I don´t understand why I want to live...

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I will die and in sadness I will roar
They don´t worry but I don´t care anymore
I don´t have a future, I will not be a living being
My rage is like a flame that devours everything

Thunder, rain and lighting
In dead my heart in drowning
I will not count on nobody
My heart is evil and is rotting

I don´t feel nor I will count on others
My heart in this rage is burning
I will not stop the fire
I want to die, I have this deadly desire

I want to end my life
I don´t want to try again
Live in my depression isn´t right
And I won´t stop this time

But a part of me wants to live
“What is happening to me?” I ask
I want to end this, to burn in death
Still, a part of me wants to survive

I won´t stop, I don´t want a future for me
I won´t let anbody help me, I will burn and die
I close my eyes and I feel burn
I want to be wrapped in flames and roar

I don´t want to live
This is the last solution that I have
I don´t stop now
And I am not going to cry

Still why a part want to live?
If I don´t have a reason to survive
I won´t open my heart
In the darkness I will live

I see the chaos for everyone who did this to me
My heart is closed in the darkness, and I will make them pay
I will make them cry
I will have no mercy, I am a being of the dark

I will make suffer everyone who did this to me
I will make them pay, suffer and cry
I will kill them all
Before end my life
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Yes, I want to die now, but a part of me don´t wants.

 

a part that is very smart. don't end your life...


anyways the poem is very good. great job =]