Title: All That I Want Author: R1 Max/FangZeronos/Poseidon/FangJoker Couple/Character: Raven/Beast Boy from Teen Titans Rating: PG-13/Teen for mild violence Short Summary: When the Titans disbanded, Raven opted to stay in Jump City and the Tower. As two years passed, Raven found herself longing for the company of one Titan that she still managed to talk to, but she didn't know if he still felt the way that he said… Dedication: I want to dedicate this one to Kate, since she‘s playing this pair with me on a different board, though it‘s a slightly different version. She‘s everything to me, and that‘s something that I can‘t replace no matter what happens. She‘s always there when I need her, and that‘s something that I can‘t ever thank her enough for.____________________________________________ Meditation was all that Raven did anymore. Sitting cross-legged over the couch like she usually did as she meditated, she was still in her signature black leotard and cape, trying to keep her emotions in check as she thought of the Titans. As images of the Titans filled her mind, she started smiling as she thought of all of the fun times that she'd had with Robin, Cyborg, and Starfire. As the last Titan's face filled her mind, Raven screamed and fell out of the air, crashing into the couch. She shook as she looked up at the ceiling, and she sighed. "Gar...I wish that you were here..." she whispered, looking at her hands as she shook. _______________________________________________________ On the far side of Jump City, a figure got out of a cab and looked at the looming figure of Titan's Tower in the distance. "Well...I'm home," he muttered before he jumped and shifted into a green crow, and he flew towards the Tower. When he arrived at Titans Tower, the bird rapped on the window of the living room with his beak, seeing the person that he was looking for. Raven, who had been avoiding closing her eyes longer then she needed, looked up and saw the bird. "What--?" she muttered, getting up and crossing to the window. She opened the window and let the bird in. She was surprised when the bird transformed back into Beast Boy. She screamed and tackled him, pressing herself as close to him as she could. "Whoa! Ray, easy. I'm not going anywhere," Beast Boy said, putting his arms around Raven. He gave her a hug, and he closed his eyes, letting her cling to him like she was. "Don't....don't leave me again....please....please don't leave me again, Gar...." Raven whispered, starting to cry into the Green-skinned Titans chest. "Please..." She cling to him like a life line, and she didn't want to let him go. "I won't leave, Raven. I promise. I don't plan on leaving at all," Gar said, hugging her as he sat up. He tilted her head up to his, and he wiped her eyes, kissing her forehead. "I won't leave you again, Raven, I swear." As the two sat on the floor of the Tower, Raven gradually fell asleep, her head coming to rest at the base of Gar's neck. She sighed in her sleep, trying to keep herself calm. After a while longer, he carried her up to her room. _____________________________ The Next Morning When Raven woke up the next morning, she realized that she was in her bed, barely able to remember what happened the night before. All she remembered was tackling Beast Boy and not letting him go. She looked around her room, hoping to see Garfield curled up next to her in his cute little kitten form, but she felt her heart sink when she realized that he wasn't there. "Garfield?" she called, sitting up and moving her dark hair out of her face. "Gar?" She swung her legs off of the bed, and she pulled her bathrobe around her. "Gar, where are you?" She was getting worried, and she sighed. "You promised. Where are you?" As she walked out into the hall, the smells of bacon and eggs reached her nose. She walked into the kitchen, tying the robe around her waist. "Gar?" she called once more, looking around. "Garfield?" The Titans head popped up from on the other side of the counter, and he smiled. 'Well, good morning, Sleeping Beauty," he said, smiling as he pulled a cookie sheet of biscuits out of the oven. "Well, don't be shy, silly. Come on, come on. I made you some breakfast." Raven smiled and walked into the kitchen, and she hopped up on the counter. She smirked as she reached over and took a piece of bacon from the plate that Gar was stacking it on. “What’cha gonna do?” she giggled, taunting Gar most of the time as she did. “Huh, greeny? What’chu gonna do?” Gar smiled, and he hopped up on the counter next to Raven. “I’ll tell you what I’m gonna do,” he said, smirking as he tickled her sides. “This is what I’m going to do!” Laughing, he started tickling her a lot more, making her scream in laughter as she squirmed. Raven laughed and fell to the floor and pulled Gar down with her. She laughed as she kept trying to wiggle out of his grip and avoiding the fingers of tickling doom that he was using. What happened next shocked Raven more then anything else in the history of the Titans. She looked up into Gar’s eyes, and for the first time, she realized how close the two were. She put her hand on his cheek, and she looked at the confusion that was more then likely mirrored in her eyes. “Gar….” Raven whispered, running her hand in his hair gently, letting her fingers trail through as she semi-brushed it out. “Yes?” Gar asked, his voice low as he looked back into