I'm ranting. It's been a while, so forgive me for being a little rusty and for being anonymous. If the person it speaks of reads this they'll know who they are. I miss you. I miss the talks we used to have. But you know what I miss most? I miss you not being a total ******* to me whenever I try and speak to you. Every god damn time I even pretend I give a **** about how you're doing you ignore me or say you're the same you always have been. Nothing new has happened? Is that even ****ing possible after half a year? And you know what, I'm not going to bother taking blame for things ending up this way like usual. Lord knows you're probably just some pedo who was pretending to be my friend and have the same intrests as me. No, it's all your god damn fault for letting our friendship fall apart. The least you can do is give me answers that are more than three letters long. Do you know what kind of hell it's been thinking about how it was all my fault that you became a part of my life? All I want to do right now is freaking strangle you for making it bad enough that I considered smashing my face in. I don't care if this is unorganized and confusing. I just need to say it. Just... urgh I don't even know. I just want to ****ing die every time I remember you because you remind me of so many good things that I just can't have. And every time I reach out to one of those things it's as if you're the one who slaps my hand away and rips my heart to shreds over and over again. I hate you. I hate you so much that I figure I might as well just take a match and burn myself to ashes every time you don't respond. obtw I'm leaving KHV. <3 and it does not have anything to do with this. it's because i'm in the middle of a lot of things right now that affect the rest of my life and i don't have time for this shithole to affect me
