I wrote this as whatever came to mind so it may be a bit out of order and confusing... My apologies for that. My bloodline is f*cked up, to put it bluntly. Borderline, manicism, bipolar disorder, paraoina, anti-social disorder, etc. (Wow, my sister really got lucky with having a different father than me.) With all of these problems one can imagine how me and my brother act like. And with two bipolar people together it gets messy sometimes. And with him doing drugs, all of the issues he has just gets wrose. It used to be bearable but now it's to this, me actually asking help from people. (I don't normally do such things, unless it's from close friends but bonds are wavering atm.) Well, I guess the main problem with him is him getting bossy around me. For the majority of his life he has hated me since our father liked me and hated him. That's no longer the issue given our current knowlegde of our psychotic father, so now I think the problem is that mom likes me more now, or at least, he thinks she does. It does seem that way given the facts that he is a drop out with a child and another on the way. This puts a lot of stress on him, and here I am, an outlet. (It's not true though - mom loves him and tells him so often and that she is only disappointed in him. He says he'll change everytime but... it's been years and no sign of improvement. I wish to help but I've tried and he never listens to me, the little sister. I'm afraid there is nothing I can do to help and he isn't learning by expirence.) He has a history of harming me to the point of nearly killing me. It's been a long time since he has laid a hand on me but I fear he may do so soon, as he nearly almost did so, but mom was in the room to stop him. To avoid getting hit I do as he asks, but I really don't want to deal with this anymore on top of all of my other issues - one of us may snap sooner or later. So what do I do? Wait out and sees if he moves out at 18 (March 25 of next year) or when I turn 18 in two years (definetly leaving, no way am I staying here.) Or what? Please don't say call the cops. He may be going to jail already, but if that's not the case then I don't want to put him there and wish for a different solution.
Well, it's quite obvious to me that your bro will never change, at least until he hits rock bottom. But that could be years from now, so I wouldn't count on any change from him. Personally, if I were in your position, I would just ignore him, just like with school bullies. If he sees that you're not intimidated by him, maybe he'll bugger off. In the meantime, I would avoid being alone with him. He'll probably lay off if there are witnesses. Even if you'll only be alone for like 5 minutes while your mom gets milk or something, ask if you can go with her. Ordinarily, I would advise you to call the cops, but you seem dead set against it, so I won't tell you that. But if he does anything else that could harm you, please tell. No one here wants you to get hurt. Finally, I wouldn't count on your brother moving out next year. If he's as messed up as you say, he'll probably keep mooching off your mom's kindness as long as possible. You'll probably have to wait 'till college to get away from him completely. Good luck. <3