Ravens silver colored eyes. “God…you’re so beautiful….” That comment made up Ravens mind for her. Putting her hands in his hair, she slanted her head and slammed her lips against Gar’s, not giving him a single chance to speak. The two were locked in a kiss that would have made mountains rumble, the two youths oblivious to the world around them. Gar gently pulled back, looking at the dark haired girl. “What?” Raven asked, her eyes filling with confusion, hurt, love, other things that she herself couldn’t identify. “I want to tell you something…” Gar whispered, looking at Raven. He slid his arms around her waist, and he thought of how best to tell her what was in his mind. He bit his lip, and he sighed. “What is it, Gar?” Raven asked, putting her hand back on his cheek. Gar looked at Raven, and he nuzzled against her hand softly before he kissed her palm. He bit his lip again, and he tried to think of how to word his confession. Since Gar was sitting in front of her being uncharacteristically quiet, Raven felt her face burn a dark red that would rival even Robin’s suit, and she pulled away from him. “I thought that you were different, Gar…” she whispered, getting up and starting to run towards her room. When she felt Gar grab her arm, Raven turned and punched him in the chest, but he wasn’t planning on letting go. “Let me go, Gar,” she whispered, her voice laced with fear. “No. Not until you listen to me,” Gar said, looking at Raven. His voice was even lower then before in the kitchen, and Raven knew that if he lost control she wouldn’t be able to stop him. “I said, let me go!” Raven screamed, trying to get away. She pulled as hard as she could to get out of his grip, but each time she’d pull, he’d tighten up that much more. “You’re hurting me! Let me go!” Gar looked at Raven and he saw the fear in her eyes. He let her go, and he had regret from hurting her in his eyes. “I’m sorry, Raven….I’m sorry that I didn’t just tell you how I felt right now, but I--” “Shut up! JUST SHUT THE HELL UP!” Raven yelled, using her powers to blast Gar across the room and force him up into the counter. “Just listen to me! For once, in your life, just ****ING LISTEN TO ME!” he yelled. “God damn it, Raven! Why can’t you just listen to me!?” “Because you’re killing me!” Raven said, tears in her eyes and on her cheeks. She made no move to wipe her eyes, so she instead opted to glare at Gar, hate replacing the love that was in her eyes moments before. “You’re killing me and you don’t even see it!” Gar took a step closer to Raven, and he looked into her eyes, feeling physical pain from he look that he was getting. He knew that he was messing up with her, and he wanted to make things right. “Raven….you want the truth?” he whispered. “YES!” Raven yelled, looking at Gar like he was the lowest bit of garbage on the planet. “I want the truth, and I want you TO QUIT ****ING TOYING WITH MY HEART, GARFIELD!” “I LOVE YOU, DAMN IT! I love you so much that it hurts! It hurts to think of my life without you! That’s why I came back! I wanted to tell you how I felt for so long….but…I couldn’t….” Gar fell to his knees, making no moves again. He felt the hot tears stinging the back of his eyes, and he didn’t care anymore. He let the tears fall hot and fast, and he sighed, shaking as he did. He hoped that he wasn’t about to be blown to Kingdom Come either, though at that point, that would have been better. Raven--who hadn’t been expecting that--walked over to Gar and knelt beside him. She put her hand on his cheek, all traces of her anger leaving her as she looked at him. She raised his head up to hers, and she made him look at her. “Garfield? You don’t know how long I’ve waited to hear you say those words to me,” she whispered, kissing his cheek. “You don’t know how long….I’ve waited for someone to tell me that they loved me my entire life, and I never had anyone say that….not until just now…” Raven slipped her arms around Gars neck, and she made him sit down. She climbed into his lap, and she nuzzled her cheek against his shoulder. Gar put his arm around Raven’s waist, and he sighed, closing his eyes. He leaned his head against hers, and he gave her a small squeeze. She looked up at him, and she put her hand on his cheek again. “Gar?” “Yeah?” Gar asked, looking at Raven with love back in his eyes. “I love you, too,” she whispered, smiling softly as she pulled his face back to hers, kissing him again. “I’ve always loved you, and I’ll always love you. I don’t care what happens, I love you and that won’t ever change.” “I believe you,” Gar said, smiling back softly towards Raven. He kissed her again, letting his lips linger against hers, and he nudged her head with his. “I love you so much. I’m sorry that I never said anything before now, though, Ray.” “Don’t be. You needed to figure out what you wanted, and I understand that. I really do. I had to think of what my feelings for you were, too. I love you, so stop beating yourself up, huh? I’ll kick your ass,” Raven said, her lips playing at the faintest trace of a smile. “Alright?” “I believe that you would,” Gar said, smiling as he gave Raven a squeeze around the waist. “Damn right,” Raven giggled, pouncing Gar and sending them both laying on the floor where they stayed for a great while….
Oh. . .my. . .gosh. That was a good first chapter..xD I hope you are planning to write more because that was great.xD
