Feeding My Addiction Distant from right here with me faith once colossal, almost gone once high, now low and empty you are the needle in my arm my selective awareness keeps me coming back for more blind to it's consequences conditionless now and before The higher I am now, the more I forget The higher I am now, the more I forget The higher I am now, the more I forget The higher I am now, the more I regret Rock bottom's an understatement dignity, I wish I knew the term you tend to satisfy my needs but secretly you watch me bum no need to understand me you and only you, no, nothing more but seeing how compassionate you are I wish I had the pain I knew before The higher I am now, the more I forget The higher I am now, the more I forget The higher I am now, the more I forget The higher I am now, the more I regret I love how you feed my addiction my addiction, my addiction I love how you feed my addiction I need and at the same time hate you [repeat chorus] I'm done tryin', I should realize it's one sided all that'd happen was all I would let I assumed it was the worst that could happen The higher I am, the more I forget a part of me, you're now a part of my blood a different person, it's hard to believe even though I did so much for love nothing I gain, nothing I receive The higher I am now, the more I forget The higher I am now, the more I forget The higher I am now, the more I forget The higher I am now, the more I regret You'd think I'd learn my lesson I take every hit and every toll I can't seem to quit the first cut is deep, the others deepen the hole I'm losing control of my mind how the story ends is a mystery given so much and what I've gotten is a rotten future and history The higher I am now, the more I forget The higher I am now, the more I forget The higher I am now, the more I forget The higher I am now, the more I regret I love how you feed my addiction my addiction, my addiction I love how you feed my addiction I need and at the same time hate you [repeat chorus]
