I've been trying not to ask people for advice/help all the time but I feel right now is a good time. I do have an anxiety disorder and I've been off meds for about a year now. Lately I've been feeling hyper/blah at different times of the day. I can also go from being happy to depressed to the point where I wanna curl up in my closet and cry my eyes out until I die. Then after about an hour I'm fine again. I keep feeling different emotions on different days at different times and all that. I'm afraid of having a meltdown at camp and maybe hurting myself or someone else there. I HATE going to any doctor so that's not an option idc how many people say I should go to one. I feel like no one understands what I'm feeling and sometimes I don't either. Most of the time everyone's all "oh you're fine just get over it" but the truth is that I'm not fine and can't just get over it but almost everyone I know refuses to understand that. Any ideas on what I should do? And I'd LOVE to avoid going back on the meds.
My opinions: Meditation Writing down your feelings down somewhere so you can vent Listening to music When I go through mood swings I do these and it helps me. I hope you take my advice and try these.
Well, there may be other ways besides meds, but that's really beyond me and perhaps meds are the best option in your case. But...I think you should try to relax, and talk to an adult person of trust, who you know can offer advice and take action or necessary steps towards your well-being. You may not want to go to a psychiatrist, but going to a psychologist to assess the situation might help. Explain that you do not want to keep drinking meds. I understand that you want a fresh and clean start, but you must recognize that you may need professional help regardless of wanting medication or not.
I'm no expert, but it sound like you might be bipolar, or have some other form of the disorder. If this is the case, you should probably just go back on meds until science brings along more permanent solution. If that's not an option, then I don't know what to say.
To me this sounds alot like Bipolar disorder, although I'm not even close to being an expert in this.Do your "high" moments sometimes consist of doing things you wouldnt normally do, like going on a shopping spree for no reason? It also sounds like you could suffer from loss of self association (you say sometimes you don't understand what you're feeling, I'm the same.) The Anxiety stress and irrational fears can also be signs of similar disorders. If you're taking meds then the meds are to counter (some of) the symptoms and stopping would only make it worse. And I know you said no matter how much you're told you won't see a doctor but I really think you should go see a psychiatric professional. YOU DONT HAVE TO GO TO THEM FOR A DIAGNOSIS OR FOR THERAPY, YOU CAN JUST GO FOR EMOTIONAL SUPPORT.
First thing's first, was it your own decision to get off your medication? And was there any event that may have triggered those emotions, or do they just come and go? I think, as P had said on the thread below me, that it could be a sign of teenagehood as well, that you're trying to find your 'true' self and all the emotions keep welling up inside you. I know because sometimes I get different extremes of emotions at times too (but I never act out on them, instead I just bottle it all up). :/ Due to my emotional breakdown I had because of situations at home becoming tougher by the second, they referred me to a psychiatrist, and since then I've felt bit by bit as if the weight's getting off my chest. c: That might be a solution for you too, but who knows? My only advice at the moment for you is to try and find a hobby that'll be almost like an outlet to how you've been feeling (Like how I draw when I feel stressed, angry or just to calm myself) and hopefully it'll ebb those feelings away bit by bit, even if its only for a temporary measure. If not, I sorely advise you to see a psychologist, medication will surely not help with your health and personality.
[highlight]Mood swings are a normal part of being a teen, although your problem sound a bit more than that. Just try to keep calm. If something's depressing, just get out of there. Change of scene can help. A distraction such as music is also good. Medication is definitely not always the best answer. If you can get through it with your own willpower, that's far better. Pills can build up dependency/addiction, or simply kill your personality while you're on them.[/highlight]
