Inspired by Noroz's awesome work, and i just wanted to really get this out of my system. This is factual, and a very basic summary of my life so far. Not the best grammatically, but i mean every word of it. I may record myself reading it when i have the time, but i don't know yet. Anyway, yeah, enjoy i guess. CnC and opinions would be appreciated. Thanks in advance. Expression Session Hmm..where to start? Well, I hear the beginning’s a good place. I guess I’ve had a harsh life, though nowhere near as bad as other people. I was born in Melbourne in 1993 and my mother almost died during childbirth. Had a happy childhood, was always smiling, so that’s good I guess. But it stopped one day. That happiness, just…dissappeared. What happened? To put it simply, school happened. Now I’m not going to sit here complaining about schoolwork. While it is a pain in the ass it’s not what caused my happiness to leave me. Oh no, bullying was the cause of that. Just the usual name calling and physical abuse and whatnot. But it wasn’t just every now and then. From the age of 8, it was almost literally every day that I got bullied. Sometimes it was just at school, other times it was being insulted by my family. Why? No idea. I used to think that it was because there was something wrong with me. Maybe I had a mental disorder, maybe I was hideously ugly..maybe I deserved it? But yeah, school was rough. I got beaten up many times and not once did I ever think that it wasn’t my fault. Couple of years later and I’d reached high school. Fresh start, new people, a world of opportunities right? Wrong. It carried over. The same kid that had been bullying me all through primary school carried it over to high school. It wasn’t just him either. I have no idea why, but for some reason a lot of kids..followed him like sheep. They were like his personal gang or something like that. They chased me around and around the schoolyard one day until they cornered me. I’ve never been more scared in my life. Luckily another student had seen them and got the teacher, and thankfully that teacher stopped them. So I went through the years of school putting up with it. I changed schools during it but it followed me there too. It seemed…well it seemed like I couldn’t escape it. Like I was doomed to be bullied forever. Year 11 of school got a little better. I’d moved back to my original school and yeah, I met a girl. For privacy reasons I’m not going to say her name, but she helped me through school. Stood up for me, made me laugh a little, it was alright. Throughout year 11 it wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be. She helped me through it. And then, at the end of it…she just..moved away. I was crushed and sent back into my state of depression. Thought I’d never get out of it. Then, on the 5th of June 2011, one of my online friends introduced me to one of her friends. I was introduced to this friend like this: “this is my depressed friendâ€. I was thinking “great, another depressed person to bring me down. That’s all I needâ€. Well I was right, she was exactly what I needed. We got along from the start, talking as though we’d known each other for years. She made me laugh, she made me smile, and to this day she still does! Couple of days later on the 7th of June, I asked her out. To my surprise she said yes. Now you can’t even imagine how happy that made me. Years and years of unhappiness and hurt, and at that point it finally seemed like things were going fine. Me and her are still together to this day. I honestly believe I could end up marrying her. I’m not ashamed to admit that. Yeah I’ve known her only online, but the feelings for her are as real as any I’ve ever experienced. I love her, and she loves me. She is my joy, she makes me laugh when others fail at making me laugh, she makes me cry tears of joy, and she brought out my smile when I thought it had dissappeared completely. I don’t care what anyone says, what anyone thinks. She means the world to me, and she always will.
