I have depression, I have for a few years now. I've been fine for the past few months. But lately I feel so down. I get angry with my friends so easily, I spend most of my day laying in my bed or on the couch(when i'm not online), I don't sleep as much, and I'm looking for any excuse to get out of doing stuff. I've been paranoid and nervous a lot too. For some reason, I think everyone is talkin' sh*t about me behind my back, but being nice or joking around with me. I know I should trust some people more, but it's hard. I've had my trust betrayed so many times. I know I should probably see a therapist, but I refuse to. The last time I did that, I felt worse than before and completely shut down while I was there. I don't want to go through that again. I don't wan to to just wait this out. What can I do?
I know how you feel. I'm going through the exact same thing right now, I've been going through it for 2 years, but other than focusing on the bad stuff u should look at the good in ur life instead and play with ur friends. I've been doing it and i'm getting better little by little. U should try it too.
I'm experiencing the same stuff due to family problems. I talk to the people who give me problems and try to sort it out. Also, I just tell myself I can face my problems head on and guess what.. it actually works. Spending time sulking about life and problems isn't time well spent. Don't give a damn about what others are saying.. whats important is what you think.. [ just don't get too self centered] Don't let others tear you down.
Stop being a panzy. Stop trying to feel depressed about it, stop taking life so seriously. Anytime your mad at friends its normally cause someone is being to serious. Your only as depressed as you want to be, I've said that multiple times to people very few understand what I am saying. So here is the blunt of it, stop procrastinating and try not try as in look happy. Try new thing, experiment. Party Naked.
do you know how much worse you just made me feel! I hate when people have that attitude of 'oh you just gotta lighten up'. the world doesn't always work that way. plus I am expected to be mature about a lot of things. I can't go around acting like tome stupid kid who thinks they can do whatever the hell they want.
Its a very real issue. I have had it happen recently for the first time in my life with a friend I loved dearly. I found out she wasn't so friendly behind my back and was false on top. She has much personal issues that makes her like this (was raped by family members as a child), yet I still feel victimized. Demonchick, the best thing to do is be sure of what you feel and don't jump to conclusions. Confront them about it and it will all come out, but be prepared for the worst. If indeed they have been belittling you behind your back, take the Chris Crocker approach and do the hair flip and move on to other people who can respect you for who you are. You owe it to yourself to find out the truth no matter the outcome, but you must take action now before it completely wears you down. There are many telltale signs of betrayal, and trust is hard to gain after being hurt once. Make sure you see those signs, ask about it, ask them directly. I know its hard to, but it is best to know than to keep being plagued by thoughts and covering it up with a smile when you're around them. If you ever need to talk I'm usually on here, so send me a PM or comment. If you want to talk on messengers my YIM is terrorofdeath8[at]yahoo.com. All I can say for now do the confronting. As said before, brace yourself for the worst. Then if it all crumbled down on you and they ARE treating you this way, find some new friends who you may talk to about anything and will be truthful and honest to your face and behind your back. Because those friends aren't friends at all if they're doing things like that. They need the counseling. Not you, hon.
I know EXSACTLY what you are going through. Let me ask you. Do you feel as if you have any insperation in your life? anything at all that could possibly inspire you
not too much -_- i know there's something wrong with me when i can't be creative for more than 3 days straight. @Vexen: thanx, but really when i said i needed to go to therapy, that was referring to the derpession, i need to be more clear with that XD
Just a thought; winter depression. I only say this because you've been fine in months previous, but now that the dark dank wintery season has arrived things are turning down again. There is not much I can really suggest to you since the best advice I have to offer has been disallowed. The sole thing I can say is that getting out of this current state of yours will take time and effort. It's not just going to disappear on its own, so in a way Spitfire does have a decent point. Take control of the situation, worse comes to worse at least you can say that you tried.
Depression can hit anyone and we all at times just feel like crap, lethargic, and don't want to be a part of life because we feel outside the norm. This is a time though when you need to start thinking of a few things. If you feel so lethargic, one reason is what you mentioned. You need to ensure you get better sleep. Not getting enough sleep or getting too much sleep can lead to depression. Your body needs at least 6 to 8 hours of sleep a day to function normally and not become exhausted. Another thing is that now it is winter and the clouds are thicker and the days are shorter. The sky may often be gray and well, it does affect your mood. You may want to work on some of the lighting in your room and around you and try to put up some stuff with colors around that make you feel happier. Maybe hang up some new posters or something like that and add a light to your room for more illumination in the day and night time hours that you are awake. When trying to sleep, try to not have too many lights on in your room so you are not distracted. Try playing some soft music that is relaxing for sleep time if you feel you need to. Also, don't eat right before trying to sleep. Another reason you may be feeling depressed is the fact you aren't doing enough for your day. You are moping around and aren't being social etc. You may want to try getting yourself involved in some physical activity such as a sport or going to a gym, or doing some extra curricular thing. Exercise is very important and it helps get your blood moving and also energizes you. Also, doing the activity will get you out there and being social so that you aren't stuck alone. Exercise also helps to wear you out so that at the end of the day you have a desire to rest and it helps keep you strong and will make you more resistant to the crappy weather. As for being social and dealing with friends you may feel that talk bad about you etc... you realize you are depressed so it's quite possible because you feel so negative now, that nothing is really happening. Perhaps you worry too much what your friends think about you and so you are kind of jaded and bummed out. Try to not think so much on that as if you are a decent person you will be liked. You may want to try to get out there and do some things with them and well, try again to get yourself moving more. Your friends may notice your being down and not know what to do about it which can cause you problems too. If you seriously doubt your friends, perhaps it's time to get out and meet some other people, but it all could be in your head too because you're in a negative frame of mind. Just keep in mind that you need to care about -yourself- and take care of you. If you don't like yourself, it makes it easier to think others don't too and you set yourself up for failure because you just don't know. You may then do things that are really countering what you'd like, which is for your friends to actually like you and think you are cool. They may be just fine, so don't go being your own worst enemy, ok? I hope this helped at all and that your depression slips to the wayside. The big thing here I think you need to do is work on lighting, how your room is, getting proper exercise and sleep. I'm sure if you do these things, you might feel more energetic during the waking times and positive, and at bed time you'll actually rest. Maybe toss in some hobby or something but raising your activities and the light issue may be best in your situation. Anyone gets down if they don't do these sorts of things.
Listen if your going to your friends and they don't notice you but their talking about something listen in and see what they say. If they ARE talking **** about you go out there and ask what you've done wrong. And depression just happens I feel dead inside every day.
I never said live carefree. People care all the time but they put bullcrap they deal with out of mind. Unfortunatly you would rather have it pent up inside yourself and think about it instead of say fcuk off to whatever is bugging you. Im not saying go out and party all the time but stop putting up with bullcrap, responsiblity is fine and all but it will kill you in the end if you don't take time for yourself.
