Alright so, I rarely come here asking for help, and I don't know if any of this will, but I know once I get the problem out, I usually feel better. And it's mostly just a lot of things hitting me at once. So, here goes: I've been having back pain since November. I've been to doctors and so far they think it's a benign tumor on my spine. But they aren't sure. After a bone scan today, the guy didn't see anything so I may just have to live with pain my whole life. (though it still has to be looked at by a radiologist). And if it's anything really serious, I may need to have surgery. I've never had surgery ever. So it's rather scary. Especially spinal surgery because I know if something went wrong it would seriously mess me up. My sister tore a ligament in her ankle so she's been having to go to the doctor also. So has my mom due to her blood clot on her lung that happened awhile ago. All these doctors bills keep adding up and we're not the richest family so I'm always worrying about the cost of things even though my mom says not to. We're waiting for my mom's second divorce to finalize. While doing so, we have to fix up the house to sell it and look for another place to live. I know how bad real estate is and I'm worried we'll end up homeless. I've only got three weeks left of school in my junior year. I've got at least five projects (three of which are in the same class) due in the next week and a half. And these will count of a huge chunk of my grade and I need to do well on them to keep my grade point average up. I've learned recently that I can't hold a conversation (face-to-face) with a guy to save my life. I just think I'm socially awkward around them. And I'm conviced that the only reason that some of them do talk to me is just so they can stare at my chest. My friends are having problems of their own. I'm trying to help them as much as I can, but it doesn't seem to work. It's like, I can't say anything to help. And finally, I've been very grouchy lately. It's probably due to stress, but I just hate listening to myself being in such a foul mood. There. I believe thats just about everything. Sorry for it being so lengthy.
That really sucks, for both you and your sister. But if surgery is necessary, than you just have to think that you'll probably be better at the end of the process. As for the money issues, if you're really worried about it, maybe start working if you haven't already? And instead of using the money on clothes and other things of that nature, use it on the bills. So that you both can get better. It might seem really bad, but I'm sure everything will end up fine for you. And even though real estate is bad, people still are looking for houses, even if it's lesser numbers. School can get really stressful at the end of the year, believe me I know aswell. Just try to not be as stressed, and allow time intervals for doing school work and projects so that you'll be able to pass the courses. Don't forget to give yourself time to relax. Without waiting until the last minute for the work, though. Try to just be more comfortable around people, and be comfortable with yourself as a person. Everyone is a little socially awkward when it comes to the opposite sex sometimes, so don't worry about it. And as for them staring at your chest, then that's their loss. Because they are too worried about your chest and missing out on what a great person you are. I know it's hard to do, but try not to worry about your friends as much. Their problems and drama can have a negative effect on you if you dwell on their negativity. And just try to relax and do things that you enjoy. That might put you in a better mood. Listen to happier music, maybe even eat healthier? It could help lighten your spirits. I really hope this helps. You're awesome and I don't want to see you upset <3
