started out as Creative Writing major and took to classes in Creative Writing since I thought that they may help me figure out ways to get my ideas on paper and perhaps someday make a book out of it. And I will admit that it was a pretty fun class to take but I was just worried that there may not be many good jobs for a Creative Writing major once I graduate college. Both of my professors had their own books published which I thought was very impressive so I spoke to one of them during her office ours and asked her how does the process of writing a book work and she explained to me that it took her ten years of writing everyday before she was ready to publish her first draft and when she was ready, she said that her editors suggested that she should cut out 2/3 of her book (I believe that her first draft was 1000+ pages) before they published it. And then she said that after ten years worth of writing. Her book only stayed on the shelves for about two months. She explained to me that you must have a strong passion for writing if you plan to major in Creative Writing because you probably are not going to make much money off of it or make the next Harry Potter series unless you are really lucky. So I decided to drop my Creative Writing major and now here I am in the middle of my second quarter as an undeclared major. Even though I got all A's my first quarter, I don't believe that I'm taking classes that will lead me to a career that I will be happy working in for the rest of my life.

So now that I am an undeclared major, I'm trying to figure out what I should major in that will lead me to a career that I will enjoy for the rest of my life. So I decided to head over to my college's Computer Science Department since I heard that my college has a good video game design program so I decided to check it out and see what classes I would need to take. Unfortunately I would need to take a lot of math classes since my college sees math as the foundation of computers so it believe that its should know a lot of math. However, math isn't really my strong area. I was great in math up until Geometry in High School. But when I started taking Algebra II and Trigonometry, I started to struggle a lot. I was still able to pass those classes with a C though. Right now I'm really behind in Math since the college wants me to take some remedial Math workshop that may not even be offered next quarter which means that I'll have to take it in the Summer if I can afford it that is. And even then, I'll still be behind since I'll have to change colleges (UCR is split up into 3 different colleges with their own breadth requirements) and work on their breadth requirements. During my time so far in college I learned that Math may not be my strong point but I found that I'm good at writing, but like I said, I don't really know of a career where I'll be happy in that requires good writing skills.

Last week I attended a Video Game and Animation presentation by someone who works for a video game company in America. After his presentation, I went up to him and explained how much I love the Sonic Franchise and would someday like to make Sonic games and so he explained to me that making video games is a team effort (i.e. you have your designing team, art team, sound team, etc.), and if I plan on working in the designing field, then I may want to think about moving to Japan since that's where Sega and Square Enix designing team is. So lately I've been thinking about double majoring in both Computer Science (to take game design classes) and Asian Studies (to take Japanese classes) and possibly studying abroad in Japan at some point. However I don't know if I'll be able to handle this much work and be able to graduate within 4 years. I have to commute to school (since I couldn't afford to live in a dorm) and I have a tutoring job at my old high school. Driving to college and Tutoring is cutting in to my homework time a lot right now. I am currently taking 3 classes and 13 units and I am already 2 units behind the 15 unit average which I am suggested to be taking if I plan to graduate within 4 years majoring 1 subject. Time and money is of the essence and I'm worried that if I major in two subjects then it will take me longer to graduate from college and cost my family even more money.

Ever since I came to UCR, I've been attending its Anime Club and for the first time ever, I feel like I truly found people outside of the internet that I can hang out with who have the same interests as mine. I've made many wonderful friends and have greatly warmed up to the staff. I plan to apply for an officer position and hopefully become a staff member next year. However, there's this one girl that I've met in the club who I really like. Her name is Neetu. I've hung out with her a few times and she's even invited me in her dorm room. I text her every other day and decided that over the winter break that when the next quarter starts that I would ask her out. However besides two days ago, I haven't seen her all quarter since she has had time to come to the anime club lately (Tomorrow will be the start of week#5). Friday, two days ago was the first day of the second quarter that I saw her again at the club.

When I first laid my eyes open her after not seeing her for over a month my heart started beating like a rocket. One of the reasons why I am so fascinated by her is because she wishes to pursue the same career as me. She also wants to become a game designer, but unlike me, she has better idea of how the game field works (in terms of what jobs pay more and what will look good on your resume). Where I on the other hand know nothing, I just have the simple dream of working for the video game franchise that brought me so much happiness over my life time. She also has stronger skills in Math than me and is already in the college that Computer Science is placed in. And not only that but while I was talking to her, she said that she was planning to move to another university USC because she heard that they have a better game program than UCR and students who graduate from that university are usually hired by big time companies straight off the bat. At that moment, my heart just sunk. She said that she was planning on submitting her application before this Tuesday. Here she is planning to make the next big step towards her dream career of making video games and here I am still trying to figure out what I am trying to do obsessed with my dream of being a part of making Sonic games but too scared to make the big step forward of facing the math classes which I have been struggling with.

She told me before Friday that she was going to be able to come to the anime club for the first time in 5 weeks so I was planning to ask her out to a movie or something (I've never had dating experience before so this was going to be my first time asking a girl out, but I thought it was a good idea to ask her out in person so I waited until last Friday) but I felt too heart broken by the fact that she was planning to move away. It was 11pm and she was planning to walk back to her dorm alone in the dark. I offered to walk with her or give her a ride in my car but she claimed that she didn't want me to waste gas or to have to walk back to the parking lot alone after I drop her off. But I didn't want her to get hurt or anything so I tried to be "the gentleman" and offer to walk or drive her to her dorms to makes sure she's safe. My friends Andrew, Nathan, and Sasha also backed me and told her that their could be rapers around campus, but she still refused. In the end what we ended up doing since my friend Alex lives in a dorm close to her's, we had Alex walk her to her dorm and I drove Andrew, Nathan, and Sasha to their apartment.

I have a feeling that either she just wasn't comfortable enough with me to let her drive her to her apartment or she just didn't want me to have to waste gas or walk in the darkness by myself. Well, at least later that night she sent me a text apologizing and hoping that she didn't offend me or anything. I just replied saying that I didn't want hurt to get hurt or anything. Now here I am today confused about what I should do with my life and the rest of my college career. Neetu told me that she was also thinking about studying abroad in Japan like me. But another reason why she's going to USC is because their Game Design program requires you to take a foreign language where at UCR, you would have to double major. So I was thinking about going to USC too after hearing what Neetu told me about it, but if I did that, then I would be a follower and not a leader. I don't want to be someone who doesn't make his own decisions, I have to learn how to develop my own self and be confident. But at the same time, I really like this girl and I don't want to see her go, but I should be happy for her for following her dreams. I just wish I could be more like her and have a decided path and a plan of action in college.

So is there anyone out there who may have any advice for me? Or has been put into a similar situation? Any comments would be greatly appreciated. :)